It’s not very often that I sit down and do a “spur of the moment” blog post but I was in a reflective mood and started to think about how different things were for me this time last year. Obviously I share a huge amount of my life with you guys, and see you all as my internet buddies, but there is a massive chunk of it that only my close friends and family know about that has never been introduced online, but let’s just say that this time last year I was a very different person. I wasn’t as happy and I was inside a “zoe shell” as Louise called it.

I’m not writing this blog post to tell you the back story or to explain how everything got better, but what I do want to do, is reassure any of you that may be going through a hard time, that things DO get better. It may not feel like it, but with a few little changes, they will. Nobody leads the perfect life, and things that you aren’t prepared for may get thrown at you, and sometimes it’s really very hard to battle those problems and sticky life situations. I just want you to know that you can do it. It might take days, weeks, months or years. Everything happens for a reason and everything we go through moulds us as people and make us who we are. 

This Ellie Goulding song, is one of my favourite songs that summed up the majority of my 2012. You know those songs that just get you EVERY TIME and it’s like the lyrics were MADE for your situation? I had to admit, every time I listened to it up until a few months a go, I’d cry. I don’t know whether they were sad tears, or happy tears, I think possibly tears of relief? I played it over and over and I felt like it really helped. Music makes everything better.

What’s your favourite song with meaning? good or bad?

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  1. Love you zoe <3 xx

  2. You're right things do get better. I've been feeling so out of it lately like life is meaningless, but I'm hoping things will turn around for the better :). Glad your enjoying life xx

  3. This post is so lovely and reassuring to read, im glad everything has seemed to work out for you zoe :) x

  4. Zoe you have no idea how much I needed this! Thank you for making my life better and I'm glad that you're happy :-) <3

  5. Wise words, totally reflective of what i have had to say to myself. Glad you are in a position to say this to people at the start of their hard journey! x

  6. lover you should have come over – jeff buckely or when i look to the sky – train!

  7. Bea

    Lovely post as per usual, that song is one of my faves! xx

  8. love this post so much and there is so many songs to fit so many different moods but I do think the song that when I listen to the words; I really listen, is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. I absolutely love it and that's the only song I could really think of that I actually take notice of the lyrics.

  9. Your blog is always such a joy!
    Thank you so much for taking times like this just to write about your feelings :)

  10. This is lovely, your lovely, your friends are lovely and I love you

  11. Loved this post Zoe, glad you're much happier now. My song with meaning is Whistle of the Choir by the Fratellis, it reminds me of a very bumpy relationship which ended in heartbreak (on my part, not his) and every time I listen to it I have a little cry! Thank you for helping me stay positive, I would be slightly a less happy person if it wasn't for you x x x

  12. This is so relevant to what I've gone through that I would describe as the worst and people telling me that things will get better and this blog post is reassurance of that. Thank you 💕

  13. I love Ellie Goulding sooo much :)

  14. Im struggling with self harm zoe and your post made me think that things can get better and they will get better. Thank yiu! Could you follow me on twitter? @ hollyrae_ox xxx

  15. I have a couple of songs that just do that to me, it's just the emotional meaning I see in them and relate with myself. This post sums up everything that happened for me too, Zoe, getting better and being happy again :) SO happy you're doing better <3

  16. My song with meaning is Avril Lavigne – When you're gone. I heard this song over and over when my grandmother died and the song just reminds me of her. x
    I am very happy to hear that you are doing so much better now and that you have become such a happy and sparkling person! x

    Lots of Love
    Christina xx

  17. uncomfortably slow by newton faulkner, sums up my life at the moment. hopefully i'll get to a dream catch me phase, but i'm not there just yet. keep smiling lovely zoe :) Evie x

  18. Bless you Zoe, go glad you're doing well. If I'm getting worked up about something I like to listen to the 'Galaxy Song', it just seems to put everything into perspective.


  19. You Made my day with this blog post ! Thank you Zoella, really really Thank you !! Xx

  20. Holly

    Couldn't agree more! As for the song thing, there's always those ones (for me at least) that make you feel weird when you listen to them, as they bring back a load of memories from a bad time, which make you realise like, wow, how things have changed… in a positive way. If that makes sense :)

    Holly |

  21. what is that song called ? i can't watch it in germany -.-

  22. I'm so glad that you're in a better place now. It can be really hard to see the light when you are in the dark but it's true, things change and they do get better. My go-to song at the mo is 'Pieces of What' by MGMT. Not sure why though :/

  23. Your blog posts like this really help me with my anxiety. Thank you so much for being such an inspiration to me and many others. When I feel really anxious, I just think to my self "Zoe said yes and look how far she's come!" and I stop getting so worried. Thank you once again x

  24. Mines hoppipolla by sigur ros. It's all in another language but it's in a lot of films so you would probably recognise it. It makes me cry with happiness every time I listen to it :) xxxx

  25. this is the cutest thing ever, this song has also changed lots in my life!staystong zoe! woohoo!

  26. I love you Zoe!

  27. I'm hoping that I can be in a 'happy' place soon. I haven't had a great 2013 with my anxiety/panic attacks. I have sometimes took strength from the song I'm on my way by Charlie Brown.

    Take Care xx

  28. "holding a heart" by Girl Named Toby

  29. Sandra

    I'm always feeling so happy and positive when I read your blog posts! :) <3 Love them!
    I think my favourite song right now is 'amazing for a minute' – Katy McAllister or 'wake me up' – ed sheeran

  30. Aldo.

    thanks x does help to be reassured x

  31. What a cute little post, I love that song too! Love you Zoe! <3

  32. This post was exactly what I needed today xx

  33. My favourite song with a meaning is Moments by One Direction!

  34. I really needed someone to tell me that things will get better and change. I feel stuck right now like nothing is moving forward and i do feel like I'm in a dark place like you described in your blog post. Sorry if my english is bad… but I would really like to thank you for like re-assuring me that things does turn around! :) . It's just a little hard for me to believe that in this stage of my life but I will still hope for the very best. I love you zoe!! your videos always puts a smile on my face when i really feel down. xo

  35. I just cried.. :/ Love you Zoe! xxx

  36. when you're gone by Avril Lavinge …It always makes me cry it makes me think of the loved ones i have lost ..they are happy tears though because i remember all the good times

  37. Sophie

    one of the songs that really described my feelings about a year ago was 'Astronaut' from Simple Plan cause I felt really loneley at that moment, but I'm a lot happier now :)

  38. Aw Zoella well we can all tell your so happy now and this song is so meaningful it makes me sad too but happy sad haha I don't know anyway whatever happened last year you look 10000 times happier….the song I like to listen to and think about is called Dream by Priscilla Ahn xo

  39. Lovely post! My favourite song is 'Island in the sun' by Weezer, it makes me smile everytime I hear it! <3

  40. Ai

    Right now I'm the happiest I've been in a very long time so I really can't think of the songs I used to listen to and cry when I was at my lowest a few years ago. I think part of why they made me cry was that it made me realize there are people out there who understood the exact emotion I was feeling. Although I can't think of any songs, my boyfriend introduced me to a song whose lyrics fit perfectly to his situation. It was Avicii's Wake Me Up. I'm not usually into dance/electronic/trance type music but when I heard it I got goosebumps because of how perfectly the lyrics described my boyfriend. It was obviously very meaningful for him and I think he felt relieved that other people do go through similar situations and struggles. I can't stop listening to it now :)

  41. i have had the worst day ever with something huge in my life ending and that short second paragraph is something that i massively needed to hear.
    i'm glad you managed to get through your bad times and have progressed onto being happy. i hope i can too.
    thank you so much.

    Jenna x

  42. This helped a lot, who knew such small words could make things seem better, I love you Zoe! xxxx

  43. This could not have come at a better time for me, been finding things pretty tough as of late. Nice to know I'm not alone, thank you so much :) xxx

  44. Megra12

    I also believe that music makes everything better. Whenever I'm having a bad day, or going through a rough time, I turn to music. Sometimes I even play sad songs just because my heart is heavy and I want something that will make me cry it out. One of the songs that has had a great deal of meaning for me over the last couple years is "Over You" by Miranda Lambert. My Grandma passed away right not long before this song came out and it still resonates with me and makes me cry when I'm missing my Grandma (one of my dearest friends).

  45. I'm not gonna lie, I'm in a bad place at moment but I feel like I'm very slowly returning to me, something that helps me is keeping busy and saying "go away" if I get a bad thought. But Zoe I love you and your blog so much! when I see that you've posted something new it always cheer me up a little, and I feel like watching your videos or reading your blog posts kind of takes me away from my own problems so thank you so much for that and I hope you stay positive and everything goes well for you xxxx

  46. Goedele

    Thank you for this lovely post Zoe, I actually am going through a tough time, and reading this already made me feel better! I have one song that I always listen to or just start singing whenever I feel bad, it's an oldie but a goodie: Hey man by Eels. I went through a time where I was very very tired and anxious, and I still sometimes get scared things might go wrong with me whenever I'm not feeling too great. But when I listen to this song, I can embrace life again and just enjoy every moment of it!

  47. Katie

    I love finding beautiful new songs that contain so much raw emotion. Music is such a massive thing that can affect me so much and this is just lovely, thanks so much for sharing. So happy to hear your out of your shell, definitely something I can relate to! :)

  48. I have to say Zoe, you're truly one of my greatest inspirations. A year and a half ago I was diagnosed with an eating disorder and depression. It was the lowest point in my entire life. I would lay in bed and cry for hours. No one understood my situation and no one could even try to understand it. It was such an awful time. Luckily, I beat my eating disorder over the summer and sometime in winter I beat my depression. It's taken me awhile to get up and hangout with friends, but I've slowly started going out more. Saturday my friend texted me saying that our group was having a bonfire and I should come. I sat there and thought for a little bit if I should go or not. I've gained weight since the last time they've seen me, so I was scared they were going to think less of me. I just decided the say yes and go. I had the greatest time. I haven't had that much fun in a really, really long time. I have to thank you because you're the one that encouraged me to say "yes" months ago. I have no been this happy in such a long time. :-)

  49. this is so true zoe had a similar experience with anxiety and shyness as when you come out of that tough time its the strangest but best feeling you can ever feel :) xx

  50. Love this! I'm always immediately happy when I read your blog.
    My favorite song is 'other side's by macklemore and fighter' by the gym glass heroes.

  51. Such an inspirational post to keep on going, appreciate the good and plough through the bad.


  52. This just made me smile :) x

  53. I went through a tough time when I was 13 and 14, and as cliche as it sounds, it was Justin Bieber that pulled me out of that stoop. But one song that helped me throughout that tough time in 2008 & 2009 was A Little Bit Longer by Nick Jonas. It let me know that I wasn't alone in my suffering, even if the song was about a completely different struggle, it showed me that people were going through exactly the same amount of struggle & pain as I was at the time. It's still one of my favourites to this day. Another song that is the same, but just reminds me of what I went through, rather than bringing it all back, was When I Look At You by Miley Cyrus, which is pretty much the theme song for her movie The Last Song, which I connect with, even if it is about love, it reminds me of those I've lost in the past, and remembering the good times. It's songs like these that have actually helped me to be the happiest person I've ever been to date. So those are my favourite songs that hold sentimental meaning! :) I'm glad you're happier now Zoe

  54. You and your blog always remind me that things get better, you've been through a lot and you're so inspiring, but also, you're just a normal girl, someone you could meet on the street and be friends with.
    'Beautiful Disaster' by Kelly Clarkson always calms me down when I'm having a panic attack, and 'Brave' by Sara Bareilles was the song that inspired me to get help<3

    Tilly xoxo

  55. This was such a lovely post :) I'm amazed at how much things have changed for me over this last year as well … and they've definitely changed for the better :) I'm now happy and know what I want to achieve in life, I'm about to apply to become an Early years teacher which I'm so excited about! and this time last year I never would have had the confidence to do so!
    Its amazing how much difference a year can make!
    Charlotte xxx

  56. You write such lovely and inspirational blog posts, I don't really have a song that means much to me but I do love music, I also suffer from anxiety and after a panic attack I always read your posts and they always set me up for the day! I love you so much :) xxxxx

  57. I listened her entire CD sooo many times! Love her

  58. KatyaGi

    I really needed this blog post. Recently I've been REALLY stressed out and just never happy, it got to the point where I just had a breakdown and had to let everything out, until yesterday when I went to see Mcfly at the Royal Albert Hall. When I was there they played 'Not Alone' and 'I'll be OK', and they really helped me! Like you, 'Not Alone' makes me very tearful when I listen to it and I genuinely think they are tears of relief, telling me I'm not the only one feeling the way I am and there are so many people that can help me with how I'm feeling.
    I'm so happy that you're out of your 'zoe shell' and hope that soon I come out of mine. With your blog posts and videos like these hopefully it will happen soon.
    Thank you for helping Zoe ♥ xo

  59. Thank you Zoe <3 You have helped alot of people by writing this, including myself. Lots of love, XXXX.

  60. The combination of reading this and listening to the song has brought me to tears. This post truly gave me hope and I really do want to get through this part in my life

  61. Things do get better! I love that you started blogging again:)
    The one song that is always there for me and about me is Edguy blessing in disguise.

  62. Natali

    My favorite song with a meaning would be probably Who You Are by Jessie J or Change Your Life by Little Mix :) This songs just can make me be more confident and more happy with who I am, which is sometimes really really hard. And when I'm getting older, I 'm gradually realising, when something was wrong, it always has get better :) And I absolutely agree with your words, that everything happens for a reason, good or bad things, no matter :) Have a nice day :) -Natali

  63. Tegan and Sara's 'The Con' from their album of the same tile. This song will forever remind me of the greatest love, and simultaneously a very painful, confusing time in my life. The words of the song literally mean everything to me.

  64. you're such a lovely being, zoe and i hope that you are happy and i hope you love life and that it treats you well <3

  65. Zoe thank you so much for this post. This relates to myself in so many ways and reading this has helped me to smile a little. After hospital visits, anxiety and panic attacks, family passing away and also scary times at home with being ill, this post (oh and ALL your videos) make me smile and so happy :)


  66. Kodaline ft Nina Nesbitt – Brand New Day

    It just makes me smile every time I wake up to a brand new day, simply because it is, a brand new day.. filled with brand new adventures and brand new hope <3

    Lovely post Zoe!

  67. I have los of song with meaning, depending on my mood swings, but I like SHM's line: see Heaven's got a plan for you. I like it because I know I'm living a temporary arragement but I also know that I have bigger plans, and they will come true. :)

  68. maria


  69. You are inspirational Zoe. I'm so glad things turned out and got better and better for you. You have probably helped so many people who suffered as you did.
    You're an amazing woman.


  70. Great flowers and great singer!


  71. i really needed this cheerig up thank you zoe!

  72. aWalker

    I needed this post right now zoe, thanks:)

  73. iris by the goo goo dolls is a classic for me

  74. It really does get better, but when we're in the spur of the moment, we can't help but think that things won't improve. Such an inspirational post, you're my idol Zoe!

  75. Thank you Zoe for this blog post. All my friends have left for University (and when I say everyone I mean practically all of them and only a few acquaintances left.) This means I am alone a lot and am really struggling day to day. My boyfriend of nearly 2 years broke up with me because of University (distance mainly and other things, however still a good friend) which means I feel even more alone as I don't have a person who wants to talk to me all the time and is busy with Freshers, as are all my best friends.

    I'm due to have major knee reconstruction surgery (from an accident when I was 10) which will mean I will be mostly disabled for about 3 months meaning I won't be able to visit my friends at University. My sister is at University also doing a PGCE year which means she is very, very busy although she makes a lot of time to ring me, it's not the same as contact with another person.

    At the moment, my dad who is the best parent I could wish for, is away on business which he often is from time to time but for me, couldn't be worse timing. My stepmum (who I don't always get on with) is really ill atm with flu and therefore I'm not spending a lot of time with her due to my upcoming operation which I don't want to postpone if I get sick.

    I have also had to postpone going to University till March 2014 which seems forever and ever away due to this operation and also can't pass my driving test until I recover as there isn't enough time for me to do it beforehand.

    I'm sorry to write this massive post on your blog, I just needed to let it out and thought this was the right time and place for some reason even though it'll annoy people and you.

  76. Thank you zoella for this , you are very inspirational , Thank you for everything :)

  77. I love this. i'm quite jealous of the way you are able to explain your thought and feelings in words, as i can't do that. I've been through a really dark time a few years ago and your blogpost about panic attacks really helped me to understand those situations and myself. I look up to you! (: Love the spng by the way!

  78. You are amazing Zoe! i discovered you a few years ago on YouTube and have been a fan ever since!

  79. Sasha

    This is why I love you Zoe. You honestly make me feel better every day. xx

    My favourite songs with meaning are all Mumford&Sons songs, especially Ghosts that we knew(always cry when I hear it), Where are you know, Thistle and Weeds…And also Pink's Bridge of light and Emelie Sande's Clown :)

  80. your right Zoe things do get better This time two months ago I was distraught lost and didn't feel myself at All and I still have a little cry now and again like most people sometimes do but I feel a lot stronger for going through what I did thanks for your posts as always lot's of internet buddy love ! xxx
    Sarah xx

  81. Lindsm

    this post has given me a boost i need ! i really havent felt myself in so long and ive only just fully realised this! thanks :) i dont have a specific song but i love listening to jessie j's first album :) x

  82. Maree

    lovely post, Zoe ;)
    And God, music does make everything better! even if it's the worst and saddest thing in the world. There's nothing like a song that makes you feel like it was written about you and this particular moment of your life. I have this thing on my blog, where every month I sum up the songs I've been loving. for all kinds of reasons.. Coz I wanted to keep track of those songs that express me and my life. check it out guys if you want. At the moment, sadly, the song about my life is Concrete Walls by Hudson Taylor (formerly knowns as Harry and Alfie)

  83. My favourite song of the moment is U.N.I by Ed Sheeran, such an inspiring song, whatever situation your going through, happy or sad! :)

  84. sfgdsfg

    Thanks for sharing, Zoe! Not to sounds staulkerish, but I was just thinking of you when I saw that you published a new post. I'm going through a hard time in my life right now and you've helped me be more positive through it. Thanks! Love you! Xoxo

  85. Sasha

    I wish I could grab a coffee or something with you.

    Good luck on your surgery&quick recovery!

  86. You are a sweet girl Zoe! I'm so glad you were able to find your way out of that "Zoe Shell" because the Zoe that emerged is just wonderful!

  87. Emeli sande read all about it, i find this song to be very inspiring, as i think it is telling you to be confident and fight for what you believe in, which i think i need to do more often

  88. Run by Snow Patrol gets me every time :( xx

  89. i hope one day i will feel this positive about things aswell (:

  90. This year is been really difficult to me and reading this and knowing through what you shared in your videos that you had a really bad time too and now you're really ok gives me even more hope that I'll be really ok too. Thank you for sharing this thoughts with us, Zoe. For who, like me, is having a bad time, means a lot. :)

  91. amazing blog post zoe! glad you're feeling better now.
    I am currently listening to the song 'how long will i love you' by Ellie goulding. I love that song!

  92. Cristi

    This is a really nice post. I totally agreed that music makes everything better even at the worst times! I have a few oldies that always make me smile or some that are upbeat to make me feel more positive at those times. Currently I like 'Brave' by Sara Bareilles x

  93. Noush

    I love this song so much !!!!

  94. To be honest I think Bastille 'Laughter Lines' because all the bad things that happen in your life, (I have had a few!)if you get to be old and have laughter lines I would show I made the most of what I've got! oh I all soppy :P xx

  95. This blog got to me, i mean i never know how to describe how i feel but i know a song that does. and this song is it! I'm glad someone gets it too x

  96. Erin

    I'm glad you're a lot happier now. I've been following you on youtube for years and never would've known you were going through such a rough time.


  97. Love you Zoe, How to Save a Life by the Fray would be one of the ones that I just cant listen to anymore without crying because it has so much meaning to me<3

  98. I'm glad that you're in a much better place! I hope your life continues to go up and up! :)
    This summer "Even if it Breaks your Heart" by Eli Young Band was on repeat for me. It made me happier some days and sadder other days; it just made me feel my life more and experience everything with more emotion.

    Have a lovely rest of your week!


  99. I actually cried while listening to the song.

    Glad everything is better Zoe :)


  100. I don't usually leave comments but this time I had to. As soon as I started reading this post I started crying. I have had a rough year: I lost a person I love, I suffered from anxiety and I lost faith in myself and in life. Now that things have started to get better I am really excited about the future and I have found out that "it's okay to be afraid", it is okay to feel lost sometimes as long as we keep going on and putting effort and passion in what we do. Life can be hard but it can also be breathtaking, intense and magical. As you say, I have started to say YES to things and surprisingly it has been a lot easier and less scaring than I thought it would be.

    You are such an inspiration, Zoe. Please, keep up the good work and continue to inspire young people and to be the lovely person you are. THANK YOU!

    Cheers from Italy.

    p.s. my favourite songs are Van Morrison's "Sometimes we cry" and "Days like this"

  101. I just wanted to thank you for writing this, because I just really needed that right now. For someone to say that it gets better, and not worse; you always manage to put a smile on my face when really I want to hide in a cave forever, so I Thank you lovely xx

  102. I think a song that holds a lot of memories for me is 'Remembering Sunday' by All Time Low.
    They were the first band I ever saw live and forever changed the type of music I listened to, my styles, and my perspective. Before music like that I didn't connect to music, it was just something you listened to but the lyrics in that song really got me, maybe because the first time I heard it was live and the most real it can get. Although I haven't kept up with the band listening to the song brings me back to summers with my friends, driving around past curfew, and just being as free as you can be at that age. Although I'm very different now, and I wear a hell of a lot less eye liner, I look back fondly. That's me Xx

  103. This is something I needed to here. And reading through the comments to see I'm not alone also feels pretty good. A lovely, personal blogpost. One of my favourite songs to listen to at the moment is Paramore "proof" and "last hope"

    Lots of love

  104. Icarus by Bastille
    I find that song to really have a lot fo depth and meaning for me. I can't quite relate to it but there is something about it that I love.

  105. Thank you so much for this wonderful post Zoe! :)

    I've recently been going through a hard time and feeling really sad and not being able to explain it, but a couple months ago I decided to "just say yes" to more things and I think now that life is starting to look up! You are such an amazing inspiration to me. I'm so glad that you got the opportunity to do all of the things that you've done, you deserve all of it! (: Thank you for being so lovely <3


  106. 'Heroes' by David Bowie is a massively emotional song (for me, that is).

  107. Your positive attitude makes me so happy!

    Emma |

  108. This is a very reassuring post Zoe thank you. I'm struggling a lot with my life at the moment. Struggling a lot with my parents, friends and other situations too and I'm finding it really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. However like you said things DO get better. I just need to be patient and find a way of trying to improve my happiness until then.

    The song for my that helps me through all of this and helped through my final year at university is 'Constant Angel' by a musical theater star called Ramin Karimloo. That song means the world to me and now that I've read your post and listened to the words of that song I know things are going to improve.

    I'm not normally this soppy so forgive me but thank you so much Zoe. It's always good to know that other people who went through a hard time in their life managed to pull through. Hopefully this time next year it will be my turn to say the same! :)

  109. Oh how I needed a little dose of this, thanks for staying true and being a great positive inspiration Zoe :)
    I hope a year from now, I can say things are different in a positive way.
    Music= My Life in Different Melodies.


  110. Sasha

    Explosions by Ellie Goulding :)

  111. Zoe, its like you knew I was falling apart today. Thank-you for the encouragement, even though I tell myself it so often its nice to hear it from someone else once in awhile. I really hope it does get better.

  112. Is just what I needed to read … thank you! and beautiful song, mine is Skyscraper- Demi Lovato or Unwritten- Natasha Bedingfield

  113. i teared up a bit listening to this :') love you zoe, this is just what i needed <3

  114. Although I do admire your optimism Zoe, I have to say that things do not necessarily get better. Things seem to be getting worse. My mum's life has just gone from bad to worse, to awful. And it's not gonna get any better. Neither is mine. I just think it's one of those things I'm gonna have to accept. Life does not always get better for everyone. I'm not being a pessimist. Just a realist.

  115. Jess

    You really do seem like one of the kindest people. You deserve great things. :)


  116. Everything feels so permanent most of the time and we rarely consider that our circumstances could change for the better :) Anytime I get stressed out or worried about something, I have to remind myself that four years ago I thought my life would be the same forever, but it's changed so much! Wonderful post, Zoe!!


  117. Hi Zoe! This is just the kind of thing I needed to hear today. Just having one of those days where I am in my "Haley Shell" similar to your "Zoe Shell" and this really brightened my day! :)

    Thanks Zoe! Amazing post!

  118. It's really encouraging to 'hear' someone say that it won't always be like this. Someone who actually knows what 'like this' feels like (I think. assuming by what you've told us about your zoe shell). It's the first time the sentense 'it get's better' hits me :)
    Debussy's Claire de Lune makes me bawl my eyes out and then calms me down.

    Thank you, Zoe. X

  119. This is my song for a similar moment.

    "This is my now" by Jordin Sparks

    "There was a time I packed my dreams away,
    living in a shell, hiding from myself
    There was a time when I was so afraid,
    thought i'd reached the end, baby that was then
    but I am made of more than my yesterdays….
    This is my now and I am breathing in the moment
    As I look around, I can't believe the love I see
    My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
    — that was then, this is my now…*"


  120. VERY WELL SAID ZOE.. About 12 or so years ago when I was 16-17-18, (I am 29 now).. I had some very hard times and learned lessons that I thought were the MOST horrible thing I would ever face. I came out of that situation a different person entirely and things from then on were so peaceful and good. But about 7 years ago it was within a matter of months, my entire world came crashing down and it has been a roller coaster ever since. Things did get better at one time and it gave me the hope I needed to keep hanging on–I even thought the storms were over for a while because the storm I had just came out of was so bad that I never imagined life could be so cruel to bring on another one any time soon.. but just recently things have went back to being such a struggle that sometimes I wonder if I will ever see that mountain top again. But like you… I can see how these hard times have molded me into a person that I know without a doubt I would never ever been otherwise. I BELIVE WE ALL HAVE "SEASONS" IN OUR LIFE —- some are made for shaping our characters, no matter how much it hurts we must go through it so we might as well stop trying to get "out" of it —– other seasons will be just normal and boring (i would take the boring ones any day!) — some are very happy and filled with huge blessings and opportunity — but no matter what SEASON we are in , that season WILL come to an end and we have to learn to accept life as it is. It does seem that some people's lives are filled with only the good ones but don't be fooled because very few people even noticed when I was going through seasons that almost took my life. But that is just the way it is.. we are all so wrapped up in ourselves and so busy with our own trials or blessings, that we really dont even notice what others go through– so never feel like you are the only one facing tough times. Just ride it out and never ever let your mind tell you there is no relief coming because I assure you there is.. but I think sometimes you must believe in it

    Thanks so much Zoella for this post because sometimes its the smallest reminders that we hear that will be the very thing to push us on through and it is exactly what i needed to be reminded of.. that there will always be better ahead. Each season will always come to an end and a new one will begin. Dont forget though girls that some seasons are short lived and other will seem to go on for eternity but do not grow weary because we will never face anything that is "too much" for us to handle.. keep your faith and believe in something bigger than what you are, and know that change can come in the smallest , most subtle ways so don't be too consumed within your loud and busy mind that you miss it :) thanks (SO Sorry for the long comment .. I am not the commenting type but I felt the need ya know.. hope you undertsand ) "ONLY THE BEST BEAUTY"

  121. Thank you :) Going through a hard time now and this made me feel a little more positive for a little while :) xox

  122. Thankyou so much Zoe, I just moved into uni and trying to find new friends it's hard but I'm trying my best :)
    I love your videos and I know you'll always be there for us so thanks very much my dear x

  123. It's funny how in a year alot can change, for good or for worst I believe that being positive even when it's impossible it's the best way to go through life. I don't think that what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger but it sure does something to us and to the way we see whats happening around us, and being positive always helped me and I always try to be positive around others, even when I'm not feeling so positive (yap that happens sometimes) because it's amazing how people respond to that! I admire your strenght and your confidence to talk so openly about certain things that most people would hide :)


  124. It's posts like these that remind me of exactly why you're one of my biggest inspirations and my main inspiration for starting a blog. I can only hope that I can make such a big difference in my readers lives as you have with yours! <3

    Jenny xx

  125. I am currently having anxiety and that song just made me cry a river after hearing it. Thanks zoe :) Hope I could surpass this anxiety of mine.

  126. Starting Over by Macklemore. I know it's kinda cliche coming from an American, but I heard it and realized it reflected my emotional and mental struggle of dealing with anxiety and college after having losing several close friends before even leaving high school for college. I thought I was crazy and I felt like I was living a lie, making excuses for not doing things and trying so hard to act happy even though I knew deep down I wasn't. The lyrics "Feeling sick and helpless, lost the compass where self is / I know what I gotta do and I can’t help it /One day at a time is what they tell us / Now I gotta find a way to tell them" was the part that really encompassed all that I was feeling.

  127. Wow Zoe you are amazing I wish I could give you a hug right now (in a non creepy way). You are on of my inspirations and I always love reading your blogs and watching your videos you always put a smile to my face. You right things do get better this year a lone a lot of things have happen to me personally and also to others that I love and care for and yes it did make me feel sad but along with that it has made me stronger as well. I really do believe things do get better because every happens for a reason and sometimes looking upwards is the best thing. All I have to say is thank you. Zoe you are wonderful and I hope that you feel ok and just remember things do get better. :)

  128. Geneva

    Hello! I have been watching your youtube videos for ages now, and I absolutely love you! I followed right away once I got a blogger account. I hope you can have a chance to check out my blog and follow me. I just started it and there aren't many posts yet but I'm really excited to write more posts.

    Thanks lovie! xoxo

  129. Jen

    Thank you for this.


  130. Breathe Me by Sia
    Echo by Jason Walker
    Wrecking Ball by Miley Cyrus
    Pompeii by Bastille
    these songs have really helped me through a lot

  131. Thanks for this, Zoe. The way you feel about Explosion is how I feel when I hear Let It Be by The Beatles. I truly loved this post. I knew there was a reason that you were my favorite blogger!

    XOX- Lifeonpenny-lane

  132. Joyce

    oh Zoe you're so inspiring in the way you've managed to change your 'headspace' around and become so much happier.

  133. I love Ellie and this song, but one of my favorite songs is called "You're Not Alone" by Saosin. You should listen to it, Zoe! :) It's a great song to listen to when you're upset or in doubt about something. It almost has the same meaning as "Explosions".

  134. EUK

    Zoe, thank you for being a human being.
    I hope nothing but the best for you.
    Thank you, thank you, thank you.

    Thank you.

  135. Good luck with your surgery, you're going to love Uni. when the time comes, it's not that far away remember :) stay positive x

  136. Maddy J

    My favourite song is Sweet Sweet Melody by Katie Sky. When I started to watch your videos and read your blog, you opened up a whole new world for me. I found new products, laughed and started my own blog.
    When I watched you 1 million subscribers videos, I got a bit emotional because you'd summed up a chink of your YouTube life. You proved that by going out of your comfort zone, great things will happen. Whenever I hear that song I think of you, your blog and your videos and I feel warm and fuzzy inside. I'm aware this sounds cheesey or clingy but I mean every word. Thank You

  137. This just made me feel a loot better.. How do you always know how i feel? Thank you so much !

  138. Aww Zoe thank you for writing this. I've been feeling so down & out lately & this is a great post for me at the moment. It's great to see how far you've come & how happy you are. I'm so happy for you, and it's inspiring! :)
    I wish you the best forever more Zoe!

    x leah symonne x

  139. That song is just.. wow x Love it <3
    I love Promises, Promises by Incubus. It gives me a lot of… that reflective vibe yeah :)

  140. Thanks for writing this zoe. xx Love it.

  141. Love this song ♥ I love Ellie Goulding and you too Zoe, of course!

  142. First off, I'm rooting for you! Your videos always make me smile. :-)
    My song would be Circles by Anthem Lights. Which is doubly special because the band is from my home town. :-) This song describes me almost perfectly.

  143. Hailey

    Aww Zoe<3 I know exactly what you mean after having a really horrible time in high school I'm starting to feel better now ( thanks in part to discovering amazing YouTube videos including ones like yours). Thank you for being an inspiration :) keep smiling and just say yes!

  144. Thank you so much for this, Zoe. My favorite song with meaning is "High Again" (acoustic) by Hoodie Allen. It nearly makes me cry every time I listen to it. You are also an inspiration to me, and I am part of the "Just Say Yes" movement. It's in my head every time something is presented to me, so thank you so so so much :)

  145. I love life but at the same time I feel happy that something can make me sad its like it makes me feel alive its makes me feel human the only way that I can feel this sad is if I felt something really good before so I guess I have to take the bad with the so I guess what I'm feeling is a beautiful sadness.

  146. Jossu

    oh Zoe! You are amazing, your blog is amazing and your videos are a-ma-zing ! you are one of the reasons why I believe myself and why I 'keep swimming' nowadays. Love you lots:)x
    AND that song is perf!

  147. Music definitely makes everything better!

  148. Zoe your such an inspiration, I love you xxx

  149. I love this post Zoe. I'm going through quite a tough time at the moment and after reading this i was inspired to make my own blog in attempt to try get me through it! :) thank you!

  150. Kristi

    Mine is Welcome to Wherever you are by Bon Jovi. I was having such a horrible time at uni in my first year, until one day I was sat on a bus on my way to placement and that came on shuffle. Suddenly everything clicked and I was happy. I didn't stop listening to it on repeat for so long.

  151. Sofie

    You are totally right, Zoe. They always say that good things come to an end, but it sure also counts for the hard and difficult times. They will come to an end aswell even though it always seems like they take longer.
    I'm glad you're feeling better now!

    Sofie x

  152. This post is beautiful Zoe. I absolutely love Ellie Goulding, although I've never come across this song. Thanks for sharing! Happy that you're feeling better now! :) x

  153. Hi Zoe,

    Thanks for writing this post. The last year of my life has been horrible. It still is. I found this post so helpful because it actually made me believe things will get better and that this is just a path. If you can overcome your problems, so can I. I really do believe that, even though things seem pretty dark right now. One day I'll wake up and things will be a little less dark. This post, your other post about anxiety and your 'Just Say Yes' video made me believe that. So thank you so much.

    As for inspirational songs, Darlin by Avril Lavigne is one of the best and most inspiring songs I've ever heard. If you don't know it, you should definitely check it out.

    Thank you for making me believe again,
    Anne xx

  154. Miri

    normally I'm not a person who feels the urge to leave a comment under blog posts but this time I just had to. I feel really,really happy for you. There are so many people out there that are going through a very hard time.But most of the time they try to hide it.I was one of them.I had an awful year back in 2011.I got really depressed and had to got to see a therapist.But it got better…But somehow I'm in this state again. Partly for the same reason,partly because of new ones. And although it really feels as if it won't get better,life goes on.And therefore I do not give up.And your post was another reminder to not give up hope.Zo move on,to be happy. Thank you Zoe !

  155. "Music makes everything better." Soooo true :) A day without music (and smile) is a bad day :)
    I love ellie goulding! such a great song.
    xo, Sophie

  156. Thank you for this post. i really needed this :)

  157. At the moment I've been loving the song "Madeleine" from Backstreet Boys.
    It just makes me feel better when I'm down (:
    Anyone feeling uneasy, listen to it!
    *hugs for everyone!


  158. Dodo R,

    This post is absolutely about my past year and my thoughts for a few days.
    When you begin to manage all those personal problems you start to think different and more "adult" about it.
    That's how it feel at the moment.
    It is like "oh..somehow you have learned so much from all that stuff, even though it wasn't the nicest way to be taught".
    And for sure, there are scars left, but you are right, life is not perfect and above all, not easy.
    But you can make it easier than it is, when you start to deal with it all and yes..think positive.
    And so do I at the moment.
    My mom always says "god judges and leads our way", well I do not believe that's from god, but I believe, as you already said, everything happens for a reason.

    Sorry if my englisch isn't perfect :)
    thanks, you are great.

    Best wishes from Germany,

  159. Glad to hear you had a great time. Stay positive. xoxo

  160. Hey zoe,
    i'd just like to thank you, its reading little things like this post that make spur me on to get through the day.
    i'm in a pretty bad place right now lots of things going on, like you i battle quite badly with anxiety, its actually resulted in my quitting my job a few weeks ago! the one and only thing i had going for me was my job and i couldn't even handle that! I'm lost right now and one of the very few things keeping me sane is being able to pop onto the internet and read your blog and others and to watch peoples youtube videos. When I do this its like a massive escape for me, I get sucked into this other world where there is no worries , I've used this coping technique for years now! I would love to thank you and other bloggers and youtubers for providing us all with this content and helping me stay sane! Honestly thank you so much and please keep doing what you do!
    Loyal reader and sub Lizzie xx

  161. Natasha

    Some songs really stay in your heart and bring back memories or even tears… I used to listen to the "Heart skipped a beat" by The XX after a break up and even though I have moved on and I have been in a happy relationship with someone else for 2 years now it still hits me listening to it…
    Thank you for sharing this Zoe!! xxx

  162. Lauren

    So glad you're in a better place now.
    My song used to be 'Fix A Heart' by Demi Lovato. However, since her latest album came out, it's more 'Warrior'. Even now they both still make me cry, but for different reasons. 'Fix A Heart' is more (for me) about being in a bad place, and unable to fix it, you just "bandage the damage". But 'Warrior' is more (again, for me) about fighting back, wearing a thicker skin and moving on.
    Depending on my mood, both can have me in tears…

  163. Great post, Zoe. Love that song!

    Just reading through the posts reminds me that everyone goes through hard times but we all come out better people. It's great to have such an awesome internet community out here supporting each other. So sweet to see strangers encourage each other through the hard things in life.

    So nice to see such amazing and kind people in this comments section.

    Stay strong everyone! It gets better!

  164. Elvira

    Enjoy read your post :)))

  165. I totally agree with you that music cures all ills, actually Explosions was a favourite of mine for a good part of the year too for the way i felt the words reflected on my life at that time, right now its a bit more down the biblical front, I guess I'm feeling more spiritual… I'm singing this song in my church Harvest service and rehearsing it has really deepened my sense of worship

  166. my ex bf beat me, this song helped me. love you zoe x

  167. Lucy

    Zoe I can feel you so much…I am so shy as you used to be..but I finally decided to create my own blog so that express myself there..:)

  168. I don't know how it's like to be in your shoes. I've never gone through anxiety and I've never met anyone who has to go through it but yes, if there's anything I could agree with, it is that things DO get better.

    Hani Lutfi

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  172. such a lovely post.

  173. I'm really happy for you, Zoe! you're a wonderful person and it's great to see that you're feeling so much better and happier!
    you are right, things always get better even when we don't expect them to and event start to feel helpless and stuck. life can be so hard and challenging but everyone feels like that sometimes and it's important not to give up – because things will change. I wouldn't say 'everything happens for a reason' though. in fact, I hate that sentence because it sounds like nobody is in control of their own lives and has to be a helpless little puppy. it actually contradicts the whole 'everything can change' and 'say yes' philosophy.. but I do agree that everything that happened to you shaped you, made you stronger and helped you become the person you are right now.

  174. Wonderful post! I think we all go through stages in life that are a little bit darked and harder to get through, but it does get better! Always! I think it's because of our painful experiences that we experience the good ones even more, so that's always something to be grateful for. I'm glad that you're in a better place now :)

    Ms Jelena xx |

  175. This post has come at such a good time in my life for me to read this. This time last year I felt at one of the happiest points in my life, I went off to university and then everything just began to fall apart. A year on, after a 3 year break-up, which I'm still not over and half a year in hospital I'm struggling to move forward, and have no idea where I'm going or what I'm doing with my life. But in seeing your post I really hope that things will get better, and that I will be happy again, just like how you are now.

    I found your post on just saying yes so inspiring, and I'm trying to! I just maybe need to man up and say it more often!

    Sorry if I've seemed really cheesy in this comment, (I'm usually too afraid to write comments!) but I thought I'd be brave and tell you how much your post has lifted me today.

    Beautiful Goodbye by Maroon 5 is one of my favourite songs to listen to- it pretty much makes me shed a tear everytime- but I love it none the less! :)

    Thank you so much! I'm so glad that you've found happiness again :)


  176. janine

    you are actually the nicest. im really glad you've found yourself and aren't letting yourself hold you back anymore. your honesty about your struggles is inspirational and will really help a lot of people to feel less alone, myself included. must be hard for you though and takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there, but know it's appreciated.

    lost my job today. it's a job i didn't like but it was familiar and the people were really nice. lots of my friends are settling down, finding their way in life, achieving their goals. i just wish i could find my place and my way a little bit easier. i hope i can find a little bit of your courage and find myself again.

    my song is "i know it's over" by the smiths. it doesn't cheer me up but morrissey puts my feelings into such poetic words.

  177. Kristen

    Such a nice post :-) Glad everything got better for you Zoe! xx

  178. Oh gosh. This post came in time and exactly relates to so much negative stuff I've been through recently. I'm the kind of person who seems to have no worries, but only some of my friend know the true me. I do hope I'll be able to get through this tough year.
    This song move along by all American rejects is one of those song that absoutely one of those songs which reflects how I'm feeling and what I probably should do: move along.

    Love you Zoe:)

  179. Zoe,
    I feel like I could write a book to you about how grateful I am to you for sharing your life with me and so many other people. I wrote you a card and gave it to you at VidCon but I am not sure if it was one of the items that was stolen :( So I just want to tell you again: Thank you, thank you, thank you!
    I too suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I'm not sure why they started but it was very, very bad for a long time. They got better for a little while as I was receiving therapy and finally found the right medications for me. I was even able to go off after a year. However, in early February my mom who is my best friend, was diagnosed with stage three pancreatic cancer. This news came just 2 months before my wedding date. Needless to say, this was a stressful time for me. My panic attacks came flooding back.
    But thankfully, this was around the same time I started watching your videos religiously. They made me feel so much better. To know you were going through the same thing was like I wasn't going through it alone. Your videos let me escape reality for just a little while and made me happy. I was so grateful that I was able to meet you twice at Vidcon. You were so sweet and not in a rush and that made me so happy.
    I know this song is about a relation ship ending but the chorus really resonates w/ me and my situation. "it's okay to be afraid, but it will never be the same". I am more afraid of losing my mom than anything else. Just thinking about it makes me shake my head and my throat gets tight. My mom is changed forever. She will never be the same. Our relationship will never be the same. But her getting sick has brought us, and the rest of the family, so much closer. Thank you for reminding me that things will get better, no matter the outcome. Thank you for allowing me to escape. Thank you for going through this with me.



  180. amapama

    im so happy to see you flourish out of your "zoe shell"! (: it's really inspirational, and shows people that it truly does get better ♥

    oh, and my most meaningful song is Always Be Together by Little Mix. it reminds me that all my friends will always be there and that distance cant keep us apart (:

  181. Guys i'd really appreciate a view to my blog :)
    Got nothing on Zoes OBVIOUSLY but I'd love it if you stopped by pleeeease :D

  182. Maky


  183. My favorite song for when I'm feeling down is called "Pins and Needles" by Mute Math
    "Sometimes I get tired of pins and needles/
    Facades are a fire on the skin/
    Oh and I'm growing fond of broken people/
    As I see that I am one of them."

    It's a good reminder that we're all wearing masks, and the people that we look at and think are broken have simply removed their mask and are showing themselves.

  184. Someone i know i going through a tough time. I sent her this, and it's helped a lot more than anything i could ever say. Thankyou. x

  185. I've been through a bad time for the past year or so, and this really helped! Thankyou Zoe! xx

  186. This is a very beautiful post! and the song is as well! I used to listen The Killers when I was sad! But then, I just listen my favourite movie, 500 days of summer. However, I somehow manage to watch that movie the entire day! It really sooth me in some ways, weird huh?! haha xx

  187. wow, you're so inspiring. Ellie Goulding has helped me through my depression and reading your post has made me smile so much. Thank you for being so beautifully honest about your anxiety, I'm going through a tough patch at the moment, and your reassurance has helped. You're amazing, and I'm so proud of you for persevering with getting better x

  188. Im glad your in a happier place :) i had one of them days today, you know when your driving along in your car & you just want to keep driving, you don't particularly want to go anywhere but you just want to drive. Keane- Everything Changes was playing on the radio & i just fell into one of them thinky moods, my life isn't perfect right now & i'm definitely not where thought i would be, but like you said it will get better… with time :) xx

  189. Tiegan

    Same love by Macklemore it has so much emotion amd feeling also Troye Sivans fault in our stars . I actually cried at the song and video love love love it ♡

  190. Those flowers are beautiful! By posting this post, I'm sure you have helped loads of people already!

  191. I love this song!

  192. Thank you so much for replying, it's really really kind.. And even reading it tbh. (:

  193. Thanks Zoe, I don't think you could know how much that helped. Thank you so much for the inspiration to keep pushing through!

    The Beauty Scrapbook

  194. Petra

    :) its always great to see someone get out of a personal struggle, it really gives ppl around you hope & happiness!
    my favorite songs is always changing, but when i need some motivation i always love to listen to Defying Gravity from wicked, makes you feel like you can do anything!!

  195. Zoe, I really enjoyed this "spur of the moment" style blog post. I think we as viewers can very clearly see that you have grown and blossomed over the years of being a v/blogger. It's great to see you moving on from whatever the darkness was that was dragging you down. We love you!

  196. Hi, I've been your follower for a few months now and this is the first time I feel something strong to write to you. I'm from Romania, 22 yrs old….and this post came right on time, when I'm going through some difficult situations in my life. I just wanted to say hi and thank you…without knowing, you've helped me and many, many other girls in this big world. You're my best friend on the entire web :)

  197. I have had a particularly hard start to my year but the last couple of months have just shown me I have come out the other side….no song to sum that up yet but I am sure I will find it :)

  198. Hi Zoe,
    I just started following your blog/youtube stuff and i am loving it! You are so funny and super cute! I struggle with anxiety too and I love how open and honest you are about your struggles. I just wanted to share a quote i heard the other day and loved that I think applies to hard times in life.

    "Sometimes it snows as late as May, but summer always comes"

    Anyway, hope you have a great day and keep looking up!

  199. Awww his such an awesome cute post! My favorite song right now has to Summer Sadness by Lana Del Ray, she has dusch as nice smooth voice that draws you into her sad lyrics

  200. I'm so happy you are in a much better place. What an inspiring post. I have three songs that have got me through hard times: Matt Corby – Brother, Ben Howard – Bones and Ben Harper – Walk Away. Thank goodness for music! I hope you continue to feel in a good place :)

    Emily x

  201. Emily

    I'm so glad you're feeling better now! Things always get better :) My song is titanium because I have a titanium spine, so I really am titanium haha! :) Xx

  202. Abbiee

    This is why I read your blog Zoe I love these little posts. Such an amazing person!
    Abbie xo

  203. You are an inspiration Zoe! Thank you for sharing!

  204. I can't agree more, there are so many songs that are so relevant to things that i went through a year ago too! My favourite song that gets me through my day and makes me feel like life is worth living every moment is Open Letter by The Amity Affliction. It is a heavier song but the lyrics mean everything to me and really inspire me and motivate me to make the most of life while I have it

  205. I think my favourite songs for situations like these is 'Demons' by Imagine Dragons. It is such an amazing song and puts you in a very pensive and makes you feel better. I love it because it helps you when you are feeling down, and even if you aren't feeling down, it's amazing to listen to! :)


  206. My favourite song with meaning is 'Words' by Skylar Grey. It explains my feelings exactly. Skylar wrote the song about her Grandfather who died without her getting a chance to say goodbye and I'm in the same boat. It's been almost a year since my grandad died, but everytime I hear the song, I still cry.

  207. hello zoe ya lil rascal!!

    life always has a way of working itself out, just takes time is all :) it's good to see you've been enjoying life to it's fullest this past year though. the song i listen to when i feel out of sorts and need to calm myself down is breathe easy by mree, it's just the prettiest. hope your life and you keep on this positive track!


  208. I'm glad to hear you are in a happier place Zoe! You're such an inspiration and you seem like a truly incredible individual. I hope you continue to have happiness and success in your life–you deserve both!
    Lovely Notions

  209. I'm glad to hear you're in a happier place Zoe! You're such an inspiration and seem like a truly incredible individual! I hope you continue to have happiness and success–you deserve them both!
    Lovely Notions

  210. i absolutely adore this song,too!!it's my favourite off her halycon album♥♥

  211. Lovely girl!

    xoxo Tori

  212. I never really comment on things but when I read this I just had to say thank you. It is easy to see someone behind a camera and think that their life is perfect and I think it is wonderful how you don't pretend that it is. I saw that you had a new post but but hadn't really decided to read it until now and I am glad I did. This helped me a lot tonight! Thanks Zoe! <3

  213. Zoe, you are absolutely amazing! You inspire me (and many others) so, so much! Never stop being you and be sure to always follow you're dreams because you CAN be who you want to be!


  214. My favourite song at the moment is Something I Need by OneRepublic, but I'd just like to point out that I actually bought the album back in June so I'm not a massive crowd follower.

  215. Wonderful post! Glad you're at a better/happier place now :) I think we all go through a bit of a tough stage in life, but it shows us that we can deal with it. It also makes us appreciate the good times that much more :)

    Ms Jelena xx |

  216. I'm glad you are so much happier now :) I truely am.
    You're a inspiration for lots of people :)

  217. Thank you Zoe, This really helped me :) x

  218. What a gorgeous song – thank you very much for sharing it!!

    Right now I am an absolute major fan of:

    Steve Earle – Galway Girl

    It's an Irish song but it is sooo happy and wonderful. Really the best start and end to my day when driving to and from work! Enjoy it xx

  219. Zara

    you know what, Zoe? I'm crying right now. This year is absolutly the worst, I feel like nothing goes right. Every day is a bad day. I always wonder if there will be happy days in my future life? I don't know.
    You're so inspiring, by the way. And Explosions by Ellie Goulding is also one of my favourite song!
    xx Zahra

  220. Love these advice/inspirational posts :) thanks zoe

  221. Zoe you are such an inspiration and a fab role model xxx

  222. olaurax

    This gave me a lump in my throat! Glad everything is better! Xxx

  223. To start, I wanted to say thank Zoe for these words because they are a real source of inspiration.
    It 'a long time that I'm fighting every day with myself, to improve myself understood the girl that I am! It 's very difficult because many times I let it go, but I see great changes that make me happier.
    A song that has accompanied this last period is Skyscraper by Demi Lovato, is a song that has a meaning for me very special and important, both for what it expresses, is listening because when I can get more strength in me.

    Thanks again Zoe, for sharing with us this post, you were really sweet.
    A big kiss

  224. Thank you Zoe for everything you do. You are amazing! Love your blog so much.

  225. Zoe, I love posts like this! It's so inspirational

  226. I absolutely love the song Somewhere only we know from Keane and Lili from Aaron <3

  227. Definitely Great Escape by Mike Dignam and Mountains by Lucy Spraggan. They keep me motivated to get up in the morning everyday so I can achieve my dream… that was so cringe haha <3


  228. ly my songs r i'd lie everything has changed and dont wanna miss a thing

  229. i see Monday is time for reflection… :) , so yes but if you are a corporrete girl it is time for a new full week od deadlines , targets and stufff…ugly…

  230. lolsy

    such a lovely post :) i loooove that song so much. so many of ellie gouldings songs remind me of so many things memories haha :) xx

  231. Aline

    hi zoe! i'm from italy , i'm 20 and i just want to say that you are adorable and so inspiring!
    For those who are interested on beauty and lifestyle here is
    MY BLOG :

  232. Esmee B

    Beautiful Life by Union J

  233. I love "Queen of Denmark" by John Grant at the moment, and "Flaws" by Bastille!! Aww zoe, it all got better for you, that's soo wonderful! (: Life is not a pony ranch, but everything will be ok in the end xx

  234. Please can everyone check out my blog!! ♥ I do reviews and diy's and favourites videos and I hardly get any views or comment or anything so I really would appreciate it if you had a look on there by clicking the link below, PLEASE!!♥~

  235. I've just moved to a different country and have been feeling quite lonely because I moved here as a student and my family isn't around me. After reading your blogpost, it kind of gave me a new outlook and I believe you when you say that things will get better. So thank you for changing my way of thinking today :) xx

  236. I'm not the best at expressing my emotions, but I can always find the right song. Gavin DeGraw-More than Anyone…absolutely lovely song.

  237. Love this post, is nice to include these kind of things alongside the beauty and fashion!


  238. This post made me cry,i felt like you've written it for me. I have a really rough time, and you made me wanting to livea little bit more again,thanks zoe <3
    my favourite song at the moment is complicated by avril-lavigne .

  239. I have always been quiet but its people like you who manage to get me out of my "Zoe shell" and out into the world. I'm not expecting you to read this comment but it tickles me to think that maybe you will. Maybe, just maybe you will recognize that you have made a difference to my life. I don't think you know what an amazing person you really are! BTW awesome name LOL!


  240. isabell

    hello, i dont know if you will read this, but maybe someone else will. a while ago i made a video about self hate, tumblr hate and negativity. i wanna help out, im not looking for attention or anything, i couldnt care less about that, but i do care about people. so if you wanna share the link, here it is ;

    i hope everybody are doing okay, and that you have someone to talk to. x

  241. Alina.

    i guess my song would be fall out boy – g.i.n.a.s.f.s (:
    Lovely entry, as always!

  242. Claire

    I love Ellie Goulding! :D This song relates to me too. I am quite a shy person and it can be hard sometimes. I feel like by being more quiet people can judge you as being a bit stuck up or just weird. It is not like I don't like to talk- I do! It is just I feel more comfortable talking in a group of two or three close friends rather than to lots of different people. When I go to parties I sometimes feel like a 'party pooper' because I am too shy to get up and dance with everyone and I get a bit overwhelmed when there is a lot of people I don't know.
    I think I am getting better though. You have inspired me to say YES! and not really care what people think. I am learning to do things I enjoy, just because. I am going places with my friends more rather than staying in my house a lot like I did before. I actually went to a Gig recently and I felt a bit overwhelmed at first but then I decided that I may as well make the most of it. I was dancing and singing and I didn't stop for a second to see if anyone was looking at me or judging me. It was one of the most fun nights I have had in a while!
    Thank you so much for all your inspiration and reminders to keep going. It has helped me to continue saying yes even when I felt like slipping back into my old ways. I hope you know how much you mean to so many people even though you don't even know a lot of them. You should be proud that you have managed to help so many people by being brave enough to share your story.
    Thank you again, and I am sorry for the massive paragraph. xx

  243. Have been listening to this song the last few months too, ellie's amazing :)

  244. Sanctuary by Paradise Fears"Even broken wings can fly away"

  245. My song would be 'Skyscraper' by Demi Lovato as it shows that every struggle and negative thing that comes to you in life, is only an obstacle and you can push through and make it.

  246. Thank you Zoe for this great piece. Your blog really sums up how I've been feeling this past year. I've heard many different songs over the last little while and I know what you mean when you say songs make things better. For me the songs that have spoken to me are both by Alicia Keys: Brand New Me and Girl on Fire. I absolutely love the lyrics. Both bring out the best in me and have been helping me see the best in things, but especially the best in me. Again lots of thanks to you and your other YouTube friends (Tanya, Louise, Joe, Jim, Alfie, Tyler, etc.) for all the positive and funny videos; really well done and they put a smile on my face by the end of the day. Cheers, Elle

  247. Jimmy Buffett's "A Pirate Looks at 40". My son is 2 and every night we sing this song at bedtime. He wants to be a pirate. I'll never forget these moments!

  248. hey zoe i have just made a blog and i was stuck on ideas and i knew you had youtube but not a blog!!! thank you so much for all the posts you have it has given me some ideas for my blog as i am going to post some later her is my blog if you would like to check it out i will try to get posts on it as quickly as i can but i have to wait until my dads camera is charged.

  249. Paramore have a song called 'Daydreaming' and I have to say that it really does get in your head very easily and I can't stop listening to it. SO AWESOME!!

  250. Zoe, you truly are my inspiration! you inspired me to start studying media, start blogging! you make me want to do youtube videos! you helped me understand make up more thoroughly, fashion a lot more and skin products! ive never been so eager to meet someone, and hopefully one day be an inspiration to people like you are to me! I am so thankful of all your videos, twitter and blog posts! truly an amazing person!

    Sara x

  251. I completely understand you Zoe! I ma not have gone through the same things as you but I had a strong connection to Ellie's song as well on my transition from high school to college. I love how you share this with us cause it makes me feel less alone.
    it would mean soo much if you checked out my blog, i still need to purchase a camera but I am working on my blog little by little! much love<3 :)

  252. It may be uncommon for a guy to follow your blog, yet here I am.

    Hi Zoe. I think it's doubtful you'll read this far down your comments, but just in case, I wanted to let you know that you are quite wonderful. You, Alfie, Marcus, Louise, etc. inspire me to such a great extent.

    Last year, my depression, that grew with age, reached an point that I could hardly bear. I hated myself and who I was, yet I hid it in order to make those around me happy. I had my own issues and continued to take in everyone else's. It was such a huge burden. I didn't know how it would end. Like you, I listened to music that was inspiring but still sad. I needed something that was similar to the mood I was in because it never helped if it wasn't. A few songs I listened to were "Sooner or Later" by Mat Kearney, "To Build a Home" by The Cinematic Orchestra, and "New York" by Snow Patrol, which is not as inspiring, but I loved it regardless.

    I am glad to say, that, like you, I have left the bad times behind. I have reached a better place, and I am happier than I have been in a long time. :)

    As I watch your vlogs, I can see how happy you are now, which makes me and everyone of your fans happy.You're great, and I would honestly give anything to be friends with you and your friends. You all are so great!

  253. You're very inspiring. Your posts sometimes really help me, thank you :)

    btw. I love this song!

  254. Your posts sometimes really help me, you're very inspiring. Thank you :)

    Btw. I love this song!

  255. Hayley

    I think it's amazing how honest you are with all of your readers. Go you for being such a strong person, treat yourself with some chocolate ;) I think my favourite song with meaning is Portrait by Josephine. She's fairly new on the music scene but she supported Paloma Faith on her last tour and she was amazing.

    Water Painted Dreams

  256. Zoe I love your blog and videos. I want to follow your blog through but it won't let me because it says it has the maximum number of followers, which is super-fab for you (yay!) but makes my face go like this :-(

  257. Two beautiful songs: **Swim by Jack's Mannequin** It got me through the absolute worst time in my life. And another is **Sometime Around Midnight by The Airborne Toxic Event** When you listen to it, you can feel the emotion in it.
    Zoe, you're such an inspiration and definitely a person I can look up to because of the things you've made it through. Thank you <3

  258. Very nice post :)

  259. I'm genuinely in love with Ellie Goulding and everything she does is absolutely flawless. I'm so happy you're feeling better :) This time last year was also hugely different for me but 2013 has just been incredible so I know exactly that the saying 'time makes it easier' is VERY true :)

  260. ElinS

    I love that song !! It's so beautiful even if you don't understand what they sing! (it's Icelandic) :) xx

  261. Cute post Zoe! <3


  262. Salut Zoe ! I totally agree.. Things always go better. I think that we all just have to be patient and to make it go better. And one day when you wake up, it's just an evidence… Life is beautiful !
    My meaning song of the moment is "I love you" by Woodkid. Woodkid is just an amazing composer, singer and his video clip are AWESOME !! I recommend it to everybody :)
    Bisous !!

  263. I actually love that song, its my favourite one by Ellie. I saw her live at V Festival and she was AMAZING.
    You're right, we all go through tough times.. and there is a light at the end.
    Stay Strong,
    Michelle x

  264. So happy everything is good for you! Hopefully it gets better for everyone else too. I suppose at the moment I'm super lost, constantly trying to 'organise my life'. I just really need to get my stuff together. Whatever that means… (Don't even know why I'm telling you this as you didn't ask but meh haha)
    A very important song to me at the moment is Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray. It's just like, well how do you know? How do you believe in it so much? But yeah, listen to it if you haven't before. I plan to watch The Great Gatsby because of this song haha

    Anyway that is all from my little rant/comment :)

    Sofia X

  265. this is so cute! <3 love you Zoe

  266. ola7887

    i think it's "when you look me in the eyes" by jonas brothers. i know it's really old but it just reminds me of good times ;)

  267. Just starting out as a blogger can you check my blog out??

  268. Really nice post! Truly inspiring, thank you for sharing that with all of us.
    Beautiful song btw


  269. I love the song "Are You Alive" or "Love The Fall" by Michael Paynter. They promote the message of doing things that are out of you comfort zone (Just say yes!) and making sure your life is worthwhile. :)

    Beth. x

  270. You're amazing, you just make me feel much happier after reading your posts Xxx

  271. I suffer from general anxiety disorder and depression everyone keeps telling me that one day it will get better but that day never seems to come reading your posts and watching your videos really help me know that I am not alone. thank you zoe xxx

  272. Emeli Sande Read All About It makes me feel abit emotional xxx and lovely post zoella, your such an amazing inspiration.

  273. This post is so helpful Zoe thank you, 'Last Hope' by Paramore helps me a lot and I often feel like it relates to me every time I listen to it. I saw Paramore on the 23rd of this month and cried when they played the song, thank you Zoe for helping me seeing hope too :) x

  274. Wow.. this post.. I'm just blown away. It's impossible to understand how much this post means to me. Zoe, you're such an amazing person and you never fail to surprise me. One song that has really gotten to me is "Safe" by Britt Nicole. Thank you and love you lots Zoe, Xx

  275. I Have 2 both by The same band Evanescence, Bring me to life and My Immortal, Thanks for being an inspiration Zoe,

  276. I feel like this has really helped me and i am just relieved to see all the comments that people actually do have hard times I thought it was just me. I do really love your posts and as soon as i see you have done one i get excited i hope that's not sad :) xoxox I am a new blogger <3

  277. Morgane

    You bring confidence back in me, thank you :-)

  278. I love this.

    Follow me:

  279. I couldn't even finish this post before I started crying. Both you and Louise have really helped me go through so much stuff without even realizing. I am SO glad things have gotten better for you because you deserve it. Thanks for sharing a little bit more of you with us. Love you lots!
    & the song that gets me EVERY TIME is Hurt by Christina Aguilera.


  280. Wow, you're such an inspirational person for so many people. And I know from experience things indeed get better, if you just live by the day and surround yourself with people that really accept who you are and bring the best out of you.

    xoxo Anne

  281. kati

    zoe, thank you so much. thank you so much for all your videos, all your pictures and especially for this plog post. I usually wouldn't write something like this and I really don't know if you read this, but this post fits so incredibly well to my current situation. six month ago, my heart was broken by the person I loved the most and my mother has cancer for the third time. at the moment I can not believe that things will be better again, but thank for making me believe again. thank you for everything zoe, you are the most inspiring person.

  282. I loved this blog post Zoe. Over the past few months I have begun to enjoy your videos more and more, to the point that I can't wait another day to see a video from you!

    I live in Australia, and just finished school, so my favourite song at the moment that brings back all the wonderful memories i had during school.
    Love Me Again – John Newman
    It was our montage song for our year group video.
    Thanks for everything!

  283. Thank you for the nice post! I just needed to hear/read something like this. Love this song!

    Rug cleaning

  284. Claudia

    Nice post Zoe, cheered me up a bit. I'm struggling to get a job, been unemployed for nearly 9 months and with Christmas coming up I'm getting more miserable by the day :( I know i'll get a job eventually but I don't know how much more job rejections I can take :(

  285. Denise

    omg zoe u are like my inspiration!! u are the one that made me start my blog only a few days ago :) thanks!!

    – Denise

  286. Thank you Zoe, this is exactly what I needed.

    ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

  288. i totally get you with explosions. i adore the song but it gets me. xx

  289. Thank you so much for this. I fell in love with the song and had to download it right away. It's amazing how much music can do to you emotionally. It's amazing and so are your blogposts. Thank you for the inspiration!

  290. beautiful flowers! I am glad you are feeling alot happier now Zoe :)
    I hope that what ever caused you sadness has well and truely sod off and you can bask in the glorious feeling that is happiness!

    xx | PixiRella

  291. Hi Zoe I love your blogs but it says I can't follow you because you have reached 50000 followers can you change this somehow please? Love you xxxx

  292. Music is constantly inspiring me in so many ways – I love reading reflective posts made by bloggers. They're so incredibly real xo

  293. I'm really glad you're happier now :) If you like alternative rock and if you're feeling a little bit down, I recommend listening to "Heroes" by David Bowie, or "Solution: Burn It!" by Sons of an Illustrious Father. They always cheer me up for some reason!

  294. this post was exactly what I needed right now,
    thank you zoe :)

  295. E

    I'm so glad you are feeling better :-) I know what you mean, you just have to remember that things will get better someday, and that you can be happy again :-) You are a beautiful person, inside and out. With love, a Finnish girl Essi (yes, We love you here too!!)

  296. Lollie*

    You're amazing <3 xx

  297. Shell

    Nine Inch Nails – Right Where It Belongs
    Jessie J – Who You Are

  298. First of all, thank you for posting the song of Ellie. I find it beautifully mesmerizing.

    My two favorite songs of this moment confirm an emotion of being sad. At the same time they leave me with a feeling of joy and hope too.

    1. Read all about it Pt.III by Emeli Sandé
    2. Ride this feeling by Kate Miller-Heidke

    Blog-hug from Nina Joy

  299. I also have a song that gets me through hard times. It is called "Crash" by "You Me At Six". Depending on my mood it can mean good or bad things, but it gets me through.

  300. You're such an inspiration :) Lot's of love xx

  301. Aw i love this! I am not so new, but have watched a few of your youtube videos, you inspire me to stay happy and live life. I got so inspired, i was confident enough to start my own blog about beauty and fashion and hope to be someone like you someday!

  302. Hi Zoe I love you and your blog and that song makes me cry to and I was wondering if you could follow my blog at:
    Thank you and how are your guinea pigs?!

  303. Evefi

    Such a nice post zoey! hehe xo

  304. Evefi

    such a nice post zoey! hehe xo

  305. I really hope that the same thing happens for me, goal for 2014: to come out of my shell and to enjoy life to the fullest. Thanks for sharing Zoe, you really are amazing

    Lu ♥ |

  306. oliola

    It was so lovely to meet you last night, to see the girl who inspires many people around her to keep going. Thank you Zoe x

  307. Zoe! – i love you so freakin much. you are such an inspiration to me – Thank you.
    – you are so beautiful!

  308. Zoe!! – you are like my favorite youtuber/blogger – there's just something about you, that's really catchy!
    – it's like i can't help myself when i watch or write your posts – you are just amazing!
    – thank you for being such a big inspiration to me!

  309. Ulrikke

    I love that song!

  310. hey, zoe!
    I just wanted to tell you that i love your blog so much! you inspired me to create my own one!
    Lots of love,

  311. Juliet

    Your posts inspire me. Not only the fashion and beauty ones, but also this kind! Thank you for sharing this with us because it made my night. [:

  312. Such a great post Zoe :)

  313. You are a very inspiring person and that was a lovely post, really enjoyed reading it! I like the honesty in your posts and the way try to help people with the experience of your own hard times.
    Also, I love how music written from the heart, or with true emotion, tends to go straight to the heart of the listener. Music really is a great healer!

  314. It's an absolute honour to read your blog Zoella! Keep the posts a rollin!! :D

  315. Lovely post and i love the song! my favourite song with meaning is Breathe Me by Sia. Im not reallly sure why it gets to me but it just does…

  316. The Climb – Miley Cyrus

    There's always gonna be another mountain
    I'm always gonna wanna make it move
    Always gonna be an up-hill battle
    Sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
    Ain't about how fast I get there
    Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
    It's the climb

  317. truly inspiring

  318. Really uplifting post, and your so right, things Do get better :)

  319. Your story is so inspiring Zoe, so glad that you are in a happier state of mind now. Love you
    Carolina xx

  320. Anna

    LOVE your blog Zoella!
    Couldn't agree with you more on everything happens for a reason.

    love always,

  321. This makes me feel hopeful that something will happen in my future. I hope so anyway.

  322. Loved this post! New to blogging head across to leave a comment and subscribe! :) xxx

  323. You are truly amazing Zoe, and don't EVER let anyone tell you otherwise. I KNOW you have helped so many people and you have helped me understand about my friends who have gone through hard times. And I am so happy you have been able to pick yourself off the ground and become the incredible, gorgeous, hilarious person you are today. So a REAL well done. And thanks :) x

  324. I couldn't agree more. Music makes everything better and can just improve your mood or actually help you make sense of a situation and work through it. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us!
    oxxo Leo.

  325. Such an amazing post zoellla !!!!!

  326. Things will do get better. I know how hard it is! I've experienced horrible things still. :(

  327. beautiful song!

    I agree that everything happens for a reason … so true …

  328. Love this post, Zoe !!!
    You have actually inspired me to start a blog myself..SO thanks for that! :D

  329. love this <3

  330. My exact thoughts! I feel like you're describing my life, wishing you all the best Miri, never give up!

    Zoe, you are amazing and so inspirational, I am extremely happy for you as you seem more confident and happy than ever :) X

  331. There's a musician called Lauren Aquilina who started on youtube, and her songs got me through a really rough patch. I think anyone who's struggling should listen to her song 'King' as, for me, it really gave me the pick up I needed. It is DEFINITELY my song with meaning, and Im so glad I had it while I was feeling rubbish.

  332. Nicole

    Hi everyone! I just started a music blog where I share new music and artists talk, talk about my concert experiences, and review new cds! Once I get more followers I will be giving away cds to people!!! Please follow me if you can! I would really appreciate it!!

  333. Zoe,
    You have been one of my biggest inspirations, one of the reasons why I decided today to create a blog.
    I love that you talk about things that are not easy to discuss. Your posts about anxiety, just say yes post and this have inspired me so much and have given me a willpower to never give up! :)
    This is so strange how stranger can affect someones life.
    Thank you for everything!

    Gabriela XO

  334. You are so right, feeling very inspired x o

  335. I will always love the song 'shake it out' by florence and the machine. This song just makes me feel free and just tells me not to make a big deal of things and shake it out! <3

    Check out my youtube!

  336. Alk

    Hope you are happier ever after.

  337. i am so happy for you, its horrible going through hard times and feeling like nobodys there to listen or help. You seem so much happier in your videos and vlogs on youtube and the fact you are helping people with anxiety and panic attacks makes me love you even more. its nice to know that i'm not the only one suffering from anxiety.

  338. I really like Bruno Mars 'Count on me', i play it for my best friend when she is feeling down.
    Also one republics 'Secrets' :)

  339. A few years ago I was having issues in my life too and I do now know that It gets better but 4 years ago this would have been exactly what I would have needed to read. My song that hits close to me and I believe is written about my life is Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray. Thank you for this post and its so amazing to see how much your life has changed since it has gotten better and the opportunities you have had. That gives me optimism for my future.

  340. Zoe is one of those bloggers that you can just sit and read through all of her posts even if you've read them 100 times before.
    She's so down to earth and that's the main reason I love her:)


  341. Tegan

    I really hope things will get better for me. Im literally waiting for that day that they do. Your "Just say yes" post and video, really did make me feel better and help a little. But i couldnt keep it up and i was just wondering how you did? What helped you? I really wanna be happy again and change my life around but it just seems so hard and nearly to impossible. Maybe one day it all changes by it self, i really hope so. But i guess i wont know, intil that day arrives.

  342. yeah, me too, like I just had an emotional moment last Friday, and I love that song by Ellie Goulding, it make me reflect on my emotions. But I can relate to you, I see what you mean.
    BTW, Zoe is awesome, such an inspiration!

  343. omg!! I use to love that song so badly!!!! and the music video really touched me..

  344. Amy

    That's actually one of the only Ellie Goulding songs I like for the exact same reasons! I feel exactly the same about how much life can turn around and how different things are now from last year. Things seem like the end of the world but then you look back and realise it was another piece in the puzzle that leads you to where you are now. Loved this post (and your beautiful flowers!) X

  345. Love you Zoe :)

  346. It's really inspiring (and comforting??) to read posts like this and know that you're not the only one who is unhappy etc even when it feels that way a lot of the time. I have so many songs I turn to when I need to; JT's Blue Ocean Floor is a really soothing, relaxing one though :) Hopefully we'll be reading more posts from you soon!

    New post: DIY skin brightener :) | TigerlilyBeautyBlog


  347. Johnny


  348. Lotts:)

    Reading this had made me think of all the hard times I have had and reflect back on how I handled the situation, your a true inspiration, this is why I follow your blog, you take your time and are so true to your words, you write with such emotion, it's beautiful, thankyou:')

  349. lovely post. I had never heard this song before & just listened to it on repeat for the last hour

  350. I love your blog Zoe! I admire your talent and I would love to be as amazing as you are! :D

  351. Hi sweetpea (is it weird that I call you that? Oh well…)

    Anyways, I just want to be one of the thousands of people (I'm sure) to tell you that I admire your persistence to keep parts of your life to yourself. Surely it must be a major factor in keeping you sane.

    Keep smiling & always remember that if people don't like what you have to say (or DON'T have to say).. well… simply put… sod 'em.

    Love from Canada

  352. TYNJA

    I'm not sure if you gonna read this but I thought that your blog is the best option as there is a lot less comments than on youtube. So… There is a girl called Oliwia, she is from Poland and she is ill, she has leukemia. She has her 6th birthday on 27th of October. Her biggest dream is to get as many birthday cards as possible so i thought you may be interested in this whole thing :) This is the facebook page with her address (there is an English description as well so you can read more about Oliwia) – <3

  353. Love this song. Love this blog. Love your inspirational talks. Love you ♥ I'm coming to london when it's Halloween :D so excited. Will you be there too? I would love to meet you!

  354. Amelia

    I don't like it when people say "things always get better" because that isn't always the case. I've been waiting for 10 years for things to get better and they haven't. x

  355. Lily

    Thank you zoe! you have inspired me so much to start my own blog and i absolutely love you blog!

  356. Melissa

    This is exactly how I felt 2 years ago but time heals wounds, I would say and everything is getting better! :)

  357. The experience of "beauty" often involves an interpretation of some entity as being in balance and harmony with nature, which may lead to feelings of attraction and emotional well-being. Because this can be a subjective experience, it is often said that "beauty is in the eye of the beholder."

  358. Schoee!!!! these posts and videos are the reason why i love you soooo much!! you'll be my evergreen girlcrush!!! i love your videos.. i love you loads!!! <333

  359. Aww, Zoe, you are too cute. I was in such a bad phase up until a few weeks ago, but now it seems like it is all getting better. Your words are true words!

    xx Lisa

  360. Love you Zoe, the year before last was the absolute hardest of my life. When I look at pictures from back then now my face looks so sad. I couldn't agree more with you, things will get better and every difficult situation will eventually pass. The song that got me through that year was Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran. To this day I cry when I listen to it, and when I saw Ed sing it live it made me unbelievably happy. That summer I started watching your videos, and they never failed to put a smile on my face. I know if we met in real life we would get along so well, you're beautiful inside and out! <3

  361. Unknown

    You are honestly my idol. You inspire me in so many different ways. Since I've started watching your videos I've learnt how to love myself and that better things will come along.

    The one song that will without fail cheer me up is Classic by MKTO. Its one of them songs that you just want to dance to and lets you forget about everything.

    If you do read this message, I just want to say thankyou and you are the most beautiful person ever, inside and out.


  362. love your blog and youtube channel xxx

  363. Hi guys i have recently started a blog and zoe was one of the people who inspired me i LOVE her so please could you check it out and leave me a comment? it would mean the world to me

  364. i can completely relate, this time last year I was a very different person and wasn't in a very good place. Explosions is the one song that i felt summed up how i was feeling and it made me cry because it explained my situation so well. Nice to know someone else felt like this!
    Sara x

  365. I love your blogs Zoe, they're really good. I normally get bored on peoples blogs and give up halfway through but I read everything on yours! :)
    Anna xx

    p.s Hi everyone, I just started my blog today and was wondering whether you could come and have a quick read of my first blog post! I am new to blogging, and would love some tips on how to get bigger.
    :) xxxxxx

  366. Definitely Cold Play – Fix You. Makes me cry every time so I don't like to listen to it to be honest! Reminds me of my brother Ben <3

    Everyone goes through horrible times. Just have to see any positives and what good there still is in life.


  367. Astri G

    My favourite song is Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran, it's such a sad/emotional song. And hence the fact that I can only express my emotion through music this song just gets me every time, I listen to this song almost everyday, and to this day two years has gone by since I first heard it, and I still cannot stop myself from getting emotional everytime I hear this song. It just hit's me in a special place. I'm always that one person who would drop everything for another person, but when I'm the one needing another person, suddenly there's no one there..
    I really think Ed Sheeran is an underrated artist, his music is so honest and true, especially when you see he's live performances, he as an musican has helped me through so much with his music.

  368. There's so many songs off Ellie's new album that have such deep lyrics that it sometimes made me tear up! Glad to know I'm not the only one, haha

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  370. Tilly!

    Zoe! This is such a lovely post and I just wanted to say how much I love your blog and your youtube! Your so inspiring and funny too. I have read your blog for ages now and watched probably all of your youtube videos and they are amazing! Don't ever stop because it's what I look forward to reading/watching! This post is so reassuring and I really enjoyed reading it (like all your others!) xxx

  371. Hey everyone, I have just started a blog where I do mostly beauty and makeup related posts and I would love if you could come and check it out and give me some constructive criticism, I am always looking for new ways to make my writing better. Thanks a bunch:)

  372. @Zoella
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    I read your blog and watch your YouTube video and I always feel OMG she is so good, nice person and with positive thinking. I really want to be like you. I'm so stressful with my life now, I feel no one in my side and don't know what to do. I just force myself to study hard, work hard and no life. I always wish I have a better parents but I understand that every parents do the best for their children but still at some point I wish… I feel lonely all the time (I'm studying overseas not stay with parents at the moment). I have a cousin here, but she is such a bitch.
    I feel so hard to explain but hopefully you read my comment and understand it.
    I really happy for you where you are at the moment and any chances, can you please tell me what should I do.
    Love you so much
    xo Julua

  373. Maddie

    I love seeing blog posts that are a little different and it makes me so happy that you seem to have found happiness Zoe:)

  374. Hi everyone, I'm Jessica. As the same as Zoe, I also have a nickname with an 'ella' on the end. I am new to the blogging world, but I really know that blogging is what I want to do. I only write from experience, nothing fake. I will write about anything that you suggest to me; confidence boosting, health and beauty tips, school tips, ect. All you have to do to help me out is comment on my first post giving me a specific topic you want me to write about. I will actively follow anyone who does. Thank you all xo

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  376. You are such an inspiration! An inspiration for me, I just started a blog because of you…Thank You :) xxx

  377. Karina

    Hi Zoe, how are you? first of all, I love your videos and posts.
    I bet you get this a lot, but I am a new blogger and I am trying to build an audience of readers. I would like it if you check out my blog and if you like it, maybe forward me some of your readers?
    Thanks a lot!

  378. I totally agree – music really does make anything better. Whenever I am feeling sad, I listen to Ellie Goulding Burn! But my favourite feel good song of all time is Wake Up by Boo Radleys! It always reminds me of when I went on a family camping trip when I was little (think it must of been released at the same time). I set it as my alarm tone to wake me up every morning now & motivate me – "Wake up it's a beautiful morning!" :) xx

  379. Liezel

    Hi, Zoe!
    It's very seldom that I drop by in your blog (mostly only on your YT account) but glad I did!
    Thanks for reminding me that things DO get better, in time.
    I kind of see myself in you, though still I'm in that shell. I know it would just take time.
    I know one day I'll be like you too, be more open and free. and lovely. haha! Thanks a lot for this post! :)
    Such an inspiration. :)

    Liezel xx

  380. I'm so happy for you Zoe, I feel I know you like a big sister (I wish you were xx) and this post makes me feel proud of you :) Keep doing what you're doing – I love you so much xxxxx

  381. I've been having a difficult time recently, with so many things. I opened up your blog a few weeks ago and this had been posted only a few minutes before, it really hit a nerve. I almost cried I was that touched by it and I've read it so many times since.

    Change is slow, but it does happen.

    Thank you Zoe!

  382. Zoe, you've gave me so much confidence. I love this post.
    I love "Ours" by Taylor Swift, so uplifting.

  383. This was the perfect blog post! Just what I needed to hear/read today!

    Anything by Bon Iver really makes me think deep about life such beautiful emotional music, and a 'New Year' by Layla- is my current favourite x

  384. Right now, I would say my favorite's are All Too Well by Taylor Swift and I See Fire by Ed Sheeran!

  385. I'm feeling very reflective too at the moment – my baby is about to turn one! I love Ellie Goulding's voice, it's so unusual. The song that I am reflecting to this month is Ellie Goulding's – Your Song. It was my mums song to me and now my song to my daughter :)

  386. I wish my monday is pretty like this :)
    blog written by two friends :)

  387. Zoe-

    What you are putting out into the world is so uplifting. I'm having kind of a rough time lately and this post specifically brought a little tear to my eye. I love watching you on YouTube. Thank you for being you!

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  391. I LOVE the song Explosions! It's absolutly amazing!!!! I don't really know what it reminds me of but it reminds me of something personal haha! Love you Zoe!!!!! xx

  392. I seriously love this post Zoe, it is so inspiring to me and others! thank you so much <3

  393. Wow Zoe, really impressive post :)

  394. Zoella, You're amazing at everything! :), Love your vids <3

  395. One song that seems to describe me right now is Taylor Swift's "The Story of Us" because i just recently went into a best friend breakup and things didn't end every well. Event though we didn't date we still had a special bond, he and I had been friends since kindergarten, but things and people change.

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  397. i just posted my first post today! My November Favourites!:) It would really mean alot to me if you read it x

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  398. BeLong

    I love this blogpost it's so inspiring! Zoella actually inspired me to create my own blog and it would be greatly appreciated if you could take a look and maybe subscribe while you are over there!

  399. hii zoe, you've inspired me to create my own fahsion and photography blod which i'll be sharing with my friend Olga.
    Id really like if you guys checked it out!!
    Sarah xx

  400. You're so helpful Zoe! Read your blog for ages, but only just started my blog today. You're amazing. Thank you!! :-)

  401. I love your blog so much, it has inspired me to start one as I have wanted to do one for a while. I finally plucked up the courage.

  402. Hi, i've recently started blogging similar to Zoe and Louise!
    Would be amazing if you could check my posts out?

  403. I'm going through a tough time at the moment and this post really gave me hope for the future<3 you're such an inspiration to me and I couldn't thank you enough for that. The song Fix You by Coldplay is definitely my favorite song with meaning every time I listen to it and without fail come close to tears xo

  404. Loved this xx

  405. Yvette

    Just hoping someone can tell me what camera Zoe used for this post?

  406. i love this blog so much!! so much time and thought is put into it! go gurl!

  407. I didn't see the vid at first and I was thinking hmm I wonder if its "Explosions" ?? Cause thats a hard hitting one for me too ! And sure enough ! :) This is such a great track and has so much meaning ! XO

  408. This has to be one of my favorite posts from you so far, love you zoe! and as of right now my favorite song would have to be rivers and roads by the head and the heart, you should check it out!

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  412. you and your blog is the best

  413. Lovely post:) i also love the song explosion by Ellie Goulding!

  414. JPROSE

    You are such an inspiration. To know that one person can help you grow as a person is horrifying, but honestly you are my idol and you have helped me with anxiety and just showing me that I'm not alone.

  415. Jennico

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  416. eLujane

    favourite song with meaning: Imagine Dragons – Demons, i'm just in love with it. If you don't know it, hope you read this comment and get a chance to listen to it, it's just amazing. ♥

    I would also love it if you could check out my blog, you're such an inspiration to me so I would love to have some feedback, thanks and have a great day ♥♥

  417. I love your blog and your hairstyle is beautiful! :)

  418. I don't want to beg for views and followers, but if you could check out my blog it'd mean a lot, I'd like to be just like you one day, with a successful blog and youtube :) x

  419. I am so glad that I chose to read this post. I was simply scanning through my pages and found this. That song really does resonate with me as well. 2012 and 2013 can be summed up as a whole of beauty and horror. Thank you for who you are and for sharing your life with us. xoxo Linda Ann

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  422. You 're so inspiring Zoella . love reading your posts and you're my favorite youtuber :)

  423. Hello zoella, I’ve spend about 2 days reading through your blogs. I’ve just set up a blog myself as you've inspired me to do so through your videos on youtube and through your own blogs. I really appreciate all the hard work you must do to have such a successful channel and blog. Currently, I’m at Newcastle college doing Level 2 beauty therapy, I will be including this within my blog too. I really enjoy sitting down and going through your old videos just to see how you used to be then compared to now. I know your really busy and I know you will get asked this a lot, but I'd really appreciate if you have a look at my blog, like I say I’ve only just started out, it’s more of a place to let out my thoughts more than anything, thanks again and keep doing what you’re doing. Hope you, your friends and family enjoy this new year, may there be hundreds of opportunities for you :) you’re a huge inspiration, to millions x

  424. Mine is Dear John by Taylor Swift. Word for word, exactly what I'm going through.

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  426. I love too many songs but if I had to point one out relevant to this post it would be Details In The Fabric by Jason Mraz. The song in itself holds multiple meanings about strength, love, integrity and such. A very inspiring one!

  427. You're so inspiring thankyou! xx

  428. I am in love with this post! It’s beautiful and has so much meaning. Thanks Zoe!

    Hi girls, I just started a new fashion / makeup blog, and would really like it if you guys can look at my blog, and if you like it, can I get a follow? I’ll follow you back. It would mean a lot. Thanks :)

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  429. i love ur blog soooo much. i have a blog of my own but i have no idea really how to advertise it. Have you ever considered doing a post about blogging tips?

  430. you are my inspiration for blogging! :*

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  431. Hope you're ok! Wish you all the best and that you are happy again! x

  432. So inspirational :)

  433. Really inspiring post! You are such a fantastic person, blogger and youtuber. You are my inspiration for starting a blog of my own. Although I only have only started about a week ago it would mean the world to me if you could go and check it out. My favourite song with meaning is "Lovers Eyes" by Mumford and Sons. It really got me through one of the most difficult times of my life.

  434. You are such an inspiration to me, I always look forward to reading your blogs!<3
    I would really appreciate it if you guys could check out my blog.

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  438. Zoe you are such an inspiration to me, I read and love every single one of your blogs!xxxx
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  439. Got a slight obsession with Ellie Goulding recently also but favourite song has to be her most recent 'How long will I love you' It's just the cutest thing ever!

    AND… I'm soooo jealous that you got your guinea pigs, my mam refuses to let me have any more pets until I get my own house, although I did manage to wangle a few budgies a while back, she let me have that one in the hopes that now I couldn't bring a cat home because she hates them ha :)
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  442. this is also one of my favourite songs and i heard it live on February 6 <3

  443. Same emotions when I listen to explosions. Favorite song.

  444. I know so many people have thanked you, so it probably doesn't affect you if I thank you too. Because the past while has been terrible.
    So thank you so much, Zoe.
    You're part of the inspiration to start youtube. I recently made a blog and twitter, but I wouldn't have without you.
    You are really incredible :)

  445. Zoe I'm sorry that you have had to deal with douchebags and broken hearts and nobody should ever have to go through that. But I am so glad that you are back to your bubbly, funny self! I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like but I feel like it made you a better person to have experienced whatever you have had to go through and I am so glad you have amazing friends and family to confide in and comfort you. Yes everybody is going to get hurt at least once in their life, I have been stabbed in the back before by somebody but I feel like if you only surround yourself with amazing people then you have a better chance of feeling good about yourself and loving yourself as a person. I am generally a happy person but your videos make me happy when I am sad. Thank you for being your real goofy self on camera and showing people that they don't have to be sad all the time. :) <3

  446. Amber Jane Fox

    Zoe, I’m not sure if you will read this or even see it, but I’m going to comment anyway. This post makes me reflect on my life over the past few years and how much it has changed, especially the ways it has changed because of the videos I watch of you and your friends. When I say to my boyfriend, family or friends that I’ve got a video to watch of you or another vlogger on youtube they always have a little chuckle and ask why i watch them ect I shrug them off because the amount you have taught me through just watching your videos is mad. I’ve watched them when I’m down, confused or frustrated and always seem to be cheered up instantly. I’ve never wanted to thank someone so much for how they’ve helped me overcome things, in some would say a very strange way. Anyway, thank you so much Zoe. Keep being as inspirational as ever. Amber x

    • I feel EXACTLY the same- except for my life hasn’t got any better and i’m single still

  447. Lillie Willdig

    Zoe I have a problem, what do you do when your best friend ignores you because one of your ‘ friends’ is hauging her and you feel so alone that you feel like crying sometimes and somedays you feel like talking to no one . I hope you can replie , it would be really nice to talk to some one about this .

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