“The hills are alive with the presence of a complete loon”

2012. Wow, what a year! 

I don’t even know where to begin, but here goes…

It’s only on reflection of the year, when you really sit down and think about it, that you realise it may have possibly been the worst and best year of your life. I know that is hard to get your head around, “how could it have possibly been the best AND worst?”, but it really was, and that’s the only way I can describe it. The start of the year is a bit of a blur for me. (I could completely side step the reasons, but I am a normal person, and my life isn’t perfect, and you are all my friends). Come August of this year, I came out of a relationship that consumed me and took control over many aspects of my life. My anxiety at this point had spiralled completely out of control and I was a very broken person, pretending to be happy and continuing to smile on the outside. I tried with everything I had in me to make something toxic work, to be perfect for someone who didn’t care about me. It’s only once you a free from the situation, that you realise how messed up the situation really was, and that’s exactly what happened to me. I won’t go into mammoth detail, and there are things only a handful of my closest friends and family know, but it was a very hard time for me. All I hope is that if you are unhappy with something in your life, and you are being completely clouded by negativity and loosing sight of who you are because of how someone else treats you, please have a long hard think. We only get one chance at life, and you deserve nothing but happiness and to be surrounded by people who bring out the best in you. From August onwards, this is exactly what I did.

I feel as though I am cheating somewhat by starting my year from August instead of January, but really, that is where my year began, and everything turned around for me, and I became Zoe again (as cheesy as that sounds, I was beginning to get my spark back).  Bad part of the year now out the way, let’s get onto the good things that made it the best year ever…

Louise turned 25 again this year, and we celebrated in her hometown with Fleur. It was a night filled with girly chatter, pervy men, big fluttery eyelashes, cake and giggles. Although it was very touch and go about whether I’d be able to go into a crowded club and stay there for longer than 5 minutes without dashing to the door, both girls made me feel okay about the situation, and I actually managed to stay out the whole night without a trace of anxiety. Win.

Joe started making YouTube videos and we both embarked on the YouTube journey together. It’s one thing sitting making videos chatting away to yourself, thinking that your family probably think you are a complete nutter, but it’s so cool to actually discover that they think what you’re doing is amazing, and they are proud of you. I loved that Joe decided to give it a whirl too, and he’s doing amazingly! You can go to his YouTube channel HERE. He can’t think making videos is uncool if he’s doing it too! ;) 

One of my favourite days of the whole year, was when Louise, Tiyana and Darcy came to stay at mine, and we went to Longleat for the day. Longleat is a safari and amusement park here in the South West. The day completely cheered me up and we all has such an amazing time that I forgot what being sad was! 

This year, I feel that although we were already such great friends, our friendship was cemented and Louise and I became the best of friends. You only ever see us larking about in videos together, exchanging banter on twitter and uploading still images on Instagram, but beneath all that, Louise was the one person this year that was there for me no matter what. I never felt alone because I always knew she was just a phone call away at any time, and she was the one who helped me get my spark back, and held my hand through everything. I really don’t know what I would have done without her. She knows how much I love her and value her as a friend, and that whenever she needs me i’m there for her too. If I could award a “man of the match” in terms of “best person in 2012”, that would certainly go to Louise. *makes award*.

Another thing that I have loved about 2012, is seeing Darcy grow into a little lady. I know she is not my child but I care about her a lot, and I feel hugely privileged that I get to share moments of her life growing up. I love the cute little moments Louise shares with her too (like the one pictured below). Darcy now gets excited when I arrive to stay, sad when I leave and looks for me in the dining room (where i sleep on a sofa bed) when I’m not there. It melts my heart. They are both my two favourite ladies, and never cease to put a huge smile on my face. 

At the end of the year, I decided to say yes to more things. This resulted in me going to YouTube parties and more events (like Summer In The City), meeting other youtubers and viewers and really feeling a huge sense of involvement. Through this I also made friends with so many other people who I value very highly in my life now. You know when you just meet people, and spend a lot of time with them, and you instantly all click because you all have so much in common? That’s exactly what happened. I never realised genuine, honest, nice people were so easy to find, and this was so refreshing after the horrid start to the year. I was spending time with people that brought out the best in me and made me feel happy!

I also said “yes” to going to Reading Festival for the day. No accomplishment for a lot of you, but for me it was a big deal. I went with my brother and met up with Alfie (Pointlessblog) and had an amazing day/night. I got to see one my favourite bands Two Door Cinema Club, but most importantly felt a huge sense of accomplishment that i’d managed to go to something like this and not run away in a panic. I stayed, and I enjoyed myself. 

Louise and I took a trip up to Manchester to visit our fellow blogging friend El (AThriftyMrs). I had never ventured that far north in my brum brum before, but the journey up, the day there and the journey back were all so memorable for me. I laughed all day with friends. It’s certainly a day that really sticks out for me. El is one of the loveliest people you will ever meet. She is so warm and genuine and such a giggle! (her blog is also one of my all time favourites). Louise and I also had a 2.5 hour singing and bopping session in the car on the way up, where Louise was singing “call me maybe” to fellow lorry drivers as I giggled in the drivers seat. The journey home was also something I will always remember, as we had one of those really deep, meaningful conversations that last 3 hours but feel like you’ve been talking for 10 minutes. My favourite kind! 

Come September I went to London Fashion Week (on my own – WOAH THERE) and spent the day snapping away at pretty people with amazing hair, faces and clothes. I also met up with my fellow blogging chum Lily (What I Heart Today) where we took London Fashion Week posing to the next level. P.S. Lily’s blog has been one of my 2012 favourite reads so do go over and see for yourself.

I bit the bullet and uploaded a video surrounding everything anxiety and panic attack related. I was very nervous to upload this video, as writing feelings down is a lot easier than speaking them out loud, and it made me feel very vulnerable and exposed. I think it’s easy for people to forget that underneath videos and blogposts, I am a normal girl with problems just like you, I just don’t always talk about them. The response I received from the video was so overwhelming that it actually brought many a tear to my eye.  I would even go as far as saying I feel like it was my biggest achievement of the year, because it meant that I got to help so many of you, and that’s what really meant the most to me. I knew that if it helped just one of you, it was 100% worth it. Just turns out that I helped a lot more than one person and you will never understand just how much comfort that brings me :)

Towards the end of the year, we went to the DailyMix launch party. 5 of us all stayed in a hotel in London and really made the most of our night. It was so fun getting to spend the evening surrounded by amazing friends and swanky drinks and canapés. Beauty/YouTube events were something I used to love going to since 2010, but with my recent bad bout of anxiety they almost seemed like a thing of the past so I was excited that I managed to stay out and have a hoot with all my favourite people!

 Photo by Paul Monckton

So there we have it, the best and worst year of my life all rolled into one blog post. Thank you all for joining me on my journey, for leaving me an abundance of amazing comments, messages and emails throughout my entire social networking-dom and for supporting me through the hard times and the good times. I’m so pleased that I get to share the things I get up to with you all, and I wouldn’t change that for the world. Massive hugs to those of you who have been here at the beginning in 2009 and to those of you who may have just started watching or reading in 2013 and also everyone in between. I hope you all had an amazing year and that you if you didn’t, you learnt from it and 2013 will be a fresh start for you.

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013

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  1. Emily

    You're such an inspiration Zoe

  2. This is such a lovely post & collection of memories! You being so open & honest about your anxiety is truly inspiring & encouraging – especially with things like going to Reading. I hope this year continues to bring you the happiness you've had since August :) xx

  3. JULIA

    that was a good year for you Zoe! :) hope 2013 will be even better!!

  4. Wow Zoe! You had such an amazing year and made the most of it. We are all so proud of you for sharing it all with us and having the courage to do that. When I watched your anxiety video, I kept thinking to myself, "There is no way I could do that." You have been such an inspiration to me, in making active changes in your life and not letting anything get in your way of having a great time! I love your friendship with Louise and how genuinely amazing you appear! I've loved watching your videos and reading your blogs all year and I'm so glad that I've been able to 'share this journey with you'.

    Best of luck for 2013! I wish you every happiness and success for the year to come.

  5. Zoe

    Love looking through the photos, you're just stunning! Also, such a lovely post to read, hope you have a good 2013!
    Zoe | zozeze.com

  6. Claudia

    This is such an amazing post. You're so brave and beautiful and I love watching your videos and reading your blog. I was feeling down at Christmas but after watching your videos with Joe they cheered me right up and I even have my sister hooked on your videos now.
    You're the best out there!
    I hope you have a fab 2012, New year, new start :)

    Claudia xx

  7. Just read the post al the way through, at least your time since a gust looks to have been amazing! I definitely want to go to my first festival this summer, can't believe its 2013 already!!

    Project Rattlebag


  8. Noush

    Happy new year :)

  9. Zoe you are just so lovely and genuine, it's nice to see how honest you can now be with all your subscribers and how far you've come. Can't wait to see more of you in 2013!

  10. Zulayka

    Aww. Loved the post, every year has its up and it's down, high and lows etc and they all help shape you. Here's to hoping you have a great 2013!

  11. You have been my biggest inspiration for anxiety, I know you must get this a lot but I truly mean it. This year i'm having a fresh start and taking on your advice of 'just saying yes'. I feel a lot happier in myself already! Love the blog post, happy new year! :)

    Nicolle x


  12. Just loved reading this post Zoe, sounds like you had a lovely 2012 (from August onwards), and am looking forward to your blog posts in 2013! I've just started up a blog – you don't have to read it, I'm just letting you know that you inspired me to make it!:) x

  13. Tali

    What an amazing post :) you've come a long way from your anxiety by the looks of things, I'm very happy for you!! I hope to do the same this year, bring it 2013!! Xxxxxx

  14. Lauren

    I loved this. You're a lovely person Zoe, anyone who can't see that is a fool. All the best for 2013! xx

  15. This is such a beautiful post! You and Louise have a brilliant friendship, one which I'm happy to say that I can relate to. I'm glad your in a better place zoe! x


  16. Rachel

    such a positive and inspiring recap, all these memories sound great and i know how you feel about your year starting in august… some years just go like that! thanks for sharing zoe, forget the bad, embrace the good :) here's to a better 2013!

    rachel x

  17. Emma

    Your beautiful. (thats all there is to say really)

    Emma x.x.x


  18. LUCY

    So lovely getting to know you in 2012 Zoe – bring on 2013! See you next week x

  19. Aww such a lovely post! :)

  20. Wow 2012 (from August) sound's incredible and i am glad you got there. I think i was in a similar relationship situation and did the same as you as i lost the true Sophie, which has now returned, yay!

    I hope you have a super amazing 2013!

    Sophierosehearts x

  21. Happy New Year Zoe! 2013 will be even better, I am sure of it.

  22. Jordan

    about the 10 millionth new year blog post I've read…..but the BEST <3 happy New year zoe :) xxx

  23. Your year sounds amazing! I hope you have just as good year or maybe even better this year :) I love your blog and your YouTube channel! You were one of my BIGGEST inspirations to start a blog and a YouTube channel :) And i am also glad Joe started one, i love his videos :) If you dont mind do you think you could follow my blog and check out my YouTube channel and let me know what you think and what you think i can improve on:)
    http://www.youtube.com/user/CkIiBe/videos?flow=grid&view=0 It would mean so much :) Thank you xx :)

  24. I love this post Zoe! And you can really see the difference in you from how you act in your videos and can tell that you are loads happier now! You have also influenced me to create my own blog and having suffered from anxiety in the past myself, I was really nervous to do it, but now I have I love it! So Thank you for that :)

  25. awww i love u zoella and im glad u had a fantastic 2012 and i hope that u will have an even better 2013! <3 xx

  26. Elora

    Really nice pics, I love your blog! :) Happy new year!

  27. I'm so, so proud of you Zoe, it takes such a lot of courage and strength to a) tackle your inner demons and b) help so many other by discussing it so openly. So, SO much respect for you lovely girl, I hope 2013 is an incredible year for you.


  28. Zoe, this is the sweetest post ever. I'm so sorry that the start of 2012 wasn't the best but I'm glad you had a better end to the year! I started watching your videos&reading your blog in June 2012 and since then I've seen how much more cheery you've become. So thank YOU for brightnening MY day and I hope that Autumn/Winter 2012 now tops Summer 2010 (which you said was the best time of your life!)

  29. Loveeeee the pics your eyes are nuts xx

  30. An amazing post! I think it's amazing how open you are with all of us! I hope you have a lovely 2013!

  31. Amy

    This was such a lovely post to read. I'm currently suffering terribly from anxiety and panic attacks, so much so that before day I hadn't even left the house for 10 days, oops. So reading this has gave me hope that things can change, and things can get better. Whenever I'm feeling down and anxious, I watch your youtube video on it and/or read your blog posts on it (the just say yes one is a fave) – I find it really helps me a lot. You're such an inspiration, and after recently starting blogging myself (well, I've been blogging a whole week) I'm actually debating whether to create a series of posts about anxiety/panic attacks and how to deal with it – I'd love to help people as much as you have! You've helped me to see the light when I've been having a really dark time.

    Thank you an awful amount, it's great to see how much your anxiety has improved, I hope 2013 brings more fun for you!


  32. This post like all your others is so inspirational. I really see you as an amazing role model. Your human like the rest of us but so creative, kind and fun and I could only hope to be like you one day. Your panic attacks video made me cry but it was truly a blessing and I didn't feel so abnormal in a world that can sometime appear to be full of confident out going people. I really can't wait to see what you have planned for 2013, I'll always follow your blog and videos, I can't wait to see where your life takes you next. You deserve every success! xxxxx

  33. aleva

    SOexcited to see new blogpost. It was clearly very important year for you! I am very glad that I "found" you on internet, since than you´ve been such an inspiration for me! Wish you the best in 2013!

  34. Raz

    Definitely understand having the best and worst year all rolled into one! I'm glad you've got out of that destructive place and feel much better :) looking forward to more of your videos this year.

  35. *virtual hug*

  36. This is so lovely! :)

    I wish I could be You or Your closest friend and do all those things together! You have such a nice personality, you're so cute and pretty. Oh god, if I'd be a guy, I'd fell in love with you.

    I hope this year is going to be even more awesome!
    Marie xx

  37. lovely to see that you are now so happy zoe xx

  38. Lucy

    This entire post made me feel so pleased and happy for you that despite some rather rubbish moments earlier on in the year, you turned it around and gained many positive memories to remember in the future.
    WELL DONE for getting out of a relationship that didn't make you happy, I too had to do the same thing – it was difficult but I don't regret it for one second! The majority of my 2012 is pretty much one big bad memory for me but I'm so determined to make 2013 full of happy, positive memories and I hope that will be the same for you too :)

    Oh and everything you wrote about Louise was lovely :) I'm sure she's so grateful to have a friend like you too!

    Lucy xxx

  39. Awh Zoe, I've missed you blogging this year! (Now I understand why) Hope 2013 is better than ever for you<3

  40. Zoe you are such an inspiration and I love this post so much. Love all the photos and I can't wait ot see what adventure you are willing to share with us in 2013.
    Best of luck to the new year
    Dalia xx

  41. Maddy

    You really inspire me, even through all the tough themes that you have gone through, you still remain the bright, happy Zoe that we all know and love! I hope that 2013 can only get better for you and thanks for inspiring me to set up my own beauty/fashion/lifestyle blog xxxx


  42. This is such a lovely post! I think your blog is definitely one of my 2012 reads! I feel a bit more confident about my anxiety just from reading your post and knowing that i'm not alone. :)I feel like I have been able to push my depression away with the help of blogging.
    Darcy looks like a litte gem! So cute!!
    p.s sorry for the cheesy comment

  43. sounds like you had an amazing (half of) 2012 with many great memories :)
    i love ready all about what goes on in your life and you are definitely one of my biggest inspirations
    i hope 2013 is even more amazing for you :)
    youre amazing, love you xx

  44. Mona

    Beautiful pictures& darcy is the cutest child on arth,i love her smile :D

  45. Marina

    This. I am honestly so happy you turned your year around, I am in the midst of a bad period of anxiety and you remind me that it is possible to overcome it. I genuinely give you all the luck in the world that 2013 you have a whole year of amazingly good things xx

  46. I'm so glad that you're happy now and have gotten rid of something significantly bad in your life!! You might not know this but you make such a difference you inspire people and you cheer them up as well!

    You inspired me to write my blog (which I now love to write) and I look forward to reading your blog posts, no matter how long or short :) x.


  47. I feel so privileged to have gone through those experiences with you, through your blog posts and youtube. Your so inspirational and I feel like i've made a new friend even though I haven't met you in person. Keep up your amazing work and have a lovely 2013. Hannah xx

  48. Happy New Year, Zoe!

    I hope that this year will be just as good as the latter part of 2012 and that you can continue being the beautiful, lovely Beauty Blogger/Vlogger we've all grown to love!

    Katie x

  49. Wow that was really touching Zoe :) I actually got a sudden hit of emotion especially when I read about your friendship with Louise :)

    You are very lucky to have those kind of people around you and I'm really glad you know that

    I can't wait for what 2013 will bring you, cause I know it will only get better for you!


  50. Hi Zoe,

    I have been reading your blog and following your videos for years now, and I think it really needs to be said– you are a fabulous person. Yes, I enjoy reading your posts and watching your videos because you are talented, funny and charming- but mostly because your happiness always brings a smile to my face. I can say with certainty that watching your fashion and beauty videos strengthened my confidence in my own style.

    I wish you the best for 2013. May your year be filled with happiness, good health, success and most of all love.

    Hugs galore!

    Atifa :)

  51. I hope 2013 is an amazing year for you Zoe, you are such an inspiration!

  52. Just thank you Zoe. <3

  53. You are one of my favourite youtubers/bloggers and it instantly makes my day to see you've uploaded a new post or video. I truly admire how you turned your life around and how you stopped the likes of anxiety and other negative things from ruling you and stopping your from doing things. You are such an inspiration and i truly admire the confidence and the courage that it must have took for you to do that.

    Your blog has also encourged/inspired me to start one of my own, ive been doing it for just over a year now and i love it so much. Im so happy that you and your blog gave me that final push (link below if you're interested)

    Thank you so much for sharing such intimate details and for allowing us to be apart of your life. I look forward to seeing future posts, videos and what 2013 brings.
    All the best & Happy New Year!
    Natalie xx

  54. Nicola

    This was a truly inspiring post, and im so glad you changed your life around after as you deserve nothing but the best(: I am so glad you started saying yes to more things, which in 2013 this is something i MUST do more. I hope you have a fully fantastic year in 2013 Zoe(:


  55. LWS

    you go girl.
    i am excited for what 2013 will bring xo

  56. such a great post Zoe, you are my inspiration. I hope 2013 is amazing for you x

  57. pilar

    Really enjoyed reading this, Zoella. I'm sure it must have been cathartic for you as you put your year down on "paper" You most certainly have come a long ways. And I look forward to see what lies ahead for you. You are a wise and witty lady :)

  58. What a beautiful post! You are such an inspiration, you're the best! I hope you have a great 2013! x

  59. I really didn't think any of this had happened to you Zoe but I'm so glad that you have learnt from it. You are such a genuine person. I wish I could say i'd be there for you if you needed someone to talk to but seeing as we are complete strangers that can't happen. I hope 2013 is much better/just as good for you because you deserve it!

  60. Erica

    Zoe, I am unbelievably happy for you! Seems like you had a wonderful 2012, and I'm so thankful that you brought us along for the journey.

    I don't know if this is weird, but I do think of you as a friend, so I too feel proud of your accomplishments and I really do wish all the best for you! Can't wait to see what 2013 brings! :)

    – Erica

  61. Such a great post! You are such an inspiration and I hope that your happiness continues in 2013! Your blog is one of my favorites to read and your videos are amazing and so funny too!! :) ♥

  62. Wow Zoe, this was such an inspirational post I don't even know where to begin.
    There have been some difficult moments for me too throughout 2012 however it was an incredible year for me and definitely the best!
    This post has made me realise that you just need to put the bad times behind you and take the new year as a new beginning!
    I'm so glad that you're happy right now as you really deserve to be!!!
    You're a wonderful person!
    Caitlin xxx

  63. over the last couple of months you have fast become one of my favourite youtubers, your honesty with your anxiety is something that I found really refreshing and allowed me to feel that my own anxiety won't hold me back either.

    I hope that you are proud of yourself for getting out and about, I look forward to seeing what treasures 2013 brings you.

    lets drive far away x

  64. hi Zoe! i can't get over how beautiful you are as a person. obviously you have the prettiest face and that is what you notice first, but you just seem to be such a genuinely lovely person. i'm so happy that you can see how amazing your life is, and that 2013 is looking so bright for you – wishing you love, luck and happiness this year! xx

  65. I love this post. Becoming a better person is the best way to spend a year (or at least half of one ;)) congrats on your successes!
    xo dana

  66. That was so amazing Zoe, I also had the best and worst happening to me in 2012. I think you learn from everything and what someone said to me once is "don't regret your mistakes or bad stuff that has happened just be happy that you are better now" even though it's better said than done, and I am still trying to do it. Thank you so much for sharing so much with us! You and Louise are beautiful people :) xxx

  67. Naghmeh

    Zoe I've been following you from the very beginning and I can honestly say in all of these 3 years I have never seen you as happy as you are now! it's wonderful and contagious. I wish you all the best in all of your new adventures this year :)

  68. Zoe, you bought a tear to my eye when I read the sad part, and then all of a sudden the tear drop turned into happiness. Seeing those pictures, and imagining you reading this to me in a video, I noticed that you aren't perfect, nobody is. We all have baggage we have to deal with our entire lives. You have made me want to be a better person for 2013, so thank you. Love you lots, Chloe x

  69. I really didn't think any of this had happened to you Zoe but I'm so glad that you have learnt from it. You are such a genuine person. I wish I could say i'd be there for you if you needed someone to talk to but seeing as we are complete strangers that can't happen. I hope 2013 is much better/just as good for you because you deserve it!

  70. Rachel

    completely understand the whole finding yourself, i went through the same thing from may to august and my year only seemed to finally begin in august too, so strange seeing someone in the same situation because no one else exactly understood how i was feeling and i couldnt explain that i didnt know what i used to be like and how to be the old me. This post honestly nearly made me shed a wee tear, all my love from ireland. -rach xo.

  71. SARAH

    This is such a lovely and inspiring post! Im glad you feel a lot happier now because from watching you on Youtube and reading your blog for a couple of years now, you really seem like a nice person and so deserve it so so much. I hope 2013 is very kind to you. Happy New Year!


  72. Keep doing it that way girl. Your life starts when you say yes to everything, as you told, despite it started by august. I'm so glad for you!

    From Spain x

  73. Lindsay

    This post sums up many peoples' year, and I think expressed the best/worst aspect so well Zoe. You are an inspiration to people all over the globe — you seem so approachable and kind and caring! Happy 2013 xx

    Love from the States!

  74. Wow looks like you have had an amazing year, filled with ups and downs!:)


  75. Amazing post, thank you for sharing these moments with us =)

  76. love you zoe! true inspiration! xxx


  77. Amy K

    Zoe, although I only recently found your blog and youtube videos, i feel like you are such an inspiration to everyone (including myself), its great to know that you managed to turn your life around from being sad and lonely to happy and just generally having a fab time! hope 2012 is a great year for you! xx


  78. Laura

    Zoe, thanks for sharing. You are my favorite YouTuber!

  79. Happy new year Zoe!! You're such an inspiration :) Kisses from Spain!!

  80. you're such an inspiration to a lot of people Zoe and myself and probably everyone are so happy to see you happy:) I'm looking forward to seeing new videos and blog posts from you this year and I hope you have a lovely year,you deserve it!

  81. Truely inspirational Zoe. You look beautiful as always in all these photos, and i love how this post has really helped me connect with you. I always turn to your blog and videos when i'm feeling down and you inspired me to write my own. You're such a wonderful person, you're real to your readers and viewers and i think that's a lovely characteristic you possess. You're always bubbly in your videos and you seem so passionate about your blog. I live just down the road from you and maybe it would be nice to bump into each other one day :) Until then, thank you so much for everything and have a wonderful 2013!



  82. Such a great blog post! I don't even know you, yet I feel so proud of you for battling through the hard times and getting through, good for you, and I know that you are going to have a great few years to come xx

  83. Wow thank you for sharing all this with us Zoe – I hope 2013 is as happy for you as the later part of 2012 was :) I really enjoyed reading this <3 xxxx

  84. This is beutiful Zoe, you're such an inspiration, i'm so happy i found out about you, even thought it was at the end of 2012. I love you so much, keep smiling, and happy new year! xx

  85. Such a lovely post, it's been amazing to follow your journey and you're still a constant inspiration to me; not just in the blogging/YouTube/beauty/fashion sense but also in the way you overcome your issues! I hope 2013 brings you more good things :)
    Frankie xx

  86. That is amazing! One of my favourite blog posts! You are an inspiration!xxx

  87. Melanie

    Happy New Year Zoe ! May this year bring you so much more love and happiness and confidence because you are an amazing person and you deserve to be happy!

    Cheers xx
    Melanie ~ http://www.mlncrd.com

  88. I can't express how much I love this post! So inspiring in many different ways. I, myself take your advices and so I want to say yes to more things and try new things! Thankyou so, so much for posting this! <3 xo


  89. Laura

    Fantastic post, Zoe. Glad to see you got your spark back!

    Your anxiety video helped me a lot and I do feel as if I also have my spark back :) Thanks.


  90. James

    Thank you Zoe for truly inspiring me. You've made me look at my own life and look back at the times I've wasted. I can relate to you in so many ways (besides that you're female and I'm male.) I'm 22 too, and haven't learnt to drive, but, your inspiration has made me think that I can drive and I will drive…this year.

    Although I'm on my own a lot of the time, I hope to change that if I decide to go to the UK and take advantage of my UK passport.

    P.S. What are apartments over that roughly priced at?

  91. Looks like you have had such an amazing year! Ah, I watch your videos and you inspire me so much, thats the reason I have made my own blog! Hope 2013 is a great year for you Zoe! x


  92. You're such an amazing person Zoe and you're such an inspiration to me <3 I think you're really brave for sharing your feelings so openly on the internet. I really loved reading this, it made me tear up at moments. I hope 2013 will be a brilliant year for all of us! xx

  93. Fern

    So I know a lot of people have said it, but this post really is pretty inspirational. I'm glad you've had a wonderful year (or latter half anyway) and I hope your 2013 is wonderful too x

  94. Imi Loa

    Zoe! this is such a nice post! It made me think about my good memories of last year and forget the bad ones and made me laugh! It is nice to be surrounded with good people like joe, louise and everybody mentioned here ;)
    We should thank you for everything you did for us because you helped a lot of us and many things wouldn't have been as nice without you! I'm so so so excited to spend another year with you! And your youtube chanel and blog are getting better each year (if that's even possible!)
    Love you!

    Imi x


  95. This is so inspiring and im in love with you right now your post make me break down in tears and im a dude i love you your such an amazing girl 2013 is gonna be better i love you

  96. You're so inspirational Zoe, hope you have a good year this year and it will be ten times better than last year! :-) x

  97. Kelly

    Amazing post I love reading your blog and watching your videos :) x

  98. Appie

    Zoe, your blog is seriously my favourite blog EVER, and usually I'm not even that into 'beauty' blogs (although yours is also lifestyle-y). You're such a beautiful girl and I also love your channel. I love how honest you are in blog posts and don't try to hide your life, I mean you just say there are thing we don't know but you neither say everything is fine. And this makes me so… happy about myself. Like, even the most beautiful and who look so confident can be all but that. Even people who are succesful in what they do can have problems. And this makes me so confident about myself. I've started blogging and youtubing before I knew about you, but you definitely gave me courage to continue doing it. Thank you <3
    I actually wanted to add something about this post, but my comment is way too long and too boring so I'm just going to stop :P
    xoxo Apollonia, a Dutch fan :)

  99. I have just signed in with my gmail on here, I always read your blog post's but never sign in& I feel I should comment on this, I have no idea what I'm doing haha, but hey I have google;) I just wanted to say, that you are really inspirational to me, thank-you for sharing your life with us Zoe!! 2012 looked like a heck of a ride for you, but lets look forward to 2013! Happy new year! Lots of love x

  100. zoey you really made me think twice, thanks for everything
    from that girl shannon

  101. wow, I am so glad i read this as it has tought me many things, but i also hope that 2013 brings you happiness and joy with the people you love! x

  102. Shabna

    You were one of the first blogs I read and I'm so sad you went through such a tough time with a crappy guy. Nevertheless I'm so happy to see how you took things in your hands and turned it all around. You had a wonderful year full of laughs and great people! A lot of people think a good year needs to be filled with crazy events and shows but really a great year is filled with great moments shared with great people! You're very lucky to have such amazing and supportive friends, we're all here for you too :-)

    Shabna @ scheine.co.uk

  103. Anna

    Zoe your such a inspiration to me, I hope this year is better for you and that you get a full year of being Zoe, and not just 4 months, your videos have helped me (Panic Attacks and Anxiety) and inspired me so much! I love you hehe <3 Xxx

  104. This is such a lovely blog post and i find it insane that I can remember when "that video" or "that blog post" of you doing each thing first went up. I really feel privileged that as a follower of yours you've let us see into so much of your life<3

  105. What a heart-warming post! <3. You can really tell how far you've come over the past year from watching your videos compared to how they were a year or so ago, Zoe, and even though I don't know you I'm so happy for you! It's wonderful to see such a sweet and genuine person find happiness; you genuinely deserve it and I hope next year brings many more exciting new things.

    You're blog was the first one I read and is one of the reasons I set up my own so thank you for being and continuing to be an inspiration. Lots of love in the new year! <3

  106. Ive enjoyed watching all your videos this year, your amazing Zoe!! love you lots!! hope too see you making more videos this year 2013:D x

  107. Just Me

    I'm happy that you're happy zoe! You deserve it!

  108. What a beautiful year! I love following you and Louise on YouTube, you both are so genuine and speak of real things. It goes to show that the nay-sayers of technology and being less connected than ever haven't had the distinct priveledge of meeting a best friend via the internet. So happy for you, and continue to work through the anxiety. I have anxiety too and it has taken many years of positive self-talk and "what's the worse that could happen" thinking in order to push through it.

  109. What a lovely post. Good luck for the future.

  110. Alice

    Such a lovely, lovely blog post. I've constantly felt inspired by you throughout this year and I'm proud of you for what you've got through. It makes me happy to see you feeling so happy again.



  111. Yours was one of the first blogs I started reading and I'm really glad I stumbled across it! This was a beautiful post Zoe and I'm really happy you're feeling better
    Sara (studsonsaturday) x

  112. Jodie

    So glad your year turned into a good one Zoe! :) Your anxiety video genuinely helped me a lot, it's always good knowing someone else is going through some of the same things you are!
    Hope you have a wonderful new year,
    Jodie xo

  113. Zoe, you are an amazing person and i understand that the majority of us dont know your life and you like to keep things behind closed doors, like any one else would. But i would just like to say you are such an inspiration to me and im sure many other people. I just want to say thankyou and keep doing what you're doing. It makes me very happy :) Lots of love ♥ @_bethanyalice_ please view my twitter xxxx

  114. Janella

    seriously Zoe, your Blog is soooooo amazing! I love clicking trough your blog, you inspire me!!!
    2012 had also been my best and worst year! Just the other way around. Until October I felt sooo good and since then I'm tring to get back to my old me.

    Many hugs from Austria,

  115. such a lovely read!! i hope that 2013 brings you many more happy memories xx

  116. Jazz

    Hey Zoe :) I can really relate to how you feel with it being the best and worst year of your life.
    The worst part of my year was also because of the end of an important relationship – I was so upset to see it end and couldn't get back into a usual routine. I have never felt so alone in my whole life and it was just horrible, all I would do everyday is sit in my room and cry, then the crying always led to palpitations. Then watching the person move on so soon didn't help me at all. I definitely reached an all time low!
    From about October, things really did become pretty good for me, I didn't do anything spectacular or travel about, but starting university and meeting people more like me and meeting more people that I could relate to seriously cheered me up.
    Whilst it wasn't a very memorable or exciting year, I've learnt so much, will take so many things away from it & I'm really determined to make this year a great one :)
    Hope your year is as good as the second half of the last!
    Jazz xxx

  117. Orli

    Zoe, you have been my inspiration ever since I started watching you. You're the most beautiful person and I always wanted to be like you. When I watched your video on panic and anxiety, I nearly had a heart attack. I am almost exactly the same, and get panic attacks on a regular basis, and it just stops me doing the things I love. I couldn't believe that you, my role model, were just like me, and had the same problems as me, but you weren't letting them hold you back.
    Since then, I've been so much more confident, and have simply said yes to things. I wish I could meet you in real life one day, but I guess I just wanted to say thank you for being there for me, even though we don't know one another, but whenever I feel like crying and fear holds me back, your face is there to reassure me that I can do the things I want to. I should point out I'm only 13, much younger than most of your viewers, but makeup and fashion, like you, is the way I can express myself, and people don't understand me and judge me as a fake, which I'm not.
    I hope you have the best 2013 in the whole wide world and get the happiness that you give all of us.

  118. You really helped me in 2012, I suffer from anxiety attacks as well and want to thank you because you have helped me deal with them positively and be a happier person. You truly are an inspiration!

  119. Rachel

    Aww Zoe this was such a lovely blog post! I'm so happy to hear that you have moved on from a bad start to the year and that you have your "muchness" back :) You really are so lucky to be surrounded by such great friends and family to support you! Especially Louise, I think we all wish we could find our own little Louise haha. Here's wishing you a fabulous 2013 xoxo

  120. Pip ♥

    You're literally so amazing and such an inspiration to me (and so many others). I'm really sorry that you had such an awful start to the year, because you really don't deserve it, but I'm so happy that you had such an amazing end to the year. You honestly make me smile when I see you with Louise, Baby Glitter, your brother, Alfie and everyone else that you hang out with because you always seem like such a positive person, and it's so horrible to know that someone brought you down as much as they did, but here's to an amazing 2013 for you Zoe! <3

    Pip x

  121. Dalia

    My dear! Regardless of when your year really started I'm glad to see you're in a happy place, as well you should be! Hope you rock the new year!
    The Introverted Brunette

  122. zoe i love you and you should be so proud because you've got so many people behind you all the way. i'm so happy you got your spark back, hope you have a beautiful 2013 xxxx

  123. Emma x

    Zoe this is amazing. "We only get one chance at life, and you deserve nothing but happiness and to be surrounded by people who bring out the best in you" – this has really made me get my arse into gear and try to sort my 'relationship' out – whatever happens now I know it'll be for the best xx

    The Simple Life of Emma

  124. Beth

    Wow zoe i had no idea about how bad the start of the year was for you – you do an amazing job of putting a smile on that beautiful face of yours :) im so happy you managed to turn it all around – ive been in a job that makes me really unhappy for 4 years now.. and decided to just call it a day and leave for the start of 2013 with nothing else to go to.. very scary but something that i needed to do in order to turn things around! Im sure something will come up sooner or later – if i hadnt made the decision now i never would have! I felt so inspired reading this, youre such a positive person and as a fellow panic attack sufferer i really admire youre achievements :)
    this post really made me smile..
    What you said about Darcy..and how she looks for you when youve gone home. What a fabulous young woman you are :) Looking forward to another year of reading your blog/your chit-chats on youtube!
    I wish you all the best..

  125. Laura

    What an inspiring post. Your zest for life is infectious! x

  126. Andrea

    Zoe, i feel like you speak to me from the soul.
    2012 was not the best year for me, I got very ill with my stomach and I'm still not through with it. But it gets better and I recover myself slowly.
    Since that I had also a lot problems with anxiety.
    Thank you for being such a inspiring person and for writing down your thoughts and experiences.
    Love, Andrea x

  127. sarahxo

    I'm so pleased you managed to get yourself out of the bad time you were going through and had an amazing end to your year! You should be really proud of yourself!
    I loved reading this post, It was so inspiring! I've really enjoyed a lot of your recent posts and it has given me the motivation to start saying yes to more things myself and putting myself into situations I would normally run away from. Seeing the amazing time you have had since doing this has given me the motivation to keep at it and continue on. I hope 2013 is even better for you and you can look back on the whole year with happy memories and a smile instead of just half of it because you deserve it <3


  128. Gemma

    All I want to say is I'm send you big love for this post.
    You're one of my favourite bloggers and you've been really brave this year.
    Hope 2013 is GREAT for you :)


  129. The love I feel for this blog post is incredible. Your blog posts, YouTube videos, tweets, and instagram photos always seem to make me smile and make me happy if I am having a bad day. Thank you So much Zoe. We all love you oh so much. xx

  130. The love I feel for this blog post is incredible. Your blog posts, YouTube videos, tweets, and instagram photos always seem to make me smile and make me happy if I am having a bad day. Thank you So much Zoe. We all love you oh so much. xx

  131. reading this blog past has made me appreciate such little things in life!!! zoe youre an amazing person continue to smile you have the funniest brother ever and amazing friends sprinkle of glitter etc! i really hope 2013 is amazing right from the start to the end! keep doing what your doing we love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  132. This is a beautiful post! Well done you! I really hope you have a great 2013 where you are surrounded by the people who love you and I hope you have loads of fun opportunities ahead of you.

    All the best,


  133. Love the post Zoe, you're awesome! :) xx

  134. What a wonderful roundup of the year. You have done so much in just a few months! I hope you have a wonderful 2013! x

  135. Nina

    I just wanted to say that you're such an inspiring girl and I really admire your courage to get out there and live your life to the max. I've had times where I've been so miserable but this year I'm applying the motto 'do something'. If there's something that makes you unhappy then do something about it. That's one thing I've really learnt and taken away from your posts. Thank you for sharing that side of you with us. It really means a lot.
    Lots of love
    Nina from little nomad

  136. Wow beautiful words :)
    I'm so happy that you are now back to being 'Zoe', you deserve to be happy and your words for Louise made me tear up! they were so lovely. It's so good to see and hear how your friendship has become so strong :).
    Carry on being Zoe! and stay happy!
    Happy New Year xxx

  137. Aw Zoe that post was amazing!! I have only just started following your blog, but have been subscribed to your youtube for over a year now :) You and Louise literally are the highlight of signing onto youtube and seeing that either one of you has posted a video, I absolutely love your vlogs together :) so thank YOU for providing me with something to watch whilst painting my nails, or procrastinating from university work. You are such an inspiration to people out there and me especially! Thank you so much.

    Josie xxx Happy New Year :) <3

  138. Zoe, this blog post was so beautiful. It actually brought a tear to my eye at some parts. You're a true inspiration to me, and a lot of other people it may seem. You always make me smile whenever you write a new blog post and upload a new video, so thank you.


    Jamie x

  139. mpaz

    The first time I saw you was in a video of Alfie (when you did his make-up lol), it was a funny video and I tought you were a nice person. Now I'll be as honest as possible. Then I checked out your channel but I didn't like the videos (it wasn't because they were bad, it was because they were in english (obviously, you speak english lol, but I'm from Chile and we speak spanish. And to me it was harder to understand your language) and you were talking about things that may not exist in my country)so I didn't pay much attention but I followed you on twitter and one day I saw you had uploaded a new video and it wasn't about beauty or shopping, was about Panic Attacks and Anxiety, I saw how important was that video for you so I decided to watch it, I tried to put as much attention as possible to can understand (I'm proud of myself for that, because maybe my english is not the best but I now can understand videos in English), It was a looong video but I managed to understand (actually I cried) and since that day my perception towards you changed, then you started to make another kind of videos, funniest, like your videos with Joe, and everyday my admiration for you grows. You're such an inspiration, it's so beautiful when you show us a different side of you :)Have a great 2013!! xx

  140. yazmine

    this is such a beautiful post, it actually kind of made me cry, I'm so glad that your year turned into something amazing,you are such a lovely person and I hope that this year (and the ones after it) are just as good, if not better :') xx

  141. Zoella love your blogs :) Everyone please check mine out xxxxxxx

  142. Nika

    yeey new blog post, love it, you´re awesome :)

  143. Becca

    I think that was the best blog post I have ever read :-)

  144. Thank you Zoe for letting my into your life one little blogpost/video at a time. You are so much fun to watch and I wish you receive everything you want out of 2013!

  145. This is a lovely bog post you have been very honest and open which is nice. Wish you all the best for 2013. X

  146. WOW, that was meaningful and emotional, you are such an inspiration to me and lots of others. Very proud of you for overcoming everything, good luck in 2013 !! xx

  147. swinnie

    Aw this is so cute, never knew you came up north to Manchester! Perhaps you should take that trip again sometime in 2013? ;)

  148. Kiks89

    Zoe, I love this blog post.. it's actually made me a bit emotional! Like you I came out of a relationship in 2012.. one that at the time I thought was the perfect "love of my life" type thing, but only now can I see was really just a selfish, one sided, me-trying-all-the-time.. just generally not the kind of relationship I wanted, needed, or deserved. It nearly destroyed me. I feel like getting back on my feet after that is the thing I'm most proud of in my entire life, so I know where you're coming from with the "best and worst year of my life" thing! I completely agree! We are strong for coming through this, we can do better. :) Thank you for posting about this, it was really lovely to read how far you've come. :)

    All the best for 2013, I have a feeling it's going to be great! xxx

  149. Its so good to see that you over came the bad things in life and have enjoyed the past year :)

  150. You have an obscene amount of comments on here do I doubt you'll even see this, but I just wanted you to know that you are absolutely my favourite blogger, I followed your blog religiously last year when I ran a blog of my own but I kind of fell out of the blogging scene a bit and only got back into in the last couple of months. You were one of the first bloggers I started following again, I was so happy to see you'd properly begun to vlog, because i find videos so much more interesting and personal. I went back through your video history on YouTube and began to watch some of your older videos and watched your one on anxiety and although I don't suffer from it myself I have a close friend who does, and having suffered from (touch wood) one panic attack in my life I totally understand that feeling of spiralling out of control and just needing to get out, wanting to run. I'm really sorry to hear you had a crap start to your year, but at least it turned around by the end and you have gone into 2013 happy and positive again. I'm excited to keep following your blog and YouTube channels this year, and I love you and Louise together i think you are like the seteotypically awesome best friends!


  151. A lovely post, I hope 2013 is a good year for you from the beginning until the end!

    Happy New Year!



  152. I actually cried reading this..2012 was the same kind of year for me…full of highs and lows and one of the highs was your anxiety and panic attacks video. I too suffer from panic attacks and at the start of 2012 I could barely leave my bed..now thanks to you I realise I'm not alone and I have a much more positive outlook on life..I even started my own blog..honestly I'm not just saying this Zoe..you're such an inspiration..keep on doing what you're doing because you make so many people smile and give so many people hope in bleak situations..hope you have the best 2013 ever x

  153. well done for getting over your anxiety :) I still have it really bad :(
    I have been reading your blog since the very start and have seen you change a lot too.
    xx Emilia

  154. Wow, amazing post! I hope 2013 is even better Xx

  155. TSOH

    I'm not sure if you'll read this but in terms of ups and downs, we had a very similar year. It too was the best and worst for me, the best/worst being the same aspects as yours plus a whole lot of other crap! I'm still making progress and sadly my up wasn't as significant as yours was but I hope to be in a better place soon. This may sound ridiculous but if you ever need to talk, that's what I'm here for. Love and hugs!


  156. Have a lovley new year! Ive got past anxiety as well this year and been so much more sociable and happy! Hope you feel the same :) x

  157. This is such a nice post Zoe :-) I've only started following you the past few months, and I had no idea that you went through all that! I've also done a review of my 2012, here is the link if you would like to read it :-) xxx

  158. 2012 was a bad year for me. I came out of a relationship in May and pretended to be fine until late July but I was so broken inside. I didnt want to get up or leave the house and I stumbled into depression. I went out twice with friends in that summer. I just couldn't find the strength inside me to face the world. I also relapsed back into my anorexia because I found it a way to control my life and I believed I wasnt good enough for anyone or anything anymore. I still have suicidal thoughts and I'm still controlled by Anorexia but I daydream about the future constantly and I know that one day, this will all be worth it somehow. I pledge this year to see the best in everything and to cherish the happy days. I have a jar in my room which I'm going to write down everything good that happens and put them all in the jar, then in December I'll look back and smile at the good times and forget the bad.

  159. Laura

    This post brought a tear to my eye! Even though i don't know you personally i feel like i can relate to you, and even with your growing following a subscribing numbers, you haven't changed one bit, and thats one of the nicest qualities to have. I too came out of a relationship this year which was controlling and bringing me down, which ended in November and i really feel like me again these oast two months. You are such an inspiration to many people Zoe, not just teenage girls like myself.
    The best wishes for 2013 :) xx

  160. Ellie

    love love love this post zoe. Your blog has been a complete joy to read over 2012 and i just cant wait to see what you write in 2013. the journey you've come on is a-maaay-zzaanng and you should be so proud of yourself :) I bet 2013 isnt going to be the best and the worst but simply THE BEST!! lots of love Ellie xxx

  161. Sandra

    Hey, lovely Zoe,

    You are such an amazing person. Your videos and blog posts really brings sunshine to many of us here. When I'm sad or need an inspiration I always came here or visit your youtube channel and just reread and rewatch everything! I hope that 2013 will be even better, than 2012 and in the ending of it, you will be able to tell that WHOLE year was amazing. Please don't stop bloging and making videos!

    With love, Sandra (from Lithuania) :))xx

  162. Zoey, you are my blogging inspiration; and this is such a beautiful post to share! in 2011 i began to feel overwhelmed through panick attacks- but in 2012 i really pulled it around; and since then i've been happier than i've ever been! Keep blogging girly, hope we hear lots more of you in 2013! x


  163. What a lovely post and the pictures are beautiful, thanks for sharing them with us! I suffer from panic attacks too and I absolutely loved your video, it helped me a lot as well as all the comments that people with the same problem wrote. It's amazing too see that you are overcoming your anxiety and your fears. Thank you for sharing your positive energies! xxx

  164. Loved this post Zoe! Went through a similar thing in terms of relationships and it's so true about not knowing until it's over! I feel so free now! Such an inspirational post, really made me smile! x


  165. Happy New Year. I hope this one is a great one for you, you deserve it! :)

    Looking to make some new blogging/beauty friends. Anyone else who is new to this please check out my blog and get in touch :)


    Sorry to post dribble in your comments Zoe, we all start somewhere :)

  166. yay zoe! i love you and your blog, and I'm glad the year has got better for you:-) may 2013 bring you all the happiness in the world you gorgeous girl xxxxxx

  167. Maria P

    It's lovely how you can talk about this to all of us (who you call friends!) I for one am definitely inspired by you.

    All the best for 2013 Zoe, you deserve it!


  168. I am so glad I found your Youtubechannel and then your blog, 'cause you are one of the most inspiring people I've seen. I wish you a very good 2013, hope all year will be like the last moths of 2012!

  169. Happy new year Zoe :) you're such an inspiration!


  170. Roxy

    Beautiful post Zoe :) x

  171. This post brought tears to my eyes and although I don't usually comment on your posts or videos, I just wanted to say thank you and that you've really helped me. You're so strong for choosing to share such a personal topic. I can't thank you enough, or translate into words how much you have helped me. I am so glad to hear that things are getting better for you. I hope 2013 brings you wonderful things and experiences.

  172. Hopefully for 2013 you won't have any bad moments!

  173. Happy New Year Zoe ! You're such an inspiration. I also have the anxiety and panic attacks issue, I'm only 15 and was really hopless to be able to be in the middle of so many people one, but you gave hope. You're an amazing person, I wish the best 2013 someone can have.
    xoxo Vicki (Brazil)

  174. Doke

    You are inspiring :) Keep up the good work and keep believing in yourself. I've been in a bad relationship myself too, with a guy who was really depressed en jealous and took it out on me. I'm not as fast as you are with it. When I lost him I became depressed at first, but these last few months I feel like I'm finally becoming myself again too.

  175. You and louise have such a wonderful friendship :)


  176. Megan

    I loved this post and looking at all of the images, you and Louise are such inspirational people! I hope 2013 is a good year for you :) x

  177. What a beautiful post Zoe! I think we sometimes forget that yes you are in fact just a normal girl, with normal problems… but because everything looks so perfect on the outside, we just assume that everything is alright! You are truly an inspiration for many people! I hope this year, will be the greatest of your life! :) x

  178. This was such an amazing post. I really like these type of posts when you talk in great detail about topics. I hope 2013 is a great year for you and your friends and family
    Courtenay xx

  179. Wow. That was amazing! Makes me feel as if my year was nothing, haha. How you made me smile so much by this post! So true and so touching.
    Happy new year to you. May 2013 be bless-full for us all. =)

    Sana xx

  180. Have to agree with everyone else, that's such an amazing post! I've found your blog by chance earlier last year and you're my fave blogger/vlogger ever. You've inspired me to do loads of things I wouldn't of done before and I really appreciate you're sharing such a huge part of your life with us. I'm so grateful as I've learnt so much from you although I don't even know you (feel like I do though!) Good to hear you're happy now and I hope 2013 will be an amazing year for you as well xxx

  181. I hope you have the best year in 2013! You are an amazing girl Zoe and you deserve to have a great year!!
    Love your blog and videos :D


  182. Natalie

    You are the most beautiful, inspiring, wonderful, lovely, kind and funny person I have EVER known.. I know I don't know you personally, but just watching your videos and reading your blog makes me realise how great you are. Sometimes the year starts out with a bad bang instead of a good bang and then half way through, it turns out to be better towards the end, which is rather weird, but hey that's life I suppose. You are, in my eyes, blessed to have Louise as your friend. She's just as lovely as you are and the pair of you are by far the most amazing people. I wish you all the best for 2013 and I hope that it starts out with a good bang rather than a bad bang.

    God bless you, Zoe!
    You are just.. AMAZING!

    Natalie xoxo

    Forgot to say how lovely the blog post was! Great! I loved reading it :) xoxo

  183. chocmon

    ive vowed to be a 'yes' girl this year, wish me luck 2moz im meeting friends i havent seen in years, no getting ready then backing out. Keep those exits covered girls!! Nothing bad will happen right

  184. love this post Zoe , hope 2013 is amazing for you xxxxx

  185. Zuu

    you are just awesome Zoella! I love your blog and also the channel on Youtube! Keep it up!

  186. This is such an amazing post zoe! I enjoy reading every single one of your posts but this one brought a tear to my eye.. You're truly inspirational & i hope your happiness continues throughout 2013 :) x

  187. Miglė

    Wow, that was so amazing to read. I admire you very very much and I would be very glad to have a friend as nice and beautiful and honest as you are. Have an amazing year! ♥

  188. Lina

    This was a very beautiful post! You are one of the most inspiring people I've ever seen, and I love your blog and vlogs. Hope you have a great year 2013! :)

  189. Hey you're right we all do start somewhere :) I have just checked out your blog its really good :)

    if you get a chance feel free to check mine out could do with some more followers: thatgirlisjess.blogspot.co.uk

    Jess x

  190. This is exactly what I'd like to do this year. Let go of what has been painful and embrace the good things in my life. I just got out of a relationship about a month ago that had turned sour and made me into someone I wasn't in order to make my boyfriend happy, when he didn't have feelings for me anymore anyway. Thank you for sharing about your year – it has really helped me feel hopeful for this upcoming year!

  191. Love this post ! you are so inspirational , i wish you all the best for 2013 !

    Liyana ♥

  192. I find that so amazing to look over and read and reading that all, it's like it doesn't matter that I haven't watched/read your blog for the whole of this year. Only for the few months that count and I read this and I know everything about you it's so lovely :) just recently started making a blog and every time I need help I re-watch the video you make with Louise on advice :) you're such a wonderful person and it's so good to see you have got more confident with anxiety and stuff :) x

  193. You had a amazing year zoe! your friendship with louise is so nice to see! x

  194. Zoe, you have now become without question my biggest inspiration, especially thanks to this blogpost! your honesty has given me so much respect for you!….i really hope 2013 brings you everything you wish for :) xxx

  195. This bought a tear to my eye! Beautiful post, really heart warming and inspirational that you managed to turn such a horrid year into such a beautiful one. All the best for 2013 Zoe :)

  196. You're so pretty Zoe! I wish you a Happy New Year! Loved this post :)

    xoxo, Adela

  197. Ellie

    Your photography is always so flawless. This is such an amazing post. I hope 2013 is filled with good memories right from the beginning this time. Thank you for sharing your year with us.
    x x

  198. Frances

    Hope this year is as good as the second half of last year

  199. Holly

    You are such an amazing and beautiful person Zoe, surrounded by such amazing and beautiful people :) I hope 2013 is fabulous for you! Lots of love xxx

  200. Aimée

    This is such a lovely post! I hope 2013 is as happy for you as the end of 2012 was :)

    Aimée xx

  201. Hayley

    Glad to hear that you were able to turn a bad year into a good one! I love all of these photos, you look so happy in all of them x

  202. gemma

    Happy New Year Zoe. who would have ever guessed a beautiful young person such as your self could suffer such a condition. Im glad you are well and truly on the up now though you are an inspiration too me.
    Gemma xxx

  203. Emmy

    Love this x

  204. Natalie

    happy new year

    im holding a GIVEAWAY on my blog if your interested.
    5 year Q&A journal


  205. This post is so sincere and genuine Zoe, you are such a massive role model to me and so many other girls, and I really hope your realise what massive impact you and the other lovely people like Louise have on so many of us! You really are such an inspiration and I think your amazing! Keep looking up! :) Love, Jo xxx


  206. Such a lovely blogpost Zoe!
    Happy New Year – hope 2013 is even better :)
    Saadiya x

  207. amazing post Zoe, hope 2013 started better and will be even better than last year and may you have an amazing time and hopefully share some amazing video's and blogs with us!

  208. So many posts recently and also so many people that I know including myself have had such an emotional year in 2012!
    But one thing that everyone has said is how much their family and friends have came through for them and the amazing support they have had. That's the one thing that we just need to take from last year.
    I completely understand about not knowing who you are anymore and trying to get your sparkle back, that's what I am using 2013 for! I hope you have a wonderful year and I look forward to your future fab blog posts Xx

  209. tiffany

    What a lovely post- i 100% know the feeling, trying to be perfect for someone and trying to make it work- its horrible!!! happy new year xxxx

  210. I am so glad I found your blog, I have found it so inspiring and your videos are so fun to watch! I hope 2013 turns out to be even better for you :)
    Maggie x

  211. This post legit made me cry. This is so sweet :-)

  212. This is beautiful Zoe, I reallly enjoyed reading this, I wish I could meet you all as I myself don't have many friends and you all seems so genuine and great to be around.

    true inspiration to me

    Clair xx


  213. Joelle

    It's great that you are in such a good place now and have lots of lovely people around you! All the best for 2013! :)

  214. Hey Zoella

    Just wanted to say that you're videos are allways one of my Sunday highlights.
    Love when you do a haul video or a vlog and I am more than happy to be your viewer Xx

    Cant wait to see what you have in store for us in 2013 :D

  215. This is such a beautiful, inspirational post – I've had a rough year and its always made me smile to see a post or video by you xo

  216. Hannah

    Good for you zoe – I've had a very similar year and am vowing myself to have a good 2013, I started a blog as a bit of a challenge to myself. Although I know I'll never be as successful as you and will no doubt delete it after a month haha!!
    Good luck for this year :))

  217. Loved this post and I love you as a person! You're one of my favorite Youtubers/Bloggers!

    Kisses & Hugs!:* >:D<

  218. This was so warming to read. You've inspired me to defeat any negativity in my life, this post really shows how much opportunities and good memories you can treasure just by stepping outside of your comfort zone. x

  219. Absolutely perfect post! Zoe you are my favourite person to watch on the internet ! xx

  220. Jackie

    i love you!

  221. I love your honesty and you in general! <3 have a great year!

  222. f-e-r-n

    this is such a lovely post :) i hope the WHOLE of 2013 is a great one for you, you're such an amazing person you definitely deserve it, happy new year!!! xxxxxxx

  223. Zoe, I commend you ohhh so much for this blog!
    Yes, I'm from California and the fact that I feel so connected to you and your stories, videos, blogs, is just so AMAZING!
    I'm positive 2013 will bring amazing things for you!

  224. Zoe, I commend you for everything you've done this last 2012 year.
    Though I'm from California, I feel so connected to you whether it is from your stories, blogs, & videos.
    I know 2013 has such AMAZING and WONDERFUL things ahead of you!
    Keep doing what you do, because the person that you are reaches out to so many people.

  225. in 2012 you and louise inspired me to make my own blog, so thanks! xxx

  226. Maria

    What a lovely post Zoe… I have truly, honestly loved watching your videos and reading your blog! You are definitely a keeper! ^_^

    thesuckerforfashion.blogspot.dk xx

  227. Zoe you actually so amazing,you seem like you have been through a lot but you have come through and seem quite confident, your inspire me so much, I've watched all of your videos and read all off your blogs. I hope you have a wonderful 2013. lots of love Emilia x x x x

  228. I feel very priviledged to be with you (in a way) through all that you have achieved so far. I would say my favorite part of 2012 is to have stumbled across your blog and youtube channel. You have truly inspired me to be happy and speak my mind. Because of your and Louise's encouragement I started my blog. It has helped so much to get away from the bad and just focus on the good things life has to offer me. I really want to move to England when I graduate university and hopefully I will get the chance to meet you someday.
    Seriously I can't thank you enough for everything. Love you lots.
    Live the life you love. Love the life you live.
    Elle :)

  229. Happy New year hope its a good one ! great post

  230. Lovely post Zoe, it is lovely that I remember all of these things that you showed to us on your Youtube channel and you are so lovely… I am so glad you had one of the best years of your life – you truly deserved it beautiful ! Lots of love

  231. wow! 265 comments.. just saying, i love you :) maybe you see :/

  232. The fact you took time to wrote your memories and share those lovely pictures with us means a lot and I want you to know that even if you can't talk with each one of your viewers ,we all care :) Hope you'll have a great year full of new amazing moments :)xxx

    Hope you have a min to check my blog

  233. Anya

    Zoe, you are absolutely my favourite blogger and I've only discovered you about 2 weeks ago. This blog post has really made me realize that you are just an average young lady with not so average looks! ;) Thank you for sharing so many personal things about your life, I'm so glad that you are getting better! I can't wait for all the amazing things I know that you'll bring out this year. And thank you for inspiring me to create my own blog! :)

  234. Amelia

    I've learned through blogging that it takes guts to be as honest and open as you've gotten with us this past year. But it's because of you opening up and sharing your stories that I've learned that I'm not so different, and I'm definitely not alone. After reading this post, I realize that we have very similar stories including a crummy start to the year, followed by an awesome finish. I just hope I can keep up with myself and my expectations for the rest of the year! But if New Year's Eve/Day can act as a gauge for how well the rest of the year is going to shape up, then I'm in for a pretty epic year. :) I've started saying yes to things, and it feels like the biggest accomplishment I've ever made in my life. You were right, all it takes is a word to turn your life around (sort of).

    Thank you, Zoe! :)

  235. Miri_X

    What a great post, thoroughly enjoyed reading it :) xx

  236. You are such a gorgeous and inspirational person Zoe, and it sounds like you had an amazing 2012! I wish you all the best for 2013 and all it has to offer :) x

  237. Love your blog sooo much!



  238. please check out my blog: papillonamour.blogspot.co.uk I'm new to it and would like people to view it :)
    thank you

  239. I really enjoyed reading this Zoe. You really are a breath of fresh air and you must be ridiculously proud of your achievements. Maybe I'll bump into you next time you're in Northampton visiting Louise :) x

  240. i can seriously relate to the worst and best year ever! i was in a horrible relationship but am now in a better place surrounded by amazing people. My year has also involved anxiety issues haha. amazing to read when my year was so similar, great post :) xxx

  241. I too struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. I was really comforted by your honest blog post on the subject (and later the video). My panic triggers are very similar to yours and I felt so much better knowing that there was another girl, my age, who had difficulties too, but who I felt was delightful, beautiful and fun. I have had a bumpy year but am deciding to focus on positives in 2013 and just have fun. I hope you have a wonderful year and thanks!

  242. Happy New Year Zoe! Beautiful words and pictures!

  243. cardiac


  244. Rebecca

    aw great post! I'm happy you had an amazing year and I'm happy I found you this year! :)
    Rebecca @ trbcca.blogspot.com

  245. Dear Zoe,

    First of all, you have my best friend's name! For that reason only I liked you instantly :D Second, you are beautiful and you have a beautiful soul.

    Don't ever give up what you're doing because you're doing it so well!
    Your humour, positive attitude and beauty are inspiring hundreds of young girls (and one…not so young – me, lol) and your videos have been cheering me up so much (I've sent you a YouTube message with my Fave Gurus video – did you get it?)

    I will agree that Louise is one amazing lady and your videos together are hilarious and truly make my day!

    Happy New Year, sweet Zoe and a mean really Happy…!
    Like happy-happy with a cherry on top, because you deserve it!


  246. Chloe

    It's amazing what a year can do to your life! bad or good
    i really loved this post Zoe :) i remember what happened in August & its a shame because you come across as a really lovely & genuiene person :)

    thank you for being the best person you can be, your an inspiration :)
    xxx <3

  247. Aya

    Such a lovely post, Happy New Year Zoe :) xx


  248. Zoe, you are truly amazing. I have only been following your videos and blogs for about a month now but I absolutely am in love. Thank you so much for uploading the anxiety video – I have dealt with underlying anxiety for 2 years and it brought upon something very serious. But now I am all better now and it just feels nice to know that there is someone else out there who deals with the same stuff. I hope that 2013 is an even better year for you! You really really inspire me! x

  249. Jessi

    Thanks for the inspiration Zoe! I recently started following your blog and youtube channel and it's great to see how much you've overcome and enjoyed this last year!

  250. These memories are all so lovely, Glad you got out of the dark place and got your spark back :) I've been reading your blog for years and your posts are inspirational and helpful. I've jut started watching your videos and they're so fun to watch, your already one of my favourite youtubers. i know there's no way you'll be able to reply to the mahoosive amount of messages on this post but I really hope you get to read them all so you start 2013 in a way better place than 2012 and you know that there are lots of people supporting you :) hope you keep making videos and blogging this year :) x

  251. i love how funny and down to earth you are!
    glad you've had a great 2012 and i hope you have another amazing year :) xx


  252. happy new year nice to hear your doing better :-) xx

  253. This was such a wonderful post to read, to see the journey you've been on since all the bad stuff you've had to deal with and its lovely to hear that you had so much support throughout it too! :) I think your blog is fantastic and I love reading it and hope to see more of your posts in 2013 :D xx

  254. Awwh Zoe, This is such a lovely, Heartwarming post. <3

  255. Ellie

    Beautiful post Zoe!! Happy New year!

  256. Anna

    This was such a lovely inspiring post! I'm glad you managed to turn your life around in the second part of the year, and I hope 2013 is even better for you! :)

    Anna xx a-hint-of-glitter.blogspot.co.uk

  257. Hi Zoe! Well, I also cheated when starting my year instead of january 2013 but december of 2012. But you know? We decide when to start over again whenever we want, if we are struggling and we were feeling down you can always start afresh at any time. Like I said, we are the one to decide how to lead our life. So its not really cheating, if you get my idea. We must live a life looking at the PROBABILITIES not at the WRONG things. Always smile even if one is experiencing a tough time. Always remember that for a reason it happens. It is Gods will. Its the journey each human being has to take to learn something, and it is up to us on how we take it. I have seen people smile and smile a lot, but thats because they have learnt how to live and enjoy life no matter how hard the things are. // I am glad and feel happy for you! ♥ A smile is a blessing. If you make someone smile is a blessing too. God Bless.

  258. This was so beautifully written. Keep it up Zoe! I love your videos and blog posts. You've inspired me :) youtube.com/sarah2america

  259. Love this post Zoe, really inspirational how you turned your year around and made so many great memories. you will forever be one of my favorite people and as cheesy as it may sound you truly are an inspiration to me. Hope you make many amazing memories in 2013!!


  260. Milex

    How wonderful again

  261. Zoe!
    I started watching your videos in March or April of 2012 and from you I expanded to Louise, Fleur, Alfie, Marcus, Sam, Mazz, Jack&Finn, and Kimmi.
    Anyways I think your videos are amazing and I really enjoy reading your blog as well, I look forward to watching or reading your things. I showed my cousin one of your videos and I think I got her hooked as well with yours and Louise's videos.
    You are a true inspiration and I wish you nothing but the best in 2013!!
    Lots of love from Canada!

  262. "that consumed me and took control over many aspects of my life.to be perfect for someone who didn't care about me"

    In those two sentences you summarized everything what I am feeling right now. I am in the same miserable situation as you were, I am very poorly, depressed and alone and this since 5 months.
    Reading that you made it through this time gives me hope that someday I can smile again.
    Thanks for this intimate blogpost about true friendship, love, family and heartbreaks.
    Lots of love x

  263. Trishhh

    2012 has certainly been fast! happy new year! :)


  264. I spent my time reading this carefully even I didn't 100% understand English.
    But Zoe ! You're really awesome, those memories just really touched.
    I wish you another great year!xoxo

  265. Penny B

    I absolutely love you for who you are as a person. You have inspired me to many things such as starting a blog or showing different sides of me to others. You are a great inspiration for everyone and I love you for that. Please don't ever stop doing what you do for someone else! :)

  266. Zoe, all I can say is that you are such an inspiration, and though I don't know you, I am really proud that you were able to pull out of your slump. Bravo to your amazing family and friends for helping you cope during such a hard time in your life. I'm sure I speak for mostly everyone here when I say that you will always have our support as well. When this year is over, I hope that you can say it was the best of your life with confidence, so you can forget about saying how 2012 was your best AND worst. :D Keep smiling!


  267. Tegan

    Wow. This was amazing to read! Beautiful post xx

  268. Kayti


    Your blog is probably one of a handful of blogs that I actually read – every single post all the way through. I can really relate to a lot of the things you talk about and suffering from anxiety myself, I'm trying really hard to say "yes" to more things in 2013. Anyway, thank you for writing – I look forward to every post.



  269. Such an honest post thanks for sharing :)
    I hope 2013 is a great year for you Zoe!


  270. Al

    i remember finding your blog in second year of university and now i have graduated
    and i genuinely feel like i know you
    i am so happy for you and that you are back to the old zoe
    as a viewer and follower of yours we can all see the change in you and it is so nice to see
    i really wish the best for you and hope that 2013 is great the whole year round and not just august on, you deserve it!
    cant wait to see the adventures you bring us along on, happy new year zoe!

  271. You are too awesome. No word can really explain how awesome and beautiful you really are. Love you zoe!

  272. I didn't expect this post actually brought tears to my eyes but it really did when I was reading about your feeling towards Louise. I wish I had a friend like her, she must means a lot to you. That kind of friendship is not the kind anyone can get, but it's the most amazing one once you've gotten. I like how you are being positive about your situation, and you inspires me a lot. I get panic attacks too but I've been refusing to take medicines. I know what the biggest stress maker is (my work) but I cannot leave as I need a stable income. I'd been feeling that leaving what I don't like is not a good thing and I have to face the reality and get stronger, but by reading your post I'm changing my mind kind of. Anyway thank you for sharing your thoughts. Love your videos and blog posts so much!

    The Beauty Maniac in Tokyo

  273. danique

    What a lovely blogpost, you are a real inspiration I an hoping 2013 will even be better.I love your chummy and baby glitter a well btw.

  274. Almeida

    You've had an amazing year! I hope 2013 turns out to be just as good, if not better. Happy new year Zoe! :)


  275. Elena

    just a lovely post zoe. you are such an ispiration. i'm a fairly new follower/subscriber but you are by far my favourite person on the internet. i hope 2013 will be as wonderful as your 2012 (started in august) was. you and louise are such cheerful ladies and i love you both together and all the best that you guys will have each others company your whole life.

  276. I've watched you on youtube for so long that I feel like I know you, haha. Everything you said you did I was like 'yep, I remember that vlog!'. You and louise are my favourite people on youtube/blogisphere, and I hope you stay the best of friends! Hope you're Ok x



  277. Lovely post. I totally get what you mean about having the best AND worst year of your life, mine has been a bit of a year of extremes. I'm going to Reading this year, can't wait! Happy 2013 xx

  278. great post and I love ur viedos and blog!
    Feel free to visit my channel, I think that Joe would like my (ok, my boyfriend's) second outfit :)

  279. I like you Zoe was in a very negative relationship for the first part of this year, and even though as you said you didn't want to go into mammoth detail, I admire that you had the courage to speak about it openly on this incredibly widely read blog. You are an inspiration.

    Happy 2013!


  280. Hello Zoe :)
    I am following your blog for a while as my favourite in my library of blogs but I realised I don't joined. so I did it today. But I read every post since August 2012 just like you started your blog post above.
    I read on twitter that somebody had tears after reading this. well in some moments I had too. And since I read your blog and sub. your channel on YouTube I feel different because of that. Of course I have my own problems sometimes but by watching videos and hearing what you have to say I feel like I can do those things I couldn't do before. So I'm glad I find your channel. I don't know how but twice in Dec. I had a dream when I was spent time with You, Joe, Louise, Alfie, Marcus….something unavelieble (sorry about my grammar..english is not my mother language but I still learning ;-) ) Anyway I want to say, you are beautiful inside and outside, I wish you all best in 2013. Love you xx :) (Greetings from Poland)

  281. Hello Zoe,
    Thank you for sharing your year with us. You changed this year around after the difficult start you have and I think everyone appreciates the fact that you have shared it with us. I also found your channel this year and I love it! This is a great collection of memories and a great end to the year for you! xx

  282. Amazing post Zoe! Really appreciate your honesty and I loved all the pictures you posted! Keep it up and remember, you're not alone! xo

  283. happy new year zoe:) I love your blog, its very inspiring and your pctures are cute:) ♥

  284. Happy new year zoe:) I love your post and blog, its very inspiring and your pictures are cute ;)

  285. K

    That's amazing Zoe you've had a hard time but came out on the better side of it, you are a strong person and it sure shows break-ups are hard and to try and get back to the way you were is a hard process you can never rush it but you've done it and hopefully it has made you feel better. I hope 2013 is better for you and you speak highly of Louise (I love her blogs/YouTube too) and hopefully your friendship can only grow more stronger.


  286. Dear Zoe,

    You are such a beautiful person inside and out.
    I wish all the best to you!

    With love from Estonia,
    Kai Liis

  287. Lixius

    the photo of you and baby glitter is soooo freaking gorgeous!!

    xx, Lixius

  288. Congratulations on such a successful year Zoe, your videos and beautiful photography are a real inspiration xxx

  289. Wow, what a great post! So unlifting and heartwarming. Happy new year Zoe! :)x

  290. Sarah

    Lovely post! I hope 2013 can be as great for you as the second part of 2012 was! Enjoy your life, make lots of memories and be happy! :) x

  291. Emma

    Such an amazing post – you're an inspiration Zoe! I hope you have a wonderful 2013 :)


  292. You inspire me and my chummy to carry on doing youtube vidoes and keep blogging I have just come out of a relationship and it was the hardest point of 2012 thanks fully my friend were with me as well as all your blog posts and vidoes when i watch you and Louise doing many vidoes together it reminds me of the most amazing friendship in the world you are a beautiful amazing woman keep on doing the things you love girl and keep making people happy thanks for being in the world love u xxx !!!!!!

  293. Your Year sounds like its been a busy one. Lets hope you have a brillant year this year.
    Happy new year..


  294. I've had a post like this in my draft for days and I'd forgot to post it so seeing this reminded me, thanks haha!
    I loved reading through it and you actually inspired me to make my blog in the first place so thanks for that as well:)
    Happy New Year, hope it's a good year for you! x

  295. So happy for you Zoe, 2012 was an awful year for me, I'm glad to see the back of it, but I'm hoping to make the most of this year. x

  296. Rebecca

    So glad to know that you're in a better place now!! I love watching you and Louise on Youtube. You really brighten my day when I watch one of your vids!! :)

  297. Lovely post, pictures and memories of 2012, best of luck for 2013 I know your blog and channel will just grow even more!

    HannahMay xo

  298. Nice … My years been good and bad. It makes me feel great reading your posts, thanks :)

    xx Have a visit at zozeebo.blogspot.co.uk

  299. I know I don't know you personally Zoe, but I can honestly say that I am so SO proud of you and what you've managed. I've had an anxiety disorder since I was 4 years old, and I'm on a very up and down journey right now after a very tough few years.
    As you know, sometimes it's so difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel… But seeing you go through such a difficult journey and achieving all you have in the last few months has given me so much hope you don't even understand. I really wish I knew you personally so I could thank you properly. You're the reason I started Blogging (something I LOVE), you're the reason i'm so determined to beat my anxiety, and you deserve all the happiness in the world.

    Lots of love, I hope 2013 will be an amazing year for you.

    Leanne xx

  300. I've seen all these tweets about this blog posts, people saying that they shed tears while reading it so I decided to enter this site and read it as well :) And all I can say right now is that I also had tears in my eyes while reading it, watching all these lovely photos… Beginning of these year was also kinda shitty for me, I broke up with my boyfriend and so loads of great people turn their backs to me. I felt alone and guilty even though I did the thing that needed to be done. But thanks to that I realised that some people actually stayed. And even though I knew that I've had friends in them already thanks to that situation in my life I appreciated them more. I believe that everything in life happens for a reason and that we just have to learn from our mistakes. I am really happy that everything turn out well for you eventually. You deserve to be happy and I am really liking the fact that you are surrounded with so many great people in your life. I know it may sound a bit like a total cliche but you REALLY are an ispiration to me. I'm glad that I have found your youtube channel and because of that I have found channels of your friends who are always making me smile. You're all great. I wish you very happy new year. Take care of yourself.

  301. Hello! Zoe, I really look up to you as a person. And although I don't technically know you, your videos and blogposts have really helped me. They put a smile on my face and have got me through some hard times. This blog post is such a lovely round up of your year and so uplifting. To read about how you struggled through hard times and came out the other end with a smile on your face makes me so happy! Reading this has made me think about my year and really cherish the good moments and put the bad moments behind me. It's also made me think about my closest friends and how lucky I am to have such amazing friends! Thank you again Zoe and although you don't know me, your blog posts and youtube videos have made such an impact as I know they have for many others as well!

  302. I think my favourite memory of this year, was discovering you, Louise, Fleur, Sammi, and just about all those British Youtubers and Bloggers, at almost exactly this time last year. I've loved watching you guys throughout the year, and you inspired me to set my own blog up in late 2012, and even start a channel on Youtube! Its an enormous achievement you've made, having all your followers and subscribers who adore you, and its my dream to one day have the same success as you've had! I'd be honoured if any one of your subscribers checked out my blog – http://littlegothgirlblog.blogspot.co.uk/ – and I really just wanted to say thank you for brightening, and beautifying my year!
    Happy 2013! <3

  303. awwww you're so so so so sobeautifull

  304. is darcy louise's daughter? i am so happy for your friendship! it's indeed something to cherish.

    ps happy new year xxxx

  305. Wow you've had a busy year! Glad to see you're feeling better about things now :) x

  306. Aww, this whole post brough a smile to my face. :) You have come a long way, you deserve to be proud! x

  307. Your video on having panic attacks really helped me. I havent suffered from panic attacks but i am prone to anxiety and watching your video made me realize that i have let it control my life up till now, so i've done some new things, and even made a blog. And thats all down to you, so i would like to say thank you

  308. lizzo

    Such a lovely post, it sounds like you had such a lovely year. (well, from August.)

    It'll be lovely one day to look back on all of these memories *getting cheeeesy!*

    love, lizzo xxx


  309. Such a lovely post Zoe!It was so nice to meet you at Summer in the City in the summer too :) Catherine xox

  310. Happy New Year Zoe! I never say things like this, but you really do inspire me, you just seem so happy :)
    I hope your 2013 goes even better! x


  311. I've been reading your blog from the start and I love it. I love how honest you are about your anxiety, it's very inspiring and I'm so glad you've got your spark back! :)

  312. I have never felt so close to you before, Zoe. Thank you for sharing your year and congrats for being brave! Sucks that I don't get to hear you talk about your problems and your best moments personally though. I am now a blog post stronger than yesterday. thank you, zoe and I love you. From the bottom of my heart. ♥

  313. this post is so beautiful, you are such an inspiration, hope you have a brilliant 2013, you deserve it!:-) x


  314. i loved this zoe! it reminded me how much i love your blog,videos and personality(cheese!) i'd love to be like you in years to come your such a inspiration especially your blog that inspired me to write mine! xxxx

  315. happy new year zoe!! I love the post and your blog, its so inspiring:))

  316. your such a beautiful and kind person zoe! i love your blog and videos! and wish you the best 2013 ever!


  317. You're blog has been such a great inspiration to me. I've had a bit of a hard year, dealing with issues very similar to your own, and your posts have been massively helpful/entertaining/encouraging/generally wonderful.
    You've encouraged me to do things that I never thought I'd have the guts to do, so you can feel proud that you have helped to improve one life here, and I'm sure many others around the world.
    Much love to you classy lady, and good luck in the new year. Keep being brilliant.
    Jess x

  318. This is a really heart warming post! I'm glad that you are being the best Zoe that you can be and that you are happy because that's all that truly matters!

  319. Zoe you should be so proud of yourself and really am going to take on what you said about surrounding yourself with people that make you happy. You can see that your friendship with Louise and little miss Darcy is so strong that it is like super glue that can'e be broken. You have come such a long way you can see this with the way you approach us youtube you can see that you are finding yourself again as you begin to do more independent videos by yourself and not with other people however your collabs with the Louise where very nice to watch. You have inspired me to say yes to so many opportunities and you should be so proud of yourself and acknowledge the positive affect you have on people look at all the comments above and the reaction to your anxiety video which I really enjoyed watching. I can't wait to see what you have in store for your blog and youtube this 2013.

    Well done Zoe Rianna (16)

  320. You are very inspiring, Zoe! hope you had a great year :)
    wish you the best for 2013 :) xx

    Lots of love from Norway!

  321. I really loved this Zoe. I watched your anxiety video a few months ago and it has really inspired many people. Your relationship with Darcy is so cute!xx

  322. that was amazing Zoe! it literally brought tears to my eyes. you are such an inspiration and i know it was probably so hard for you to post the anxiety video and other things such as some things on this post, etc. but I completely respect that. you are such a role model and your doing amazing. your videos and blogs are always something to look forward too. theres always a light at the end of the tunnel and you just have to look for it and wait it out.
    thank you so much for the inspirations, tips, and just being helpful and a role model. i respect you 100% it would be such an honor to meet you someday. i really hope i get the chance to. im just so happy of your accomplishments and im so proud of all the things you've over come and faced the previous year. i hope you strive and make 2013 is even more spectacular. thank you for all the advice. your an amazing person dont you forget that.
    lots of love,
    Brianna <3 xx @briannapalozzi

  323. This is lovely! :') We can really tell from your videos how happy you are now; I'm so proud to see you smiling and laughing with all the new people you've met, it creates such a nice atmosphere for us viewers to be in when watching your videos. Things can only get better Zoe, keep doing what you're doing :) xxx

  324. I can relate to parts of this post and from reading the comments it looks like a lot of other people can too! Good to hear that you've been able to turn around something negative and make it positive.

    Hope you're 2013 is a cracking year for you!


  325. Great post! xx

  326. This is so lovely. I wish you all the best for 2013 Zoe!
    I would love it if you could check out my blog? I'm kind of new to this whole thing, so it would mean a lot :) Thanks!x


  327. Ive had a tough year too and now beginning to get out of it! Im so glad you had a good year from August on wards and got out of that awful relationship! You seem like such a great person and Im glad youre experiencing more fun, everyone looks gorgeous and the photos are amazing



  328. You've done an incredible amount of stuff this year, you should be soooo proud of yourself! Bet your gonna have an even better year ahead of you, and we will all be right behind you all along the way :)<3


    ^Please check out my blog as i am new

    -iona xox

  329. I'm so glad that you were able to pick yourself back up with the help of amazing friends. It looks like you had such a wonderful time the last few months. I don't suffer from anxiety, but I found your video both inspiring and informative. Inspiring because it goes to show that you CAN defeat whatever struggle you're going through, and informative because I have a friend with anxiety who gets panic attacks and I'm glad I have more insight on that now. Thanks for making the video, Zoe, and I hope you have a lovely 2013. :)

  330. Celeste

    This post really inspired me. I've been following you for now a few month and from the beginning, you have been a amazing inspiration. I've learned to appreciate things for what they are and I have become grateful for what I have. Thank you so much !

  331. Wow, Zoe ! I don't even know where to begin… I know this may sound cheesy, but you have been a big inspiration for me ever since you started your blog (proud to say I actually stumbled across your blog the day you wrote your first post :)). Your video about anxiety has made me see the light . After years and years of not knowing what was "wrong" with me, I recognised every single symptom you mentioned. Your video has helped me out a lot, Zoe . I can't thank you enough for filming that video , it has truly changed my life .
    A very happy new year , Zoe! may 2013 be even better than the end of 2012!!!

  332. You are a gorgeous writer Zoe. With every post I read, I feel like I'm reading a book. You're such a beautiful person, inside and out. An inspiration.
    Lizzie x

  333. Becca

    Happy New Year Zoe, the picture of Baby Glitter and Louise is the cutest thing ever! I am so glad I found your blog in 2012 because it inspired me to create mine and I have so much fun with it, Thankyou Zoe!!


  334. You are amazing and so inspirational :)

  335. you are an inspiration zoe! I made my first youtube video this year of an OOTD! please check it out on my blog


  336. I love this! I wish you all the best for 2013 Zoe :)
    I would love it if you could check out my blog? I'm kind of new to this whole blogging thing, so it would mean a lot if you had a look! Thanks x


  337. I really like your blog and youtube channel! Beautiful inside and out! <3

  338. What a year for you :)

  339. Bekah

    Thank you so much for sharing all of this with us. You are a great inspiration!!

  340. Amazing post Zoe, so so glad you're feeling much better now and in a better place. I suffer with panic attacks and anxiety too.. the end of 2012 was a real turn around for me. I managed to travel to London for an interview (just the thought terrified me) and got a job working for a travel company meaning I will be working in Greece this year! I'm determined to not let the anxiety beat me! Roll on 2013 :D xxx

  341. Anon

    I read a lot blogs, and watch a lot of youtube videos, but I literally have never commented on anything I've seen. I felt compelled to comment on this post, because I know EXACTLY what you mean about a toxic relationship. It wasn't until I became happy that I realised how unhappy I'd been the entire time.
    I know what it feels like to have almost lost yourself and the relief you feel when you get free, and I just wanted to say this to you, because I think it's easy to say the things you said here to people but I don't think it really resonates with someone unless they have been through it too. When I read this post, my stomach turned at the thought of how you must have felt during this time, because I felt it too.
    Anyway, my year began in July and was great from then on.
    Here's to 2013 :)

  342. Beautiful post, really glad your year turned around, and want to thank you for your video on anxiety. It really helped me, and inspired me to start writing myself :) happy new year x

  343. Gosh zoe I just love everything about you you're blog posts, youtube channel, your vlogs, and your tweets, you just seem like such a lovely person, and would be an amazing friend-Michael737

  344. Anusha

    Happy New Year Zoe. I found your blog in 2012 and I am totally obsessed.

    ♥ Anusha

  345. Leah

    You are such an inspiration! This post was amazing, all the best for the new year =)

  346. woo 2013! Happy New Year :)

  347. Hi Zoe, I'm so happy for you! You're such a beautiful person inside out and I hope you can be happy this year :)

  348. Such an inspirational flashback. Move forward Zoella!

  349. Char!

    This was such a beautiful post, you are such an inspiration zoe! x

  350. Amy.

    Beautiful and honest blog post Zoe :)
    i too had one of the best and worst years of my life and after reading this, it's reall inspired me and brought a smile to my face and tear to my eye, i hope 2013 is all you hope and wish for, because you seem like an amazing person and you deserve it! x

  351. This is such a moving post. You are a huge inspiration to me, especially that I have decided to such my own blog. I hope you have a lovely 2013! :)


  352. Floz

    Really really identified with this post, if that makes sense! It looks like you and I both came out of relationships at the same time and I felt the exact same as you described. So good to see you've come out of it alive and well! Here's to a better year!

    Floz xo

  353. What a beautiful post Zoe! It's amazing how you fit a whole year of changes and new experiences in a single blogpost! I had a constant smile on my face after baby glitter's photo popped up,! Happy New Year!

  354. Megan G

    Great post, really enjoyed reading it :)


  355. I loved this lovely long post. I'm sorry not all of your year was too happy but I'm glad it got better and you made some great friends. I love watching your videos and reading your blog and look forward to seeing what is to come in 2013.


  356. It's great how you just open up to people who read your blog. This year, your anxiety video has helped me a lot too and i'm glad i discovered your blog.
    I love Darcy so much haha she's like the little baby of the Youtube community! You're not the only one with a melting heart!
    Also I love how you describe Louise, she is such a lovely person and her videos make me smile or help me everytime but reading all of this about her and your friendship with her is just so amazing! x


  357. That was a lovely post, just started blogging myself and love the way you write, it's given me thought as to how I want to write. I also love watching you on YouTube. I wish you all the best for this year and hope the whole year is just as amazing as the second part of last year! x


  358. Anon


  359. Live in the south west?! Dittoooo.

    Zoe, you have come so far, you have no idea how much your vlogging/videos mean to us. You're a completely down to earth women who shares her thoughts, and life with people you don't know but help them out so much! I wish girls would be more like you, you are one of a kind! I hope I can be as successful as you are on YT someday.

    You're just brilliant x

  360. GlamGem

    so full of positive energy… :) makes my day every time i c your videos or read your blog. You're such an inspiration.

  361. Yaz Xxo

    Such a positive mindset, very inspiring .xX

  362. You are just so adorable! And that baby is, too! :) Lovely way to look back at 2012. :)

  363. wow what a great post! full of amazing photos, you are really good at photography zoe! what camera do you use? could you do a bblog post on just (generally) taking photos would love to read about it! Looks like you had a great year! happy new year! You were the inspiration to my blog an dI wld love it som much if you cld check mine out, if you have a spare minute. thanks!! Found you this year and you are amazing! keep up the good blogging!

  364. Elise

    Zoe, you really are such a nice and genuine person!
    I really look up to you on the way you have been approaching life.. just to go for it and face your fears.. something that I tend to avoid.
    I wish you a wonderful 2013 full of hapiness and joy! And may you continue making great blogposts and videos!

  365. Sarah

    Love the post! Happy New Year :) x

  366. your year just looks sooooo amazing !

  367. I sounds, and looks, like you have had an amazing year! You have come so far and it's great that you have found your feet and are happier now :) xx

  368. You're such a sweetheart and such an inspiration. Continue doing what your doing, we all love you for it :)


  369. Zoe

    i've not seen you talk about your relationship before, i don't even know if you have but i think i've come out of exactly the same situation in the past month. when you're with someone for so long you just want it to work when really it isn't right, i spent so much of my time panicking and anxious and now i'm out of it and it hurts but i feel so much better. i am my own person again and i can do whatever i want without having to worry if i'm being good enough. you make me smile and make me realise that actually there are people like me out there that are experiencing similar things and it will be ok :) thank you for being so lovely you always bring a smile to my face :) and now i feel like a weirdo for saying this but i think you deserve to smile cause you make so many other people smile :) i hope you have a fantastic 2013 you do a lot for so many people who you don't even know, thank you :) x

  370. What an inspiration, always have been to me since the beginning!

    Theres my link if you would like to check my blog out, I am a beginner and you and the gang inspire me so much! (Louise, Fleur, Joe, Marcus, Tanya, Jim, Alfie and everyone else!) Would love some feedback

    Elle xxx

  371. Lola

    I've been following your blog for a while now, and this post has really hit me straight in the heart and brought a tear to my eye. I too came out of a toxic relationship this year after months and months of suffering majorly with depression, so on a certain level from the surface things you've mentioned I can completely relate. I thought breaking up was the worst thing that could happen… until it did. And now I'll never look back! Boys suck sometimes, as we both know, but you're a beautiful girl and I'm sure you will meet someone in the future that doesn't take any of that beautifulness away, ever :)

    All the best for 2013! xxx

  372. Happy new year Zoe! Your experience of 2012 was so similar to mine its actually scary lol. The way you described it as the best and worst year of your life was spot on. Hope 2013 is everything you wish it to be and more. Love your youtube and blog :) xxx

  373. Rose

    I can relate to you so much Zoe (and I can see from the comment a lot of us feel the same way). Your video on dealing with anxiety was probably the best video I watched on youtube this year.

    All the best for 2013 :) xx


  374. This is such a beautiful post. So many memories good and bad. Your video of dealing with panic attacks and anxiety has helped me so much. Because I shut myself off from the world and wouldn't deal with life at all I lost a few friends! However your video has showed me that I should live my life to the full and not to care what people think, if they are willing to leave me just because of something major that was making me feel like complete crap they aren't worth any of my time.

    I'd also like to add that I've recently come across your blog/youtube channel and have fallen in love with you and your awesome personality. You are beautiful and so funny.

    I wish you the best 2013 and look forward to more posts and channels soon! Have a fantastic year.

    Lots of Love Fleur

    PS. Those of you interested in lush/music/movies/holiday reviews anything then please check out my blog. I write about anything and everything so if you don't want a theme related blog check it out :) look forward to chatting to you all and making new friends in the blogging world. I have literally just started a couple nights ago so not much on there, but still worth reading. Especially if you love lush! :)


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  376. Ohana

    You're such an excellent writer and your photos are incredible and I really enjoyed reading your blog :)

  377. Lovely post Zoe:)! I say this basically every time I write a comment but you are SUCH an inspiration! I am so glad I started watched your videos a few years ago and I am glad I have read your blog because you always make me feel happier, I hope this year is the best ever for you! lots of love xxxxx

  378. This is really inspiring for the new year! Your photography skills are so good and the photos of all of you are so cute:)

  379. glad everythings going well for you now, i've just come out of what you may call a bad /unhappy kinda relationship and i know exactly how you felt reading that has made me feel like im not on my own and that everything will be okay soon i just need to breathe and actually have fun.



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  381. Vivian

    You have no idea how much you have inspired me, with this blog, I have some of the same issues as you still going on this year, like my relationship. I will definitely do something about it, because of you, I want to feel happy, and alive like you are now, and find myself again.
    Thanks Zoe.

  382. lulu

    zoe,you have been an inspirantion for me during this time,so i have decided to start a blog on my own…i don't force you to go and watch it,but it will be a pleasure(i have only post one thing) http://lulu-things.blogspot.ro/

  383. It's hard to believe how hard the begginning of the year was for you but I am so glad you managed to smile throughout it all! I was having a bit of a hard time too but always retreated back to your youtube as a little pick me up. And even though you've only just turned me into an avid blog obsessee, I'm addicted and have litterally spent so much the last month getting to know you on here! I'm glad 2012 turned out to be such a turn around year, you've always been a bubbly comfort but you can really tell that youre happy now and the relationships you have with Louise and Joe really give my heart a little warm!

    I look forward to following your journey in 2013, it looks like things are only getting better :) xxx

  384. Sanjana

    The baby is beyond adorable.

    Love from New York

  385. This is such a great post Zoe. I'm glad the year turned around for you and got a lot better mid-year. :) Hopefully lots more good memories will be made in 2013!


  386. Please tell me that ones blogger therapy is over? I am checking everyday to see if you have written a new blog…..no pressure or anything!!!! To be honest, I have a blog and sometimes a get the same feeling. However, I'm rooting for ya, as other 1000's are too! So come on gal, get your laptop out and tap, tap away! Oh and if you have time, check out my blog too….pwease!!!! xxx


  387. Cait

    Its so nice to read a post like this! I can totally understand how a year can be your best and worst at the same time! 2011 was that for me but it gives you an amazing opportunity to seize your life back :) xxx

  388. Zoe, it is so amazing that you have recognized your achievements and are as proud of yourself as your viewers and readers are. I am glad that you and your friends (Louise especially) have realized how much you really help people and inspire them! I have been reading/watching your video's for years now and you have evolved and grown so much! It's beautiful! For now I wish you all the best in 2013 and thank you so much for all of your hard work through both the good times and bad. Bek x

  389. Milla

    really like your blog! great work!
    xoxo milla

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  391. Happy New Year from your newest follower! Reading about your year was almost like reading my diary! I got out of a toxic relationship too earlier this year and it wasn't until August that I really started feeling like myself again. I'm glad I found your blog and I'm interested in seeing what you have to write about this year :)

  392. Bubby

    Love this! Had so many special moments in 2012 too! Love your videos always anticipating how great your next one will be hahaha
    Just wondering where do you get inspiration from for your blogs and do you plan each one before you type? I'm just starting out and finding it hard to write as much good quality as I would like too :( Any tips? xxx


  393. Wow i am loving your blog i have been subscribed to ur youtube vids for ages now you are so inspirational.I have just started my blog so hopefully look forward to hearing from u soon take care x

  394. great blog. Hope 2013 is a very happy year for you! Darcy looks so cute in these pictures! Anyway all the best !


  395. Yaz Xxo

    Love the idea ! It's like your life in pictures :)



  396. Aisling

    youre such a good role model, Zoe.
    this post made me cry, haha. it must be so comforting for people going through the same things as you to be able to read your blog and see that dispite and probably because of your panicking and anxiety youve made an utter success of yourself!!

    i dont mean to be cheeky but I'd love if you could check out my blog
    have a nice day xxx

  397. Hannah

    Zoe, you're an amazing woman, and I'm so glad you share your life with your readers and viewers. This was a lovely post, and I'm glad you experienced such progress and success this year. May 2013 be even better!

  398. Aw this is really lovely!
    Hope 2013 brings you good opportunities!
    would be amazing if you could check out my new blog, i've only just started it!:)

  399. This is amazing Zoe, so proud of the journey you've been through this past year!

  400. It looks like you had an amazing year of 2012! I hope that you will have an even better year in 2013.
    You are so beautiful, Zoe :-)

  401. Christy

    Aw Happy New Year! This was so lovely to read, love xx

  402. Elsapie

    The first part of the post I felt like you were just telling my story. Even down to the month. I too came out of a toxic relationship, and suffered from anxiety however it's nice to see just like me, with the help of good friends and family that your back to yourself. It's always good to come out the other end :) x

  403. Karolin

    seems like a year full of fun and precious time :)

  404. I honestly don't think you could ever imagine just how inspiring you are, don't ever ever change Zoe x

  405. Zoe, you inspire me so much I can't even tell you! My 2012 was a rough year but I let the downs motivate me to do good instead of letting them pull me back in my steps. I also suffer with similar problems to you and have spent the past year and a bit fighting my way and becoming someone I never thought was possible…As far as crappy boys and relationships go Im on your boat but sailed the other way. I ended up getting twisted in his words but you've but a thought in my head and now I know what must get done for my own peace of mind!

    Thankyou for sharing, helping and inspiring. Ill be sure to make a post inspired by you very soon on mine and my over seas friends ( kaitlin ) new blog very soon!

    Brooke:-) xx

  406. I don't know if you get to see all of your comments, but I hope you do. I have to tell you that I made the mistake of reading this on the train whilst having a glass of wine, ok two, and now I am a sniffly, teary mess. It was so heart wrenching and uplifting all at the same time. You my dear are a gem. Truly one of my favourites. Thank you for sharing your words with us.

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  408. Gi

    Heyy Zoee! Just read this blog post and loved it! It was like I "lived" these moments with you just by reading your emotions! I really really love your youtube channel and just recently discovered your blog! You are a true inspiration! Guess where your newest fan/admirer/friend/viewer/reader/follower is from: Brazil!! Hahahaa how amazing is that? Anyway, lots of love, and I can't wait to tell you about my "yes" adventures!


  409. I love the maxi look in the first photo, so gorgeous and such a flattering look on you! x

  410. Seems like you had an amazing year in 2012 with Louise and the rest of the gang, but I've been a fan of yours for quite some time, and you seem to have done a lot more this year. Do you think you could do another '2013 flashback' so we can look back on your year as well? Thanks x

  411. Just wanted to quickly stop in & say that I've had a bit of a Zoella Blog binge.. reading back over VERY old blog posts & watching how you've grown since you started this blog! I watch your YouTube videos, but had never gotten into blogs much. I just felt like I needed to tell you that after reading up to this point (& this blog in particular), I feel extremely thankful towards you for putting your life out there.. I have read some things that very much resonate with me & your words have become an inspiration (you will probably never realise how much)! So THANKYOU! x

  412. Going back to all of your old blog posts and thinking how incredibly proud of you I am ^.^ xx

  413. natalie lawrence

    Oh, Zoe. I’ve been following you (not literally!) since you first started and I was quite young when I found you but over the years you’ve been my ‘friend’. This is going to sound incredibly weird, but I would have (and still do) conversations with you in my head. I most likely sound insane but I’ve gone through my life with no friends and suffering with anxiety (like you) it really made me want a friend who would be there for me. Unfortunately, I’ve never had that but you’ve been there for me online, even though you haven’t (?). I’m making no sense but I just want to say I think you’re great.

    Love from

    Natalie xx
    The unknown friend.