Zoella

Loved this! So proud of all your achievements! :) XX

Amylaurenxo.blogspot.co.uk

So excited to read this, I've missed you posting on your blog!
Serena xo

serenatalks.blogspot.co.uk

this is amazing <3

interesting post which i think speaks for how a lot of people probably feel! even as a viewer myself i found it overwhelming how much the youtube community has grown and it confuses me. i'm not gonna write a long post but i've been to meet ups and things (as i explained to you before – security at sitc seemed to tell US that you guys didnt want to meet us; obviously untrue) and it's really strange to see such crazy things, and well security just sometimes arent the best.
anyway, zoe, it's your hobby and like you said never intended for it to be a job. continue to do what YOU want and the ones who have your full support will support you no matter what :) it's really lovely to see your support grow and i hope you dont feel too uncomfortable with all this. it was lovely to meet you again last week and i love ya x

Zoe, this is beautiful! I'm so proud and I will try not to be someone who overwhelms you if I ever get to meet you!

Joely xxx

basically bonjour

You are an inspiration! ♥
Keep going, do what you do best xx

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We love you too! :)

Zoe, you are absolutely gorgeous and I am so proud of you. Opening up like this must have taken a lot of courage and I am so happy you decided to trust us enough to tell us how you really feel. I've often wondered about how overwhelming it can all be, and I see now that I was right in believing it was. Hopefully things get a little easier for you to handle in the future. <3 x

Love you zoe xxx

Zoe, we understand, we don't know you personally and never will but I think I can speak for many people in saying we'd feel the exact same. Thank you for all that you do x

This was brilliant and brave. I think it's important that the viewers are aware the camera doesn't show everything going on!

I loved it. I don't know the first thing you are going thru so I won't like and say I can relate. But I will say that I'm entertained by your videos and I will never run up to you screaming like a banchee. Vidcon is out of reach for me right now but maybe one day our paths will cross. Love, Loralie.

Loved reading this Zoe. I would be so overwhelmed too. Who wouldn't be? And I think we all understand and we can relate to you so much, because you are always honest and real with us. I'm so proud of you for sharing this, Zoe!
xo

I really like your blog and YouTube channel and i would love to meet you.But i don't think i am great in big cramped spaces. I am going to sitc and that will be my first time but i think i will probably see ore of the performances that trying to meet loads of people.
You inspired to start my blog,yours was the first one i ever read.

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Fiz xx

I'm hoping that you can come to summer in the city as this will be my first meet up AMD I've bribed my dad to take me and my 10 year old sister and best chummy to meet you as we are all big fans I go to brighton shops often but never bump into you that fact how I idolise you is that your a normal person but you have a special quality to you that you have anxiety and yet you come to these meet ups AMD try meet as many of us possible! I am going to stop myself crying as I want to look good in photos but when I grow up I will be able to say I looked up to you as a child I seem that security treat you almost to much of a celebrity and really restrict you yet you are exactly like, one of us! It's like you meeting one direction !
I love you from Zoe xx( my names Zoe hehe)

I like the fact that finally Louise and you, now, finally wrote o made a video about this topic.
The two of you talked about different things but I think they can match together.

I really like your videos, your friends and brother videos….
But it's really strange how lots of people cry for you and find you like a hero. You're normal, maybe you helped someone and that's amazing but call you idol, be crazy about it.
I just don't understand this.

Anyway, keep doing what you're doing if this make you happy. because at the end of the day that's the thing that matter.

love, Anna

I do feel as if (from what I see on your vlogs) that the reception at meetups is ridiculous, but I do also think it's kind of special! Youtube is the only 'Fandom' that gets this really and you don't act like celebritys and hide when you go out, you stop and take pictures and talk too us <3 I'm attending my first meet-up in the summer (summer in the city) and maybe when I go I might scream a bit quieter and remember that you are a real person :) So proud of you Zoe you're amazing <3 <3

This honestly made me cry and I don't really know why! Just that those words you have written are so well thought out and was heartwarming to read! Love you Zoe :) x

Brilliant post! It must be incredible for your whole life to change so quickly, and so scary as well! Keep up the good work, you'll always have people who support you, and the ones with the negative comments do not deserve to be heard!

Phoebe

http://thestylishbaker.blogspot.co.uk/

I really liked this Zoe. I don't really understand the Youtube culture thing right now either. I'm 17, subscribed to ALOT of youtubers who I really look forward to seeing new uploads from and also follow on Instagram, Twitter etc. but I can't see myself (right now anyway) ever wanting to go to a convention like the ones you've described. If I saw you walking down the street in Brighton I'd be so happy to go over and introduce myself to you! But I wouldn't take it any further. I really hope there aren't girls waiting outside your house and ringing your doorbell. I feel like this 'fan girl' generation don't know a limit – and how could they? We're the first generation to be this close to celebrity figures and it's all down to social media. It's not necessarily a bad thing – I just think it's time boundaries and rules were set in motion to stop girls and paparazzi and online trolls going crazy. On the bright side though Zoe, I'm so glad we have your presence in the world and I hope you'll continue to grace our screens for as long as Youtube stays relevant and maybe even longer! xoxo

I sometimes feel bad for some of you (youtubers) because some people don't respect your privacy and come out of your house and stuff like that. I know they are just trying to meet their favorite youtubers but Youtubers are people too and they need privacy. I hope you are ok now Zoe and that your anxiety will fade away with time.

Love this post Zoe, and the reason why I love and enjoy your videos is exactly that – you are a normal girl living an extraordinary life. I can relate to you on many levels and just think that if our paths were to ever cross we would get along and become friends. You make a lot of people happy through your blog posts/vlogs and that is great but always make sure to look after yourself as well :) Keep doing what you are doing, best of luck with everything and I will continue to follow a very friendly, kind and funny normal girl in her overwhelming World.
Love from a friend in Ireland :) x

Yay! Someone else going to SITC! :D

Aw Zoe I love how honest and open you are. I hope you enjoy the events planned. We're only human :) you're bound to have down days, don't force your self to do things but i'm so happy that you've been enjoying life by saying yes.
Thankyou for being inspiring and beautiful xxxx

well, you are an awesome human being & i honestly look up to you ;) love you! xoxo

Zoe you mean the world to me this blog post was amazing my twitter is :@zalfiezoella and ily thanks for making a change in my life ily

This was such an amazing post to read, Zoe. You deserve it! I wish you all the best in the future! Thank you for sharing this with us. xxxxxx

wow that is one heartfelt post Zoe, you are an incredible person

ahhh I love you zoe you inspire me sooo much <333

I think it's incredible that even when you go through bad times, you always manage to pick yourself up again. As for me, having both anxiety and panic attacks quite frequently at the moment, I always fell like crawling into my bed and staying there for a week – but then I watch your videos, and first, they make me incredibly happy, but second, I also remember that your life is not always like that and you have your downs too, and if you can get through that, I might be able to do so, too.
I woul love to meet you one, but as I live in Germany, that is nearly impossible. Even if I never get to do that, you will still be a reason for me to look at the brighter side of things and try new stuff, even if it scares the hell out of me.
Thank you, Zoe, for how much you improved my life.
Franzi. x

Love you Zoe xx

Zoe, you have been so brave! One day, I will meet you in person and give you a great big hug as your videos make me feel so happy!!! I love you so much, never stop! xxxxx

Hi Zoe, I am not really sure if you'll read this or not, but I am totally behind you on all of those things and struggles, and I am sure a lot of other girls with me. I, personally, adore you because I know you are just a normal girl, like me. It is amazing to see how you've grown and how you are able to do so much more than you were able to in the past. I am so proud of you and can totally imagine that some things, lots of screaming people, are hard to deal with because you feel overwhelmed. I just hope you know there are lots of girls who sit at home and just adore your vlogs and don't make it their life-goal to meet you or any other youtuber, and are willing to almost die for it. No offense to those people, but I can imagine that they can, in large groups, frighten some people. We just love you because of who you are and how you have grown. We are those people who keep quiet in the background but will always support you! Love from The Netherlands ♥

Wow! Well said Zoe. I can understand how difficult the anxiety can be having suffered myself and I know this took a lot of courage for you to post, so for that well done :) I love watching all of your videos and want you to know that you are a true inspiration to me because you push yourself to do things you are uncomfortable with and are yourself which is such a commendable thing to do.
Thank you from Lauren x

I loved this blog post, to know a little tiny bit more of what is going on in your head.
And I just wanted to say ever since you tweeted the quote "those who mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind" I have been repeating that to myself every single day and I feel like it help, thank you so much for helping me see that and repeating it in this post as a reminder, it's something I still struggle with everyday but, watching your videos and reading your blog has absolutely helped me in the most positive way, thank you Zoe!

I'm overwhelmed with having 600 subscribers! I can't imagine what it is like to have 4.5million

We love you Zoe!

Congratulations on all your achievements Zoe!! We will always support you through everything!! I love you Zoe!! xxx

You're so humble Zoe & I think that's one of the things I appreciate most about you. It does seem, from someone on the outside looking in (so to speak), that 'YouTube Culture' & the whole 'YouTube Celebrity' thing has sort of snowballed into something quite unbelievable and really kinda crazy! I don't think I'll personally ever understand it, and to some extent I feel sad for a lot of you that have your lives criticised and intruded on to the extent that people are knocking on your door (I'm sure with the sweetest intention, but still…). I just worry for the time when something goes very wrong. Anyway, I think this post is wonderful & I hope it made you feel better in a way just by getting it off your chest.

Sam xx

i love you Zoe, this makes me feel so so much better because youre sort of going through the same thing as me just on a much much larger scale, the fact that youre going through all of this for everyone else its amazing zoe, you typing this made me feel a lot less alone because I can sort of see that my anxiety isn't going to hold me back in the future, youre so strong Zoe and without your advice. Keep up whatever your doing, and don't feel bad if you don't meet everyone because they know how you feel and they know that you would do anything to spend longer with them, we all understand Zoe its fine
just keep strong and I lobe you a lot
sorry my English is terrible and it probably didn't make sense but anyway, lots of love Amy xxx

This made me tear up, I myself have trouble with anxiety & overthinking. Seeing someone with the same problem and being so successful is truly a massive inspiration. Thanks for sharing this blog post with us, Zoe :)

I feel like the celebrity situation of the Youtuber must be very confusing for those put in that position, I'm glad many youtuber's have come out recently to open up this conversation & bridge the gap. I think I had my first kind of 'what the…' experience when I went to a Beauty Crush meet up. I wouldn't say I'm a huge fan of hers (though she is lovely and was so, SO nice and sweet at her meet up!) but I watch her videos & saw the info about her Melbourne meetup via Twitter and thought, well why not go along? Why not see what it's all about. I left with an instagram and a kind of confused smile because I thought 'I've just waited in line for an hour and a half for a three-second chat…I'm not sure what I wanted out of that meet up' (I just want to make it DOUBLY clear that I'm not being mean about Samantha, I'm just STILL confused about YT culture) I spent most of my time waiting in line thinking, I make videos, I watch videos, but why am I HERE at this meet up? Why am I hanging out in the Body Shop for a photo? What is this about?

I found the experience as a whole so strange, so I can't imagine what it was like for the channel owner of Beauty Crush standing there with all these girls wanting to meet her. I'm sure she felt lucky, but it MUST have been overwhelming. And I feel like it must be so strange for any 'big' youtuber facing these meet-ups, perhaps the biggest thing is the question of what content a youtuber can deliver in a meet-up situation where it all ends up being a line-up for a photo. I think people attend these and don't know what's going to happen. It sounds a little odd, but I feel like meet-ups with a bit more structure behind them might be beneficial for all, it might also really help to induce a calmer situation for everyone involved, but beats me if I'd know what that 'structure' could be as I've only just gotten into Youtube over the last two or so years.

:) I enjoyed this post, thanks for writing it Zoe. I think one of the best things Youtube has on it's side where this subject is concerned is that it is SO interactive and there's SO much ability between content creators and viewers to bridge the gap.

Xo

Wow this must have been really hard for you to write and publish, it's great how brave you are! :) Just wanted to say how much I love watching your videos and reading your blog posts. Good luck with all the things you've got coming up in the future! :) Xx

This is great Zoe, you handle everything so well, your an inspiration and your videos put a smile on my face, thank you xxx

Love you so much Zoe! I wish I could have the chance to meet you, you're the reason my panic attacks have been so much less frequent and I have been more likely to face my fears. You are my inspiration and I love you :')

Sarah x
polkadottedjo.blogspot.co.uk

Thank you for sharing this with us! I have severe anxiety as well so I can definitely empathize with what you're going through– I get anxious at SMALL parties when I'm the center of attention so I can only imagine what it's like with 5000 people screaming at you. Good on you for going out there and doing what you can to say hi to your fans and meet them, even though it's difficult for you, just never forget to make your comfort and safety a priority. Your viewers understand! :)

I have so much tu say but I also can't speak. I'm shy. I am shy and I always protect myselfe from everything. That's not always good. I missed a lot of fun. One day I was so stressful that I lost a friend. I look at my life back and I see one thing. I make history. My history. I sometimes don't get why people see me as someone… perfect? They're wrong – I made many mistakes, I'm not perfectly pretty. I try to accept who I am. Me – with all bad things. You sometimes make me feel suprised – about little things! Maybe little things make us who we are. I wish Zoe you will deal with all your problems. You helped me. With your "Say yes" video I just feel like I can try new things. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S THE POINT OF THAT COMMENT. If anyone is reading this I just want to thank you. Your the best. Just because you are.

From my "viewer" perspective, it all sunk in at this year's Playlist Live. I knew many YouTubers had a large following but I NEVER imagined things could get to the point where the environment became unsafe not only for you guys but for fans as well. Everything was so out of hand and crazy and I just couldn't wrap my head around why people feel the need to act the way they do at these events. I'm not going to go into detail but I can honestly say that my experience was so unpleasant I don't think I will ever attend an event like that again, sadly. The only time I got to see you was on the last day as I was walking out of the hotel to put my bags in the car, I was so stressed and afraid of security that all I was able to say was "hi Zoe!" as I walked by you. The way everyone was being treated at Playlist was so upsetting to me. I know you guys are all normal people who go back to their regular lives after event like those are over just like the rest of us, but the divide between YouTubers and viewers at these events is so big that it's almost not even worth it (at least for me personally) to attend anymore. I know that a lot of the fault falls on people's lack of self control but it still makes me sad. I just hope that one day there could be a happy medium so both YouTubers and fans have an equally pleasant experience. Thank you so much for posting about this because I feel like it's a topic that definitely needs to be addressed more often.

You are truly amazing zoe. Really you are. You have overcome and said yes to so many things it must be difficult to take a step back once in a while a realise how much your life has changed. All i know from this side of the internet is that you are an inspiration to many and have been entertaining me with your hauls and funny business for atleast two years now and i wouldn't want it any other way. You have also helped me to take big steps into what i want to do with my life. I hope to meet you one day for a hug. Stay beautiful :) love Beth

Firstly, well done for writing such an authentic and honest post. It can't be easy essentially bearing your feelings like that. What you said about having a broad audience resonated with me. I am the same age as you, and have felt over the last few years a lot older than your general demographic, and it has been difficult for me to wrap my head around teen culture nowadays. When we were teens, we had celebrity idols, but we could only access them in magazines, on Top of the Pops, or if we were lucky at a concert. There was a big distance between us and them. YouTube is weird, because you are essentially normal people, and not celebrities. But that doesn't mean your viewers are your friends either. It must be a weird situation to be in; questioning how much access to your lives you give your viewers, or how many boundaries have to be in place. I think finding new ways to do meet ups for those who want to meet you is a good idea. Maybe some sort of ticketed event with a cap on numbers. Something where you can sit and talk and spend more time with each person.

You are totally right. I was at itatube and I was so surprised myself because I would never thought that there would be such a big screaming crowd. It's incredibly how your and others youtuber's video can bring so many people from different places together. And that's scaring, it's good but still scaring and I can understand how do you feel about all this 'fame' because it's just so overwhelming. Watching a youtuber grow talking about subscribers it's nice because you are happy that they are making other people happy, but it's also kinda sad because you know that you will have half of the possibilities to meet them or just let them know how they changed your life. Youtube is a new thing and nobody knows how will this thing will end up, because it has to end someday somehow. But as long as I can enjoy watching people sharing their thoughts in front of a camera, as long as I can smile because of a video, I will be here supporting youtubers. And last Zoe it's normal to have ups and downs and true fans will understand it, you don't need to worry because, at least, you will have me ahaha

Omg Zoe, this post made me cry:') You're so incredibly amazing<3 I'm so so proud of you, I have been watching and supporting you since you strarted your yt channel! I love you so so SO much, you're such a big inspiration to me and I just want to say a big THANK YOU to helping me about everything! It's crazy how many people watching you now and obsessed with you:) And I'm really happy about it, you deserve all of it! I love how you're beeing so honest with us<3 I hope you will keep doing these things(yt,the blog etc.) forever because I love watching you and reading your posts! It's just make me so happy:) And hopefully one day I'll meet with you:) You're amazing and we will be here for you, supporting and love you forever!:) We love you<3 Okay I could go on and on and write things but for now that's all.. I kind of wanted to write a long story short type of comment:D I just want to write so many more things haha:) Lots of love and greetings from Hungary! Xxx

Zoe, this is so beautifully written:) in the end little bit of tears came out. I dont know why. Maybe because u are my role model and i understand your feelings. And thats why i am happy that i am not that crazy fan who would spent hours standing on front of your flat or even knocking at your door. I am that fan/viewer who just enjoy watching your videos and watching u growing up as a big personality:) I believe i will meet u once even though i live in Slovakia:)But dreams are dreams and it is important to follow them:) Lots of love:) PS: Sorry, I am not that good in english:)

Wow, Zoe!
Now, that's one long post – watching your videos is amazing and sometimes even saves my day and I love how you try to get over some people who don't approve with your opinion or the way you handle things!
Even though I don't have the slightest idea about blogging and vlogging myself, I felt overwhelmed and intimidated watching all those fans screaming and waving at you and other youtubers and I admire how you all cope with it and try to present yourself in the best way possible. Nonetheless, I'm also sure that all those people are able to understand what you think and feel in those moments and hopefully things will never get out of control (like REALLY out of control, your digifest vlog seemed as it was just about to happen ..) .. not sure if that mad any sense, but:
I really like your vlogs/blogs/tutorials and stuff and I appreciate how you accentuate that you are just the girl next door and that you yourself are still able to appreciate what is happening to your life thanks to your viewers AND your own talent and creativity. Stay strong but also able to know when it's time to step back for a moment and get a break. You won't loose real fans/friends just because they don't see vlogs or read blogs for a few days/weeks or you don't attend the one or other convention.
Big love from Germany xxx

i've never been to any of your conventions, but i love watching your videos and reading your vlogs. keep it up as long as its fun for you and what you want to do. try not to worry too much about what the haters say, and just think about the amazing friends you've made and the opportunities you've had because of this! <3

Great post Zoe, I'm glad that you and Louise are the first YouTubers to draw attention to what must be a huge problem within the YT Community. I'm sure it's something that all Creators have to deal with but that doesn't necessarily mean that a better solution can't be reached.

I explored this topic in relation to Louises video and the various responses to 'YouTube Culture' on my own blog – http://omgilleechi.com/youtube-culture-has-fame-ruined-youtube/

I love this. I think its really important for you guys to talk about this and express your feelings about the situation. I have extremely bad anxiety it started in December, bad enough for me to decide not to go to prom or my graduation ceremony and bad enough today for me to stay home from school. I know im missing out on so much and that i should say yes more often, but there are a lot of other health issues that come with my anxiety. I can barely eat anything because i wont be able to digest it properly, i get nauseated and really bad stomach aches in the morning. I have a panic attack every day in the morning at school. Its SO exhausting. Whenever i hear youtubers talk about this subject I understand it completely. I just imagine what it must feel like and i already start to feel queasy. I especially feel this way when its you who talks about it Zoe, because I know that you have a hard time with anxiety as well. I just wanted to say that your a really great example for me when it comes to dealing with anxiety and pressure and that i really appreciate your blog posts and videos about it. I feel like at school everyone, even the teachers, think im over exaggerating and no matter how much i try to explain they just dont understand. Even my mom doesnt understand completely. It feels comforting to know that there are people who get it, who understands and who doesnt judge anybody for it, and who are going through the same thing. Thank you so much zoe <3

Thank you Zoe for staying true to who you are and being that ordinary girl that we all love!

xx Alyson
http://www.beauty-vanity.com

I entirely agree with you, Zoe. Growing up in Portugal and being a YouTuber myself, I had fantasies of how amazing it would be to be in the UK and go to a convention or a meet and greet. After being to several, I've decided that I don't want to go anymore.

I think the fact that I'm a little bit older than the average demographic, and also the fact that I've been making YouTube videos since 2009 have put me in a position where people like you and Louise and Tanya are girls just like me, with a bigger audience. I've been watching you guys for years, and frankly you feel like friends to me above anything else. The fact that you're friends who don't know me is just a part of it. At SITC last year, I refused to queue up to see anybody (Emma Blackery in particular) because it just felt odd that I was in a place where I was having to queue up for hours to hug and get a picture in 10 seconds with somebody that I've spoken to before and see as a friend, even if they don't know me as well and don't see me in the same way.

People tend to forget that behind a YouTube video and a What's In My Bag is a girl just like them who has an actual life and actual feelings, and that a scripted and edited 15 minute long video about lipsticks isn't that YouTuber's whole life and entire personality. It's almost like they make you guys surreal, like a character in a book… somebody unattainable that they need to scream at in order to maybe get their attention for a couple of seconds.

I don't envy you. I can only imagine the pressure that comes with all the great things about having an audience. I had my first "meet and greet" last summer, and it was the best thing ever to just sit around with 10-20 people and have a good group chat. I'd miss that. Although I see the value of a larger audience (much larger in your case), I can't even begin to think of what it would be like to be treated like a celebrity and have your privacy breached every single day multiple times.

Just my two cents on the matter. I'd like to meet you, properly. Not at a meet and greet or a convention. I can't bring myself to queue up for people I see as friends.

Bianca xxx

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I am super glad you did this post. I only found you 8 months ago but that doesn't matter, I kinda take you as a friend and not at all a celebrity! Love you Zoe. You are always there!

Love you and this blog post! Waiting outside your door is wrong and I am so sorry that you sometimes feep anxious, remember: if you ever feel anxious during a convention we will all understand if you need to take a breath. Hope to meet you soon Love Hannah xx

I feel like the 'youtuber world' has exploded recently and think that it is absolutely crazy that people are screaming you. But at the end of the day that is just what happens when someone becomes 'popular' or 'famous'. Fan girls are scary, I'm not going to lie, if I was you I would be petrified by them! It is also very scary how people just suddenly know everything about you, without you knowing them. You should be so proud of yourself for getting to have so many subscribers and followers, and not worry about how you come across to subscribers. Enjoy your job and don't get too caught up into this new crazy social media life!

Lily x

I love that you shared this with us! I have anxiety as well (lightest version)

xx Amber
http://ambernaomi.blogspot.nl/

I love this post. I've actually been thinking about "celebrity" and how interesting it is that the world has come to hero-worship entertainers. Don't get me wrong, I love movies, music, YouTube channels – but what does it mean that so many young people idolize all of those people? These (usually) aren't people who made a decision to enter a public discourse about role models and all of the issues facing young people today. I appreciate your bravery and candor, and I love watching your videos, but I often wonder how it affects a YouTuber's quality of life when they are bombarded by people on an almost daily basis. I'm sure there are amazing experiences as well, but what a compromise! Thank you for sharing so much of your life with us viewers and readers, and for making your videos and blog such fun experiences. I hope you never feel like you aren't sharing enough, or aren't sharing the type of content you "should." Like you said, you are a normal girl who happens to be on an extraordinary journey – and you are doing wonderfully. I find YouTube culture fascinating – and, like you, I'm interested to see where this all goes! xxx

Beautiful Text! it is really amazing what you have achieved now! Really! You are a lucky girl! :)

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I've been with you since you first started making youtube videos and found your blog from there. I remember a nervous girl in front of the camera doing primark hauls and believe me when I say this — I can still see that girl in your videos now to an extent. It makes me remember the Zoe that made me feel confident in wearing what ever I like interms of fashion and make-up. Its been amazing to watch you grow up and in turn reminds me where I was 4 years ago.
I'd love the opportunity to meet you one day, but perhaps not at one of the big conventions. I have never been to one but from watching everyone's vlogs for the past few years I can see that they have gotten very crowded and busy. Its not what I want – and frankly it looks rather unappealing to meet my favourite youtubers that way.

Thanks so much for everything Zoe, you've helped me more than you know.

-Shannon, 21, Canada

Its so lovely reading that you are shocked with yourself how far you have come! There are some people that just expect life to come at them and they accept it, and live that way! I think we should all work hard for the opputunities we get! I would love to achieve so much in my life that I am shocked as well. Trying to say ''yes'' to more things is my aim over the next couple of years which was inspired my Zoe! Zoe isn't my idol because she sits and talks to herself in the mirror, Zoe is my idol because she has achieved a lot by making herself happy. Surely that has to be everybodys goal! It sure is mine.

If you would like to start following me on Blogger, then feel free! I recentley posted about 'My Favourite Place' which is Brighton!

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This post is amazing Zoe and a little teary! People often forget that you are real people too and neglect that when trying to meet you guys. This post really clears that up for people and shows that you do have feelings and worries like the rest of us! You are really strong to write this and I admire you a lot! Keep going because I love what you do xx

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I am glad more you tubers are talking about this :) Youtube culture has grown massively in a short amount of time! I think we, as viewers, have forgotten that the people making the content are still the SAME people as they were when youtube all started. If I am honest I don't think I could manage going to a meet up or youtube conventions anymore because I myself suffer from anxiety and panic attacks but being able to meet the people that inspire me so much would be a dream! Its hard because there are a lot of things that I stop myself doing because I am scared, (i.e. making my own youtube videos) and seeing the footage from digifest shocked me a lot! It's crazy to me. I admire you a lot and your are a role model for me, touching on what Louise said in her video, I don't think its bad for us to see you as role models. You can never know everything about your role model but the purpose of one is to help you figure out what type of person you want to be. I wish you the very best in the future. You are very deserving for what ever new journey you take on in your life. You have put a smile on so many of your faces, for that I thank you xx

I honestly just like watching ur videos. I dont go to these events…. I dont ship anyone or even understand. It's like….no. And i feel bad for you because to me its weird. But in my opinion sometimes i fell like this attitude is in encouraged in a way not a lot just by shipping and stuff because it gets younger viewers, excited? I dont know haha just my opinion, only a tiny bit. Zoe your video's are great so dont feel any pressure. Just carry on what you love doing. We're not all crazy i promise haha. To me, your just normal-SERIOUSLY. I value your opinion because you've been through more than me in life but I dont intend on going to these events or screaming at you. LOL. It's like loving murder…nice but scary. All I can say to you, is this doctor who quote i live by: Your Journey has molded you for the greater good. It's exactly what it needed to be. Don't think you've lost time. It took every situation you have encountered to bring you where you are now. And now is the right time.' It will get better and you're learn how to deal with these people and 'new world' in your own way. Just remember we don't all float in the same boat….Is that even the saying? . xxxxx

It feels quite surreal whenever I see you on my youtube homepage with over 4 and a half million subscribers and collaborating with so many youtubers because you'll always be schoee to me :) I remember discovering your blog and the first post I read was your Lush Boxing Day Haul in 2009! The fact that you have came this far and have achieved so many amazing things is such an inspiration! I'm glad you and other Youtubers are addressing this whole Youtuber Celebrity Culture thing because like others, I'll never really understand why people would go to such extreme lengths but I guess they want to meet you because you've had such a positive impact on so many people's lives. I wish I could've went to a bloggers meet up or something similar and met you because I think the conventions are getting a tad crazy now and security don't seem to care which sucks :( But it's great that you've shared your views regarding this whole thing and that you care about your viewers/readers :)

im so so proud of you zoe <3

Loved reading this ♥I never been to a meet up, but I know the feelings you've expressed. You really inspired me and because of you I recently started my own blog. I have gone through some bad times, but your videos always make me incredibly happy. I think (and I know I'm not the only one) that you really deserve this! ♥

You are wonderful, Zoe. I met you at DigiTour in Chicago this past October. Yes, the security were a bit overwhelming, but you were so kind to me. In the midst of craziness, our interaction seemed the most genuine and thankful. So, thank you for that. I can only imagine how overwhelming some things in your life must be right now, but I want you to know that I think you do a terrific job with being honest and open to your viewers. I know that so many people look up to you, but I just see you as a sweet young lady who likes to make people happy doing what she loves.. and that's awesome. Keep being you Zoe, because you're a gem! Sending you virtual hugs! xo

Dear Zoe, you just broached a topic that should be considered by many people. We love our celebrities and/or youtubers, but at the same time we're ruining their lives… People being mugged by fans or followed by photographers, it honestly breaks my heart. But I do hope you realise that we (as fans) mean no harm. Picture yourself as you were about to get the chance to meet your rolemodel in real life… you would to anything to reach them, talk to them, make them notice you and so on. I sincerely admire you Zoe, because you dare to open up to us about what's on your chest. Same thing with the Zalfie-incident, you handled it so well. I think I can speak for all your subscribers when I say that we really appreciate your communication with your fanbase. Not only does it take a weight of your shoulders, but it gives us the opportunity to comprehend what's wrong and what we should or could do differently as fans.
I would like to finish this by telling you that I, and every single one of us, love u. And you should know that we are individuals too. Sometimes it may seem that we're a whole, a fanbase, but we consist out of many many different people, all with different opinions and thoughts. If one person says something mean, I really hope you don't get the impression we all think so! We will always support you, in we are all so in awe of you. You're a rolemodel for so many girls, even when you're not trying to be, so don't change, stay who you are because that's the person we adore. The reason all of us connect with you so easily is because we are just like you.

Lots of kisses from a girl in Belgium whom you will most likely never meet (it's okay I've taken peace with it), but who loves you very much.

In case you would like to respond and make me even more happy than you already have: my twitter account is:

@EvaLunaMaes

You are such an inspiration to me Zoe, I think you are truly an amazing person <3

Glad you wrote this. Meetups look really scary and it's great that you don't back out even though you're not totally comfortable. Very strong of you!
Joelle
xx
FebruaryGirl.

I agree 100% with this, and I think it's great that people have started talking about the 'celebrity culture' of youtube – you've put it really eloquently :)

itsclairey.blogspot.co.uk

I totally agree with you zoe! You were one of the first youtubers that I subscribed to, when I started watching youtube. And that was when you had 1 million subs. Now you have more than 4 million. And if I watch your vlogs of digifest and milan I realise that the youtube community has grown A LOT. So I understand that you are overwhelmed and maybe a little bit affraid. But if you just keep doing what you want and what you like, then there's nothing to be affraid of!! Because your true viewers will support you (inclusive myself :) ) whatever you do. I also watched Louise's video about this and I really understand what you girls mean! So just do what makes you happy and don't pay attention to the people who post mean comments.

I also want to say thank you for making me happy! :) I really love your video's. I always watch them and I always give them a thumps up because they are never bored and they make me laugh all the time. Even when I am sad

xxxxx

I love this post, Zoe! I love seeing what you think about everything. I went to one of the shows – Digitour in the US – and was in the meet and greet line. Honestly, I WAS disapointed, but not in you or any of the others I was there to meet at all! It was just very crowded and very rushed, like you've described. I expected to have a conversation, at least, with each of you, but I think I barely got to say "Hi, how are you? I love you!" That's just a case of me setting high expectations and not looking at the reality; that we had maybe 45mins-1 hour to get over 300 people to meet you guys. I walked away with a hug (after being yelled at to hurry up the hugging) and a picture, which is nice, but I've always thought the whole "pictures with celebrities" thing is kind of weird. I'd rather meet someone I look up to and talk to them about what they do, or even just about anything, than not get to talk to them and just get a picture. I see this in videos when people meet their idols, and no one is talking besides shy hi's and you just take a picture and leave. I guess it started as how to make a memory of that great time meeting someone, but now it's just turned into more proof or bragging rights?! I don't know, that was a little rant hahah but I am saddened, too, by how hard it has gotten to meet you all. But your presence online and your content always brightens my day, so that's a plus! I love watching you grow, it inspires me, so that's definitely worth it even if I can't meet you in person and become a friend.
Love to you and all the best, your adventures have been and are going to be amazing and my hand it always here for you to (metaphorically) hold!
xxxx Kim

(kimidol.blogspot.com)

I love hearing this kind of thing from a Youtubers point of view. People don't get how overwhelming it must be.
I am a viewer, and if I do say so myself, a bit of a fan, I haven't been to a meet up but seeing the vlogs
and hearing things like this, people there seem very "Excited"
It's amazing that people think they know you inside out , when you're on camera once or
twice a week at the most. It's so rare that we know a person completely, and I'm so in awe of how you deal with
people. I'm assume all you want to do when you're on holiday and feeling anxious or poorly is too relax, but if you feel like you're letting somebody down, you can't. I don't have a definitive end to this but, over all, thanks for sharing this and your life with us. :)

Dear Zoe,
I would like to thank you for always sharing things like this with us and for always saying things as they are.
I am one of those who are here with you from the very beginning. When I started reading your blog you had ONE video on youtube and I immediately got hooked and inspired.
Today I have a blog and youtube. They are both starting to grow and it is ALL just thank you YOU.
Thank of you being who you are and becoming my inspiration in life basicly I found out who and what I want to be.
Ever since then I am happy.
Thank you and I LOVE you.
Please keep safe and HAPPY.
Much much much LOOOOOOVE to you Percy and Pippin (and the other Sugg;) )
Deni :*
http://www.denivev.blogspot.com

I've been watching your videos since 2012 and it's unbelivable how fast your audience has grew from around 200,000 subs to 4.6 million so I can't imagine how daunting it must be for you! Also I'm shocked people are waiting outside of your flat for you which is not cool at all, you also need privacy and people should not be pushing it. It is weird how big of a thing YouTube has become and whatever opportunities you come across , do it for you. Thanks for explaining how your feeling so we understand xx

Wow Zoe. You are so lovely and amazing :)

http://www.writingmonique.com

Really nice, deep and sweet reflection! I'm really happy that you are still a "normal" girl even though you have became so famous!

Kisses from http://www.withorwithoutshoes.com

OMG i love you, you are amazing.!!

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i love you so much ! you are my insparation :* <3 love from Tunisia <3

I can't begin to imagine what this all feels like for you and this post definitely helped me see it from your perspective better so thank you for posting it! I just want to say even though you now have more followers, people still watch your videos for the same reason they did 3 years ago. I know I do. I enjoy seeing what you've been loving just like I like to see what my friends have been loving. I enjoy watching your artistic filmed videos because they inspire me. Your honesty and the insight into your life helps me cope with new aspects of mine. You help people are you should be SO proud. I don't think I could do what you do. However, I'm not sure I agree with meet and greets. Summed up into a sentence, I think they encourage idolising behaviour and encourage people to look at Youtubers like celebrities.

Aha, I actually got teary reading this :') I'm am and always have been very shy even some of my teachers have called me a 'Wall Flower' before. Reading this made me realise further you are more real than just on the camera I really think people take 'YouTubers for granted, forgetting they have lives other than just YouTube. I have to admit I do miss the times when YouTube wasn't as popular as it is now, because the meet-ups seemed so simple, as to just say a time and a date and have a small meet up in a park. Now I am slightly disappointed to think that by the time I could maybe have the chance to meet any YouTubers the time will be up or people just wont want to do it anymore. But now I am pretty happy procrastinating from my exam prep while laughing at silly videos. Thank you for making being young a little more easy. :) x

Zoe I was at Itatube in Milan and I wanted to meet you so badly but when I was in the queue on saturday I felt like I was gonna faint cause it was too packed with people so I left. On sunday, when I was queueing again, Tan and Louise told us that you weren't going to show up cause you were ill. I felt I was gonna faint again. But I kept up and met Joe Alfie Jim Marcus and Caspar instead. I gave Joe two letters, one for him and one for you. I really hope he gave it to you and that you read it. I'm sure you both did.
But not meeting you didn't ruin my day whatsoever. Yes, I would have prefered seeing and hugging you, or going around the city with you and Joseph. But Itatube and all those conventions in general are wonderful experiences that allowed me to meet some of my viewers as well and incredible friends I've made on youtube, like you did.
I feel constantly inspired by you and your group of friends. Even if I don't know you, I hope one day I'll get to do some of the awesome things you're up to everyday.
I don't know if I sound like a creeper or not but whatever.
I'd love to know if you read my letter, it was the one in pink paper and I wrote I was going to send you Venice pictures but I didn't :( (Yes, I am lame.).
Let me know if you and Joe read them,

Love you.

Elena Sandri.

Really great post! I love watching your videos, and I would LOVE to meet you, Joe and everybody else someday, when you're all (hopefully) come to Germany one day. :)
Keep doing what YOU love and what makes YOU happy, that's all that matters. :) There are enough people who will always stay by your side, no matter what.

Love from Berlin, Germany,
Mareike
<3

I'm so happy for everything that you have achieved Zoe! Love this post, it is very inspiring :) xx

heyy I was there too! It was crazy, you're right! I wish I was in Amsterdam when you met Will and Alexa tho, I saw your video, such nice people! x

Honestly, I'm not sure you will ever read this, but I just wanted to put it out there on the off chance that you will, I became a fan of yours when you started opening up about your anxiety. Just like this post explains, so often it seems like everyone out there (celebrities, YouTubers, anyone we don't know personally) have it all together and their life is simply perfect. I suffer badly with an anxiety disorder and lately it has gotten worse. I moved back in with my parents following uni and I'm scared I'll never leave. I've always wanted to do live a traveling and open life, but it's almost seems impossible. Seeing your posts and your honesty has helped give me hope. I don't know what my future holds, but seeing your strength has given me strength and for that I say thank you.

http://hayleykaye1234.blogspot.com

HayleyKaye :)

From someone who started watching a bunch of now really well-known youtubers before they became so popular, it's definitely seemed to me like it's been quite the drastic and overwhelming amount of attention, all at once! Being 23 yrs. old myself, it's hard to imagine that kind of attention – I think especially because of the way you started, blogging back in the day, you probably didn't expect it to blowup as much as it did! Congrats on that :) that's awesome that so many people found they could connect with what you had to say!
Maybe it's because I came just after the whole internet-24/7 mentality where people seem to obsess so much and so easily over certain things, and then put it all on the internet, that it's hard to put myself in that 14 yr. old crying fan at Playlist's shoes who devotes there life to knowing every single thing about their favourite internet "idol", from making a twitter account dedicated to their eyebrows, to knowing where they live and sitting outside their house (…that wouldbe a strange feeling!)
Oh twitter…even looking there at how…passionate some of these girls & boys can be at the flip of a hat is, in a way, kind of scary?…!! I know it most always come out of a place of love, which is v sweet, but I can definitely see how it could be overwhelming. It's hard for that 14 yr. old to know empathy and be empathetic for someone alot older than them & in a situation so different from their own (like yours), but I think it's important to try, ya know? For your happiness as well as theirs :) There's no price that can be put on mutual understanding like that, and just checking in & being aware of how everyone in the situation might feel; I think both parties owe it to eachother to just take a bit of time to stop for a second & think about it – kind of like how you wrote this about how you're feeling and let everyone know :)

Great post Zoe! Congrats & good luck with all of your 2014 going-ons!!

Cat // CACHOO JOO

Hello Zoe,
I've seen Louise's video about this topic and it made me think quite a lot. I just wanted to explain you how I felt during the ita tube convention.
It was my first convention ever and as I don't live in Milan, I had to get up at 4am, get a bus, a train, the tube and then I finally arrived at the venue at 9am I think.. Well it was absolutely overwhelming, I've been queuing for two hours to meet Tyler, Troye and Hannah and well meet is a huge word bc I've only had the time to pose for a pic, give them a quick hug and then I've been pushed away, and the same thing happened with the YouTube boyband, with Sam &co and with Louise and tanya (I went there on Sunday that's why I didn't met you unfortunately) but anyway.. I spent the whole day queuing, without eating a single thing bc otherwise if have lost my position in the queue.. I don't know why but at the end of the day I was kinda happy but everything I had was a pic with the mayority of you and nothing else.. I felt so disappointed because you know, we watch your videos and we know a lot about you all, but for you we're just 1/5187473847384 and we're just one of the thousand faces you get to hug.. Everything I'd like to do is have a chat with you, talk to you, chill with you.. I don't wanna pay lots of money to see you for 20 secs.. I know that money isn't a matter for you now but for some of us is and my parents did make a huge effort to give me enough money to come to the convention and idk.. I think that we should try to find a way to do a different type of meeting so that we can do it in a pacific way without screaming and stuff.. Oh yeah one thing I wanted to point out that i wasn't screaming at all when you came in bc I didn't see any point in doing it! I mean why!!! I didn't even scream when I met one direction! I mean you're just normal people! It's like going to the butcher and started screaming at him as soon as he gives you the meat! Why the hell do people have to scream? I will never understand it actually..
Well I don't even know what I'm saying anymore but i hope you got what I wanted to tell you..

Thank you for explaining to us all your feelings!

Kisses

Vittoria x

This post was very much needed, Zoe! Everyone needs to remember that YouTubers and bloggers alike are all human and everyone started out as an ordinary person with 0 followers. But it's a two-way street and these YouTube 'stars' need to remember that they decided to share their life online, so they need to both appreciate the potential fame and fandom and accept their newfound 'celebrity' status – meanwhile, the viewers need to remember that they are all just regular people who aren't used to people gushing over them 24/7. Thankfully I don't think this 'YouTube culture' has escalated to the point where YouTubers get 'papped' or genuinely 'stalked' (of course, fans might spot them in the street and ask for a photo, but that doesn't call for a Daily Mail article) but I agree that it must be overwhelming for someone with anxiety like you.

You've done an amazing job coming this far, so if I were you I'd be excited for what the future holds and remember that there is no going back to the Zoe of 2009 who was completely unknown on the internet – so you might as well embrace the applause. Of course, everyone needs to breathe every now and again!

Emma x | Reverie Lane

Reading this made me tear up. I look up to you, and think you are an amazing person. I feel like I can relate to you in so many ways, and you help me through the situations you have already faced. I'm unsure about the whole 'YouTube Culture' thingy. I am soooo happy to call you my idol, because I couldn't ask for anything more from you. I must admit however I do find myself considering the 'perfect' life you must lead, the friends, the fans and the adventures. And really I know you don't. You really are just a normal girl though, from a normal family (not to make you sound boring or anything). You have a talent for something new and modern, that no other generations have faced. It comforts me to know that someone like you, who has achieved so much, can still feel exactly like me. I guess the whole 'YouTube Culture' thing is completely new. You are one of the first big 'YouTubers' because a few years ago it didn't exist. Right now your life is crazy, one minute you are snuggled on your sofa with your guinea pigs, the next having 1000's of people screaming for you. And I think that's why people look up to you. You are a normal girl from a normal family, but with an amazing talent. 'In this moment now capture it, remember it', don't focus on what you might of done wrong, of what might happen, but take ever moment as it comes and be 'fearless'. Everyone makes mistakes, you are just a human being. But not everyone has 4,500,00+ subscribers, and has their life documented. I think that's why I love you the most, because you are, and always will be just Zoe, who just knows whats happening and just knows the right things to say. Thank you for the Zoe, Love izzy and so many others:) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I really love what you are saying about just being another person, who just happens to be in the public eye. Louise touched on this as well, and I think its really important that we, the viewers, keep that in mind.

I struggle with sever anxiety and depression. I have wanted to go to various conventions to meet YouTubers, but I don't think I ever will because I'm too afraid that I would just be having anxiety attacks left, right, and center. I'm also so afraid that you wouldn't like me!

The reason I enjoy watching YouTube videos is because it feels like you are a friend, talking to me directly. With the hustle and bustle of a meet and greet at a convention, it kind of ruins that effect. If you ran into one of your friends on the street, you would be able to have an actual conversation about what is going on in your life, rather than just "Hi" *snaps picture* "Bye!"

Do what makes YOU happy. If we don't like it, that's OUR problem, not yours! (I know, easier said than done! I'm so invested in what people think of me sometimes, I sound like a hypocrite!)

Lots of Love,
Kathleen

I think it was so important that you wrote this blog post! As with Louise's video from last week – I think people find it so easy to forget that behind the 10 minutes a week that viewers see of you is a real girl. Videos and blog posts are a snippet of your life, but do not reflect the whole thing. Thank you for reminding the world of that – and remember that you don't have to live up to the expectations that have been created for you!

Thank you Zoe.

letus-belovely.blogspot.co.uk

Thank you for writing this, it feels great that you (and Louise in her video) are talking about this, because I've been thinking a lot about this since I started watching youtubers. I, as a viewer, sometimes feel very uncomfortable seeing vlogs from events and meet ups where it's all gone crazy. The "youtube celebrity culture" is quite odd to me, and I do think it sort of comes down to the amount of followers/subscribers you have. Because when I watch your videos, or Joe's, or Louise's etc. for a longer period of time, what I feel, is that I just want to become your friend.

I would just love to have a chat with you, and hang out for a bit you know. The type of videos most of you make have a sort of made in that direction, that your viewers are your friends. ("Hi bestfriends!" to quote Jim haha). And you are our friend, in the computer. But with the amount of "fans" you all have, it makes you unreachable. It becomes a big deal for a lot of people to even get replies from you on twitter, they change their usernames and feel grateful and happy for days, (which is nice of course, that you can make someone so happy). It also makes you all become more distant to your viewers, in an absolutely understandable way. I mean, you would probably not invite a friendly viewer over for tea in your home just like that. And what you write here, that people actually are waiting outside your home just to see you, makes it so much harder for you.

But I'm incredibly glad that you are bringing this up, just like Louise. I would love for more of youtubers to adress this, that you are in fact just normal people who would love to have a chat but doesn't want people hanging outside your home. I wish you didn't have to be distant and that people wouldn't go crazy over meeting you, so that I could just meet up with you one day and have a nice little chat.

Sorry for the long comment, but I didn't know where else to share my thoughts to you!
Alma
x

Oh my god, I almost cried while reading this post and I don't even really know why. I really love this post and I'm so thankful you took the time to write it! xx

i think that people are just over reacting because they were soo excited to see you and have a chat with you , even though you're a normal person but they see you as an inspiring giiirl who was able to switch to the good side of her life aaand one more sharing her life with strangers all over the worl and it's a brave decision not many of us can do love ya zoe , keep going and cheer up xoxo

being a blogger myself i know that a blog is a place to take out stress, and i actually miss blogs that have posts like that because most of the well known ones tend to become a bit impersonal. but this post makes me fell like i can relate to you as a human being.
i am usually an extroverted person and i love to talk a lot… so that somehow earned me the post of being the best commentator, emcee, and host in my school. this year i entered a citywide competition for emcee-ing and won. as the reward i got to host one of the biggest school fests of my city. i hosted on the first day where i shared the stage with a couple of celebrities. the second day when i was attending the fest girls came up to me wanting to say hi and take pictures and groups of girls even burst into screams when they saw me.
what happened to me was such a small scale and me being an extrovert was still overwhelmed, so i cant even begin to imagine what it must have felt like for you.
all i have to say is that its admirable that you face your demons and brave your way through most of the days for your viewers sake.
i know its impractical but i hope that with time you dont change. at least not much.

It's okay for celebrities, such as actors and singers. They really know 100% just exactly what they're getting themselves in for whereas, with youtubers, you have no idea how things are going to go.
Love you, Zoe! Chin up xxxx
http://my–socalledlife.blogspot.com.es/

Wow, thank you for being so open and honest about how you are feeling, Zoe. i mean, i am just one tiny little person in this huge community, and I already feel overwhelmed when i scroll through comments (honestly i feel almost demoralized nowadays because there are SO many comments and opinions that i don't even dare or want to put myself out there, first of all because it intimidates me to face all these people, and secondly because i feel it's almost pointless. like there are SO many words and opinions out there, i don't really want to contribute even more to that. does that make sense?), so I already feel overwhelmed, and i am only on the "passive" side of it all! as opposed to you who can't chose to just stand down and be an invisible observer. because that's basically what i am: an invisible observer or "viewer" to be precise. (sorry, this does sound kind of creepy -.-) but right now i am actually getting active and typing a comment to put my tiny little opinion out there :) the reason? you! you motivate me to crawl out of my little cozy shell, to say YES or to say No or whatever the heck i want to say! i'm sorry if this text is sort of confusing but who cares – it is the way it is! do you even get to read all of your countless comments? well i guess i'll never know! but i do hope you get to read them and know that you do inspire and motivate others, such as me. and i really do hope that what "we" (as in the viewer community) can in turn help you to cope with your anxieties and worries and help you grow :)
great, first i sounded like a creepy person, now i sound like a crazy gardener. oh i hate the internet! everything sounds so wrong :D well, i do hope you get what i'm trying to say. anyways, thank you for sharing so much of your life with us, and thank you for giving other people like me the opportunitiy to share something with you in return, like this terribly long and confusing comment :)
oh by the way: i'm also glad you address this whole "youtube celebrity" matter because i never really know what to think of youtubers. i mean, in a way you are just normal people talking to a camera, but then again you get so many "unreal" chances that i't hard to treat you like a "real" person. at least that's how i feel.
okay, that's it now to this superlong comment!
all the best, from the bottom of my tiny little heart ♥
Maisy

Dear Zoe, unfortunately there will always be people saying negative things about you and because you're dealing with that anxiety – that I am very familiar with – those will stick in your head too long. But actually it might be harder to feel so overwhelmed by people who really like you – or your videos – because of course they don't know you in real life. I enjoy watching your videos a lot, but I don't see you as an idol or celebrity, just as a girl making good videos. Somehow that's become your job, and that's great, but you didn't intend it to be. I haven't been to any meet-ups, but I understand that it's extremely overwhelming and difficult when dealing with anxiety. I think you do set an example there, by facing your fear and that inspires me to deal with my own anxiety.

Keep doing what you love and say yes to the things that you really want to do. :)

Your are my inspiration because I know you have your imperfections and I know that what is not on camera can be a night mare! When people scream, personally, I don't understand. It sounds more like your hurt and scared than happy. The youtube culture has changed so much, it used to be our little secret but of course that secret is going to get out and it has, but lord knows how much bigger its going to get but personally I hope it stays small, not to exclude people and not so that its a secret but because I feel sorry for you guys because I know that you love doing what you do and everything but at the same time you don't get privacy or you cant do things that would've taken 5 minutes with out fangirls coming up to you. I think overall my opinion on this whole thing is that some people should learn that youtubers aren't perfect and that you only see 10 minutes a week of there life, if that! I hope someone reads this and feels the same way! xxx

Totally agree with your advice about distancing a liiiiitle bit from those loving you. But after all, thank you so so much for bring such happiness to us and thank you for having to fight your own anxieties and personal issues whilst love your audiences so much.:))) Love from China~~(sad to be leaving London in half a year time, where Youtube is blocked:((()

I have never met you or any other youtuber and if I ever do, I would be very happy. I want to go to one of those youtube conventions but it's just too far away or I have school or something (I live in Belgium). When you guys were in Italy I was there to on the same moment and I didn't saw any of you. I was very frustrated because I saw it as my one time in a life opportunity to meet one of you. Now I realise that I shouldn't think that way. You guys are just human and sometimes as a viewer I forget that. I think this post is important. I hope I'll meet you someday, on a convention or just by coincidence, but I'll not think about it too much. What will happen will happen.

Thank you for this post and for making awesome videos!

Linde xoxo

this is so beautiful love you zoe i want to meet you more than anything xxxxxxxx

I never attended any meeting, and I most probably never will. Not that it won't be very nice to "meet" you, be it won't feel like really meeting you. And I will feel so uncomfortable among all those girls screaming and crying at you. I never understood the excitement of seeing someone "famous", I don't why, it is jus not something I am dying to do.

As I just said, attending a meeting, and have a few seconds to say hi (and not hug you, it would be weird huging someone who doesn't me) wouldn't be and actual meeting. You seem like such a nice person, easy to talk to, and it surely would be great to get to know you by having a little chat over a cup of tea and some nice biscuits.

Anyway, it was nice to read you and see that you have kept your feet on the ground, because, believe it or not, for some people you are a celebrity.
I also suffer from panic attack from time to time and I was surprised to have the courage to take a plane on my own to visit my bf in Canada, it is nice to see that even people who should be used to travel a lot by now still react that way when there's to much pressure.

Enjoy every second Zoe, it surely is an amazing experience you are living.

I think both you and Louise's views on Celebrity Youtube Culture are incredible and it's very important for everyone to remember you are normal people. I think this should be a case with Celebrity culture not just Celeb Youtube culture. We have to remind ourselves not to get overwhelmed by these people we look up to and remember that we're all the same. Thank you for this post Zoe, I hope it changes things, for the better of course.

Melissa, at http://www.melissa-lou.blogspot.com

Thank you Zoe that you are :) You inspired me to start my own blog. It will be a bit different, about Nail Art :) Still, thanks that you gave me that "push" to make changes and be more brave in my life.
Have a pleasant day hun!
Vanessa Key

Zoe!
What a lovely post! I can imagine how unreal and overwhelming this might feel. But I think all of you handle it so well. You asked for us to tell you stories of meet and greets, well here's mine.
I attended Vidcon this past year as well as Digifest in NYC. At Vidcon the lines are ridiculously long and crazy. You are right, things are rushed and crazy and I didn't even get a chance to say anything to you because they were only allowing signings. And the person right behind me had gifts for all of you and therefore things moved really fast. (And the rushing and yelling security never helps.) You, Tanya and Louise were all so gracious though and I have good memories of it. Digifest however was a little different. It was still rushed, but this time I got to give you and all the boys a hug and tell you that I do love all of you and that I had also met you at Vidcon. I do remember you telling me "Thank you for coming!" And it was such a great time. (I am smiling just remembering.) Like you said, I do wish we all got more time with you guys so we could talk and just have a nice conversation. But that would ultimately take days with everyone in line. I guess all I can say is, thank you for everything you do. I know sometimes it gets hard, overwhelming and the haters don't help. But just remember there are so many people that are incredibly proud and happy for you even if we do only get 20 seconds of meeting you. We love you because you are so grounded and not for one second let your popularity get to your head. Any of you for that matter.

With much love always,
Vicky

Great post, Zoe.
I discovered the whole 'youtube' culture early last year and was sort of shocked about how your world is. I think the reason is because you are the first era of youtubers, you have had no guidance, wise words or input from someone whos already gone through all of it – you just have to take it all as it comes. I think the problem you need to address is peoples expectations on all of your lives. At the end of the day your a normal girl like all of us who has an incredible great volume of fans for doing something that makes you happy. I think when fans stalk you its definitely gone too far – it'll just provoke your anxiety more! Keep doing what you're doing and you'll have incredible memories out of it all. I wish you every success in the world as I understand how awful anxiety can be, but you're definitely making me see that I can turn it around just like you have!

I wrote my own experience of anxiety over on my blog http://www.whatcharlottewore.blogspot.co.uk and I'd be grateful if you could read it… it takes allot to write something of that sort!

Lots of love,
Charlotte
x

Zoe you're an amazing person inside, outside and upside down! I really respect you and the fact you stay true to who you are, despite the many people who tell you otherwise and to be honest, I think that's why you've grown so popular to begin with. Never give up :) xxx

http://izzbizzz.blogspot.com.au

We love you for being 'you'. :)

This is such a great post. I'm glad it's being addressed! I've never been to a meet up as I've seen in your videos the amount of screaming fans, and as amazing as it, I would definitely find it overwhelming and scary and that cant be anything close to the feeling you get knowing its all for you! It is shame that the meet ups can't be as simple as meeting new friends in a coffee shop or even a few more than that at a larger place but the youtube fan base is just so big now! I'd love to meet you, and ask you all about your blog and how you find so many ideas and inspiration but the idea of being in the middle of a crowd of thousands is more than a little scary so I don't think it will happen! If there could be a way of having smaller meet ups that would be amazing so hopefully that's something that you and your friends find a way to do one day!

Also on the topic of you feeling like you should only do videos because of mean comments, your blog and your youtube channel is your job but it is also a hobby and it's your life you're putting on show. You should feel like you are able to share what you want, how you want. It's your experience so you should be free to do whatever you want! Mean comments seem to be inevitable with trolls these days but hopefully you'll find a way to look past them, focus on the good ones and do whatever makes you happy :)

Love Amylou x
http://www.amylous.co.uk

I've been racking my brain trying to think of the perfect response to this heartfelt post. I think I'll start with this.

When I watched your vlogs from Florida, I just felt proud. I have pretty bad anxiety (at times) also and every time you expressed that you weren't feeling well or that your friends said you were in bed, I could relate 100%. I've said no to really fun activities with my friends because of my stomach acting up, and the fear I'd get sick, although I never have in public before. I think I heard that's where your anxiety stems too, which is why I feel you're so much like me. ( I hate roller coasters also which has a lot to do with the fear, but that's another story haha)

ANYWAY, I could go on and on about how I relate to you and how I wish we could be friends in real life because I don't have any in real life who understand my anxiety, but that's not the point of this post. The real point is that I wanted to thank you. And tell you that it's okay.

Thank you because you've inspired me to do what I want to do in life without letting my anxiety overwhelm me. Which is what you're doing even though you don't feel like it sometimes. You look at it like a negative because you had to stay in your room one night instead of party; rather, you should look at it like you're conquering the anxiety and not letting it in by being on this journey at all. How easy would it have been to just say no to the whole experience and curl up in your bed where you don't have to worry about throwing up? Too easy. But you didn't. And that's a win. And you inspire me to win every day.

That's why I think none of it matters in the end- you are winning. The rest of it all fades.

I hope you read this post and you take it to heart, and next time you feel like the anxiety has bested you remember all the times you've conquered it, and know you can again.

All the best :)
-Heather

Zoe,
I have never gone to a convention, I am probably never will. Paying that much money, standing around for half of a day, and going deaf from the screaming just to have a hug and a selfie with someone who is just like me seems a bit weird. Youtubers inspire me to go try new adventures, but I am do not have the misconception that Youtubers are somehow better than their viewers or that they are celebrities (although someday soon that may be the case for many of the Youtubers I watch). I absolutely LOVE that these people who work so hard are seeing the results and get to travel and have fun. BUT I think some of them need to consider whether they should continue to go to these conventions or not.
The girls who go to the conventions are usually young, overexcitable, and have absolutely no boundaries. They do not treat the Youtubers like humans, but rather like gods. And that is scary. (I know not everyone who goes does that but the majority do). I have seen in recent blogs fans screaming in the streets, mobbing Youtubers while they are on a stroll, pounding on the windows of Youtubers' cars, and worse. I get scared and anxiety just watching it, I have no idea how the Youtubers handle it. I could go on and on about how crazy and messed up this is all getting.
I miss the days of Youtube when these people had a couple thousand viewers, and they were not afraid of being silly, messing up, missing a vlog, or being so careful about what they say or do.
Zoe if you take the time to read this one comment out of the thousands of comments, girl I have no idea what to tell you. Other than this: if you get anxiety from fans TELL THEM TO BACK THE FUCK OFF. Be honest. If they are your true fans they will pull back, apologize, and give you space. And if they get mad at you and throw a fit like a fucking child, the GOOD RIDDANCE TO THEM. You are better off without them. NO ONE has the right to you, you are a person NOT AN OBJECT. You do not have to share anything you don't want to, sign anything you don't want to, stop for a selfie when you are having a terrible day if you don't want to, Zoe you don't have to do anything you don't want to!! It is okay not to have it all together, you are a fucking person just like we are. It is okay to not be okay.

Sincerely,
Debby

Zoe, you are so cute. I loved reading this. Even I am not from England (I just study English for a few years), I caught every single word (in the right way as possible I hope). I really do love you, I will follow you no matter what. I wish you the best, do what makes YOU happy, and those people who are sending you bad comments, ignore them!!! You don't need them :-) Be that cheery person we know, you deserve it.

Wow loved it. You are such an amazing and lovely person and I'd love to meet you someday!

Zoe, I am very happy! I love your videos so much, and just seeing you in real would make anyone happy. You don't have to worry about letting us down. It's your life, live it how you want.

Alice xoxo

Zoe, you're an incredible inspiration to me! Don't let things and people let you down and keep doing what you love :)

What an amazing post! It must be so overwhelming for all of you. I totally agree with your opinion on this and believe that it is SO cool and important that you (and Louise, with her recent video) tell all of us about your experiences and feelings on this subject. Since we are the ones following you on your journey :) People have to understand that you are regular people that they shouldn't look up to, as if you are gods, but instead just learn of your experiences and choices you make. For instance, I love that you are so honest about your panic attacks, so that it becomes more of a "normal" thing to talk about for all of your viewers that also struggles with something alike. Keep up the good work and do more of these honest talks, so that people realize or get reminded that they should respect you and your privacy :)

What an amazing post! It must be so overwhelming for all of you. I totally agree with your opinion on this and believe that it is SO cool and important that you (and Louise, with her recent video) tell all of us about your experiences and feelings on this subject. Since we are the ones following you on your journey :) People have to understand that you are regular people that they shouldn't look up to, as if you are gods, but instead just learn of your experiences and choices you make. For instance, I love that you are so honest about your panic attacks, so that it becomes more of a "normal" thing to talk about for all of your viewers that also struggles with something alike. Keep up the good work and do more of these honest talks, so that people realize or get reminded that they should respect you and your privacy :)

This is the best blog post I have ever read. Well done Zoe and thank you! xxx

http://amylilyanne.blogspot.co.uk

This is very touching! I love watching your videos and I sometimes feel like you are one of the celebrities that we cannot reach for, but I have to remind me that you are also a normal person who lives in England:) I somehow forget that you do not like to be regarded as a 'celebrity' or a special person who can do everything. Still, you have such a great personality and talent that makes a lot of people happy and inspired, so keep on doing what you are doing, and keep on encouraging people around the world! Love you!

Hi Zoe and everyone else reading this! I try not to comment too much on videos, for whatever reason, but I just felt I needed to put down in words how I feel about this, as a viewer. Just trying to put in words how I, and maybe others, feel by just watching and never having met you or any other youtuber!

I, sometimes, feel a little uncomfortable seeing all these crazy fangirls crying and screaming and waving and waiting in line for hours to meet one of you, don't get me wrong, I would love to meet you one day, but just a random walk-in on the streets or something. After watching Louise's video of the Youtube Culture, I totally understood how she could possibly feel at conventions.

I don't think you are "just an ordinary, regular girl". You might have been before, and you maybe still think you are, but you are like a friend to us (me). I'm not a crazy teenage fangirl, me and Zoe are probably around the same age, but you are more like a friend than an idol, because you are so approachable. The people that watch you have the same interests or want to know more about your interests.

I have anxiety as well, and I've read your blogpost about it, watched your video talking about it, and I felt like you could relate to me, instead of thinking 'OMG ZOE I TOTALLY GET YOU, WE ARE LIKE SISTERS' and whatnot.
I think more people should just look at you as a friend and like Louise said, 'we' should not look at you or any other youtuber as our idols or as 'perfect'.
Just sweet people we like and relate and enjoy watching and so on..

I feel like i'm rambling and my sentences aren't even coherent..
Anyway, if you agree, great, if not, well..

If you feel like it, you could take a look at my blog
Fun make-up fashion -y stuff
lisadebonnet.blogspot.com

Thanks

X

This is such a great post. I'm glad it's being addressed! I've never been to a meet up as I've seen in your videos the amount of screaming fans, and as amazing as it, I would definitely find it overwhelming and scary and that cant be anything close to the feeling you get knowing its all for you! It is shame that the meet ups can't be as simple as meeting new friends in a coffee shop or even a few more than that at a larger place but the youtube fan base is just so big now! I'd love to meet you, and ask you all about your blog and how you find so many ideas and inspiration but the idea of being in the middle of a crowd of thousands is more than a little scary so I don't think it will happen! If there could be a way of having smaller meet ups that would be amazing so hopefully that's something that you and your friends find a way to do one day!

Also on the topic of you feeling like you should only do videos because of mean comments, your blog and your youtube channel is your job but it is also a hobby and it's your life you're putting on show. You should feel like you are able to share what you want, how you want. It's your experience so you should be free to do whatever you want! Mean comments seem to be inevitable with trolls these days but hopefully you'll find a way to look past them, focus on the good ones and do whatever makes you happy :)

Love Amylou x
http://www.amylous.co.uk

Great post Zoe, you should be so proud of yourself! It all sounds pretty crazy, and I do agree that people need to remember that YouTubers and bloggers are human, just like the rest of us. Keep up the amazing work! :)

http://ciarapocket.blogspot.ie x

Ahhhh you're so adorable! I give you tons of props for you to keep doing what you're doing! You really inspire me to do bigger and better things. It was really brave of you to share your struggles with anxiety, and it inspires me to overcome my personal fears as well! You are amazing :)

This is such a sweet, deep reflection Zoe, and I personally don't like meet-ups – obviously I know I get to meet the girl that made my life a lot easier dealing with panick attacks, however I would much prefer to have a deep conversation with you because I really do think we would get on. If there only there was another idea for a meet-up instead of it being all crazy and security based etc. I love you and all of your work and I inspire how far you have come! I mentioned previously how you helped me deal with my anxiety and panick attacks by knowing I'm not the only person in the world and watching your videos is one of my favourite things to do. I have sent so many tweets, emails and messages in the past and I find you've never replied and by no mean am I blaming you; I know how busy you are and how many messages you receive I just really love you and all of your lovely friends and you have really helped me so THANK YOU!

Those are powerful words, Zoe! Sometimes we (your fans, let's say) forget that you, and also the other guys, are normal people. Talking for myself, it'd be amazing to meet the beautiful girl who sits in front of a camera and talks about fashion and beauty but I know you're still an ordinary girl, because I'm one too.
I don't know, it's really weird because this point of view is from a 'fan', I'm not living the madness, probably a good one, but I can't imagine how I'd be handling it if I was walking in your shoes. I just can say that I'll be supporting you and trying to cheer you up when you're feeling down and you share your feelings with us. And if sometime I meet you, I PROMISE I'll be as calm as I could to make you feel comfortable and not scare you!
I love you so much, you're really important in my life even though you don't know me and I don't know you personally but make sure you're an especial person for me :) x

camstalks.blogspot.com

I completely understand what you're talking about, i feel like youtubers really do just want to chat and talk to every person you possible can who supports you, but everything is so rushed and forced that you never get to do it, in your own time. I really hope you find ways to make meet ups more fun because i know you appreciate every person who has helped you become who you are today. Stay fab Zoe!
love victoriajanexxx

I would LOVE to meet you & your friends more than anything (so please consider visiting Poland ever maybe???) because you are really making me happy, I love watching videos and smile and laugh and even just looking at you, it makes me feel better about myself somehow since I'm suffering from anxiety as well, to the point where I guess I would be frightened to meet you and I wouldn't even go and then I would regret it for the rest of my life, haha. Anyway, I'm glad I found your channel and blog and I hope you'll keep doing this despite the negativity that comes with it, because you're right – at the end of the day it doesn't even matter. You're amazing Zoe and thank you for everything. Joanne.

Hello, Zoe! I've been following you for moths now and you inspired me to do blogging again. I also get panic attacks when I overthink and I care a lot on what people think you of what I write or do. But you changed that. Keep on doing what you love to do. and continue being an inspiration to others! You are a very lovely person. :)

xo,
Lois

P.S. I also have a blog. http://www.twodot-o.com

Can't imagine how you must feel but glad to know you feel overwhelmed and privileged at the same time. There are so many that moan about fame and forget about all the benefits they get out of it. For one ordinary girl, it must be a horror for you sometimes. But it's good to know you do appreciate that people are only screaming for you out of love and hugging you out of joy. Keep strong and don't ever let the negativity get you down. Rosemary x

rosemaryofelephants.blogspot.com

This was a great post Zoe, it was a real eye opener to the reality of the situation. But can i just give my honest opinion and say that i think it's important that you make a video version of this as a larger audience would see it. I just think that there are a lot of young girls out there who get far too hyped up and dare I say obsessed with youtubers and celebrities in general. These people need a reality check. Like how you mentioned girls waiting outside your house, do their parents know what they are doing? Do they realise that what they are doing it borderline stalking. Don't get me wrong, it's ok to admire someone and really want to meet them, but there needs to be a limit. I think the problem has always been there with common celebrities, accept that they were not as accessible. Youtube fame comes from revealing your own personal life which was bound to eventually bring problems. Ok, sorry, rant over! :)

Love this post. I must say I admire your braveness. When I was watching the video from digifest I thought to myself, I wouldn't survive there as a viewer, as a part of the crowd with all that screaming and people and everything.
I really love your stuff and your optimism and big heart.
xoxo
whitelilit.blogspot.com

Hi Zoe, this is such a beautiful post. I 100% agree with what you're saying and will most definitely support you no matter what. Just remember that you're beautiful inside and out and don't forget that! I also suffer from anxiety and understand how you feel. You're truly an inspiration and have made me so much more confident.
Love you.

Gabby xxx
http://perksofthatlifeofmine.blogspot.co.uk

I love how sweet and humble you are. I can, and at the same time can't, understand how overwhelming this all must be for you. I really hope you can enjoy all the awesome things you get to do, because you deserve it. You're a blessing to watch. :)

i love you Zoe, i feel like i will never be able to meet you, because i hate crowds and the noise and i get really stressed when i am in situations like that. I want you to be happy, so you go at your own pace and all of us will follow, . i am so proud of you <3

Loved reading this post and the fact that Louise made a video about the 'YouTube Culture.' After watching various vlogs from both Digifest and ITAtube I did have to stop and wonder why all these people are screaming at you and the rest of the YouTube gang. Obviously it's to show support (because otherwise they wouldn't be there) but if I ever went to a YouTube convention I would much rather be able to chat to the people I subscribe to because they seem more like friends than celebrities.

It's really interesting to hear your view and see how it's affected you as well as the portion of your audience that probably wouldn't scream if they saw you in the street.. but then again, maybe that's to do with the age range of the YouTube community and I think that the majority of the older audience will be able to appreciate the fact that you are a normal person who deserves their time and space.

At the end of the day though, your audience support you and are proud of where you have come. Hopefully in the future these conventions can be made more friendly to accommodate for the friendliness of the community. :)

Wow! Such a great post Zoe! You are amazing. x

I really like this post. I think you are a very nice person that doesn't get to much in to fame. Im so happy for you. You deserve all this! I have seen all of your videos and you always make me feel happy :) everytime I get a notification sayng that Zoella has made another video I get so excited! Thank you for being who you are and for being honest and explain to us what you feel. We are here to support you no matter what. Love you xxxxxx

I love how honest you are about all these things, I think it is amazing because it shows us a new perspective on things and by being so honest you help so many people!
Patrick

patrickjames2205.blogspot.com

Dear Zoe,
I think you did a really great job by putting up this blog post. The other day I was thinking about YouTube celebrity culture (based on a lot of vlogs I saw, people screaming etc.), and at that time Louise put up her video about this topic. It's a good thing that you make your viewers aware of how you experience meetings.

I love your videos and blogposts so so so much, please continue to make such good content and stay true to yourself, your true viewers/readers will always support you =)

Much love from Holland
xxxx

Great post Zoe!! I have never myself been to a meet and great just purely down to my anxiety and panic attacks, and also my inability to stand in a queue with screaming girls (and boys, how stereotypical of me…) without having a panic attack due to my claustrophobia. Then obviously, the anxiety will kick in pretty much as soon as I leave the house and I will just be all over the place!! I think it would just be great if there was just multiple little get-togethers almost but I highly doubt it will happen with all your busy lifestyles haha!! :)
@AllyK0108

This post was very very nice to read and really awesome of you to write. Not many of us have an opportunity to find out how you feel and what you think about all of this stuff that are going on right now in your life. I really appreciate what you do and that you're so brave! I'm proud of you! If I were to meet you I'd cry, hug you and say that I love your videos, your sense of humour and many many other stuff :) I love you and I wish you'll meet only awesome people in your life, see only wonderful places and experience only amazing stuff ;) And remember that you DESERVE all this things that happened\are happening to you. I really think so. Once again.
Kisses and hugs Z. (hope you'll read this + sorry for my mistakes in english)

Marta

Loved this. I can only imagine how crazy everything must be for you and alle the others. Just thinking about it makes me realize that something like that can't be "accepted" from one day to another. Realizing that your own life has changed so much from what it used to be. that isn't easy. Especially if one suffers from anxiety. I do suffer from it as well and it is so nice to hear that there are other people that go through the same. And seeing that they and your are not giving up,is so inspiring. I hope that you'll always find the strength to keep on going, to take a step further and most of all to be happy. That's what I have learnt, although life can be tough,hard or confusing sometimes, there is always something that makes it worth it. That might be friends you can laugh with,family that supports you- no matter what, new opportunities that show us that not giving up always pays off or just a smile from a stranger. That's what I always remember. It's okay to be afraid sometimes, to get overwhelmed by stuff, we are all humans with fears and feelings. As long as you are happy with how you do things, in your own pace you don't need to faster.

I feel sorry for you sometimes Zoe. Even though you have had some incredible experiences and you get the opportunity to do a hell of a lot of fun things I sometimes look at vlogs of youtube conventions (Digifest is a prime example) and feel that people screaming at you is not what you want. Having watched youtube since 2008 I have watched it grow into this crazy 'fandom' and I'm not sure if I like that. All the youtubers I know well really just want to sit around a table with a few people who enjoy their videos and chat and laugh and act like normal friends.
I do think it is the much younger audience of Youtube these days that has elevated certain people up onto pedestals which is totally wrong as it is meant to be a community of equals (a refreshing change from celebrity culture) rather than a god/worshipper set up which I can see it sliding into everyday. Younger people tend not to understand that screaming and shouting at Youtubers is not a way to get there attention. You don't need to stand outside someones door to force them to talk to you (celebrities and youtubers alike) and personally I think that shows an extreme lack of respect for you by a select group of people.

fashionablyunknown.com

Hi Zoe! I truly agree with you in that I think it is awesome that they have these events so we can meet you guys, but I also think that there has to be a way that we can meet you safely, but also not be rushed. I like to talk with you guys, more than just take a picture and get a hug. (Don't get me wrong, I love that!) I want to meet you in person, and with that I think comes talking for a few minutes, not just for 10 seconds. I also don't think that people should get shut out, but I don't want you guys to have to wait for so long. I love meeting you guys, but there has to be a better way of doing it. I also think we as viewers forget that you were kids and teenagers just like us, and weren't always Youtubers. I think that it is awesome that YouTube has blown up like this, but with that comes a lot of challenges. I was watching Louise's video the other day too, and I think she said a lot that was important too. You guys are just normal people that just happen to have millions of people watch your videos. I love so many youtubers, and I love to meet you guys, but when people sit outside your house, I think it has gone too far. Of course you are going to have fans, because you are amazing ;), but we need to come up with a better idea of how to meet you, and not have it get out of hand! I love you Zoe, and I think you are beautiful and fun, so I hope you don't take any of those mean comments to heart! <3

Hi there Zoe. I'm a Psychology undergraduate and next year I get conduct my own Psychological experiment on whatever I want. I'm really interested in how completely 'normal' girls, like yourself, can become hugely famous to the point of as you said, having screaming girls at their door! Not to say you don't deserve the fame, your vlogs are interesting and you are a lovely girl, but none the less most celebrities have specific talents (again not saying you don't have talent, please don't take offence by this!!) Also, a lot of celebrities have a huge helping hand to fame, where you did it yourself, noone helped you. I am thinking of showing a video to participants, one where they think the vlogger is 'youtube famous' and one where they think the individual is just an ordinary girl and comparing their ratings of the person. I want to see if just knowing someone has a lot of followers/subscribers can make you see them as this amazing person, hence the crazy reactions you get.

This post and Louise's recent video inspired me to think about this. Also taking my little cousin to Brighton and her going mental incase she saw you! I think a lot of girls see you as a celebrity, but they can relate more to you. Not every girl can see themselves growing up to be Miley Cyrus, but a lot of girls could think 'hey I can make a blog like Zoella.' Would be interesting to have your insight to this! x

I'm glad you decided to share this with us. It's hard to adapt to the culture that comes with the youtube community. I cringe every time I see people screaming at youtubers, but at the same time I can relate to the feeling of finally meeting someone you look up to. I think youtube conventions should center around doing events that instead of putting youtubers as celebrities that go on stage and sign stuff, they lead fun activities where everyone gets to do something fun all at once (like games and stuff). Queuing for hours to take a picture or just attending a live Q&A just don't seem to be the best way to celebrate the youtube community.

What a great post :) I am honestly so happy for you because you're happy in your life and at the end of the day that's the most important thing. You really shouldn't mind those who think that things are not going the way they expected them to go and make the most of the opportunities that you get. Because anyone would do it! Don't feel bad for being where you are and doing something you love as your job, you've worked hard to get here. Over the years of work and commitment to youtube and your blog you've build an audience that enjoys watching and reading your stuff :) And I do think that lately the conventions you guys are going to and youtube in general has become huge and some people quickly forget that at the end of the day you're just a normal girl, a human. So I think it's not ok for them that they wait for you in front of your house. I do understand that they really want to meet you but there are some boundaries. You show us a part of your life you want and that we should be grateful for that and not trying to see the part you want to keep private. Because you're in no way obligated to us and to allow us to see what we do is so much more than any of us would do. So just stay true to yourself, do what you love to do and be happy :) Looking forward to seeing what 2014 has in store for you :)

Thank you so much for this post :)

Polona :) xx

maybe it's that british stiff upper lip, ;) but you always come across as so composed, confident and polished. as someone who struggles with anxiety, i cannot imagine how much of an impact all this must make, and i'm further impressed by how incredibly well you shield the audience from any inner turmoil you might experience from time tot time. i'll admit here and there i've had a dream i met you and louise for froyo and shopping, because i so look forward to your videos, but seeing people cheer and cry (more than a thousand at once!) is intense. thanks for sharing, and SO excited for this mysterious new phase in your life! congrats and good luck!

<3 your fan angela

This is why I love you Zoe. You admit you are not perfect and certainly don't take your amazing career and life for granted – you work so hard and definitely deserve the popularity you have. You should be so proud of what you have achieved. I love watching your videos and reading your blog posts. You always brighten up my day and your videos have helped me through a lot and taught me very valuable lessons, like to just say yes! People (including me) just need to remember that you are a normal person too and it must be so overwhelming for you, which just isn't fair. Thank you for making my life a little brighter – keep doing what you're doing and people will continue to love you for who you are and the fact that you are just a normal girl like the rest of us.
Love Polly xxxx

This must have been really difficult to write, but you did it so well. Well done for indicating where you think the boundaries are, nobody would enjoy that.

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It's so good that you're honest about this, as we do get one side of you most of the time. It's important for us to be reminded of the fact that you're human, like us. Which is in a way also inspiring, just as inspiring as your videos and stuff. You do make me really very happy, and I hope I can somehow also contribute to your and others happiness :)

I've been watching YouTube for a few years now and it's absolutely crazy how popular they have gotten recently. I'm so proud of you Zoe and I really mean it when I say that you have changed my life! Love you so much xxxxx

I've had a lot of thoughts about this kind of thing, I'm obviously not a part of it in the way that you are and it does make me wonder how you handle it so thank you for sharing this.
I find it bizarre how 'Youtuber fame' has become a thing that is acknowledged out in the real world and not just online. I used to watch a lot of Youtubers when I was in school and I'd occasionally mention it to people and they'd be all "what are you talking about?!" and now, 4-5 years later, it's all people are talking about!
I certainly don't think I would be able to manage if I were in your shoes. I'm a very shy person and even writing and sharing a blog is scary for me so I do think you're very brave and it's understandable why so many young girls look up to you. You're actually part of the reason I started my blog, so thank you!

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You are amazing Zoe and such an inspiration not letting your anxiety take control any more <3

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I have been watching youtubers for a few years now, and its so crazy how popular they have gotten recently. I'm so proud of you Zoe and I really mean it when I say that you have changed my life! Thankyou so much, love you xxxxxx

This is very touching Zoe, and I truly appreciate the fact that you are not afraid to talk about your anxiety and panic attacks, as it can really help other people. You said that 'we' are the most important, which is very lovely, but I must say that I don't necessary agree with it. Zoe, you and your wellbeing is the most important thing; therefore you shouldn't feel bad if you are unable to see/talk to your viewers, or make to a meet-up etc,. It is really fine to take time off to relax and reflect, especially if you are leaving a very busy life style. Please take care :)

It's very nice of you that you cherish your audience enough to share things like that with us. I find that some people just forget that behind camera the audience is also the people :). Love you Zoella and I wish you the best!

This was a great post Zoe. It's kind of weird for me to even post a comment, I mean, you don't know me and I don't know you. I read lots of your posts and seen lots of your videos, you are like we say in French "un rayon de soleil". You're always so smiley and enthusiastic and I certainly don't want you to lose that because of some people. I'm dealing with anxiety myself and I know how difficult it can be… Sometimes even meeting your closest friends is hard. You cannot do much about that but fight yourself. I can only imagine how you must be fighting a lot sometimes for being able to be in crowds like you do !! I respect and admire you a lot for this. You sometimes seems so tiny and fragile but you have a bunch of friends who all seem adorable and amazing so I'm sure it's going to be easier and easier. Even if it's sometimes overwhelming, one day you're going to wake up and all your fears will disappear because I'm pretty sure you're a strong woman in the inside and that will come out ! Dealing with panic attacks isn't great but it shouldn't stop you from doing what you want to do, live your life Zoe, people do need to learn that there are limits, you're a human and you want your tranquility, it's not because they see you on youtube or they read you that you belong to them. You only belong to yourself and I hope you're keep doing as well as you're doing, cause girl, you're doing SO GREAT !

Don't ever doubt that you have an impact on our life because you do ! And don't worry about not being able to meet everyone, you're already giving so much to us, I don't really know how you could more!

Keep going, keep enjoying what you're doing and we'll keep watching and reading you !

Clémentine xx
(Sorry about all the mistakes, but I have two good excuses : first of all, I'm one of your many readers/viewers from France and it's not that easy for me to write in English and second of all your post really touched me so I'm kind of emotional right now haha)

I loved this post Zoe, I'm really glad that you still consider this a hobby and not just a job. I do think a lot of people need to realize that you and the other youtubers are just normal people, just like us but you have had different opportunities and I think that goes for a lot of celebs too! I can't imagine going to town and being recognized so I can't imagine how you feel! It must be crazy! I really like chatty posts to be honest. Thanks for always making my day a little bit brighter!! xx

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A lovely post Zoe. It's crazy how the 'YouTube culture' has grown. Nevertheless, you're a brilliant person and we all love you.

Megan xxx
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Love this! So honest xxx

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"Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" – my favourite part of this insanely moving blog post!

I respect you so much for writing this, Zoe. It must have been really hard to get it all down on paper (or screen). Sometimes, as viewers, it is hard to remember that you're a normal person living a normal life and it's so important for us to do just that – to let you LIVE a normal life.

You were my first subscription and you will be the last person I stop watching. You create amazingly entertaining content and I wish you every success in the future.

Lots of love, Hannah xxx

People don't actually realise how much of your life and privacy go into being a full time blogger. So much respect goes out to you Zoe! It must so difficult to keep up with the excitement
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Zoe you really are an inspiration, watching you while you achieve so much, going on great adventures really do make my day. This post brought a tear to my eye & I'm going to start saying YES to more & am going to be more adventurous, be brave & put myself out there. I'm pretty sure im a Youtube Addict, and you were the first youtuber i watched, and have enjoyed your videos since day 1, they're funny, and just generally enjoyable, never stop what your doing, YOU ARE DOING GREAT.
your an inspiration to us all and to me you inspired me to start my own youtube channel, please would you check it out? https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC92mujgs_qwG8AQmDhF5-3A
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Great post! Hope it helped you to clear your head :)

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So this is what I'd wanted to tell you at ItaTube, this and your opinion whether I should've bought or not the new YSL Kiss&Blush (I did). And I wanted to compliment with you because you were wearing shorts & a hat and I know you're usually not comfortable in those clothes, and to ask what did you use on your hair because it looked a-ma-zing and to fangirl with you about Harry Styles. Instead of the hug-picture-bye I wanted to chat with you as I would chat to a friend, because I consider you as this, a friend, not as a celebrity or a VIP.

Now excuse this ramble but I just wanted to tell you that
a) I agree with you 100%
b) I know, we know, that all of the bad things are not your fault
c) but I think we, viewers and YouTubers, should stop looking with nostalgia at the good ol' days and embrace with excitement and support this new mega thing YouTube is becoming, trying to sort everything out together.

You probably won't read this, but I hope anyway you know that I'm happy for you, I support you and you're the one to blame if I have something like 20 bright lipsticks in my stash now.

xx
Linda

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You're so real Zoe, and honest and it makes me feel like we're friends even though I've never met you! I watch your videos and read your blogs and sometimes it's so easy to forget that you are real, and normal! Everyday you inspire me to be a better person and to say YES to more things! Thankyou for everything you do for us. I love you, which is strange, but ah well xx

I know how you feel to have anxiety…I'm the only one in my class that will snap into a nervous breakdown, just because I get a maths question wrong, or gets stressed and worried about the littlest things! Reading this you talk about digifest I get a little tear in my eye that I can't see you there, since we live in Australia and we can't just pick up and go to Britain or America anytime soon, and commenting to get youtubers attention seems to wear me down, knowing that there never gonna answer (you to Zoe) I don't want to be negative here, and I love hearing about how you feel about seeing everyone's smiling faces lighting up as they see you!! I wanna be one of those people, I'm just requesting that you please come to Australia, Adelaide. It would mean the world to see you, and the gang down here and I bet you would enjoy it to! :) please could you give me a little follow back on Instagram please my name is _amby_eve_parky and Zoe your super nice, pretty and smart don't forget that!! <3 i love you!!

Aww, definitely shed a tear or two while reading this! I'm so happy for you. :)

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You were one of the first bloggers I ever came across, and honestly you have every right to be incredibly proud of your success, but also incredibly scared. Like you, I just started blogging to have an outlet away from university, and I want to have a career in journalism so I can be behind the camera, and behind the articles. So it must be super scary to suddenly have your blog world become your real world. Personally, I've never been to a meet up, and I wouldn't either. At 20, I find that I may be too old for that, right? But either way, the YouTube videos I watch are for a good giggle on the way to work, or when I need a make-up tutorial, but for you, it is your life. And regarding your anxiety, try and take complete time away from it, shut down your life for a week and go away with friends and family and have complete 'you' time.

I know how you feel when it comes to people thinking you're the same person on the inside. Where you have serious anxiety but people think you're so confident, I am such a loud and gobby person, that people think they can say what they want to me and it really hurts my feelings. We're all the same at the end of the day, and you should just remember that you have wonderful people around you

Vicky xx
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The whole thing is crazy, but you and your group and other YouTubers are a new brand of celebrity that has never existed before. It's a homemade self-produced thing that has grown bigger and bigger and bigger. Not too long ago, there was no such thing as blogging and vlogging and making a great income and becoming a celebrity through that. However, now that it has happened, it is a new way for people to engage with each other and in media. It only sucks because it feels that you guys are not as easy to relate to. Right now, my boyfriend and I are attempting to break into blogging and YouTube and making some wonderful friends along the way, but because of the way it is structured now, we would never be able to reach out to you or Louise, for example, and get tips and tricks the way we can with other smaller bloggers and vloggers.

I can see how this is more than you bargained for, but the Gleam team is truly making history!
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I can't even imagine all the feelings and emotions you feel when you step out to see a huge crowd of people like that! I would probably want to curl up into a little ball yet also stand up on that stage in confidence. We all wish we could experience something like at some point in our lives and sometimes we are so in awe of all the perfect things you do that we forget that your just a normal person behind that screen. It takes a lot of courage to do all these things like post a video of yourself and lose a lot of your privacy but I want to thank-you Zoe for doing all these things and making us smile every time you post a video. You inspire a lot of people Zoe :)

Loved this post zoe!
i really like that this "subject" has been pulled up!

Zoella, you are a huge inspiration to not only me but many people around the world, and I want you to know that you have all of our best wishes! Whatever you decide to do with your life, is ultimately your choice, and you have your viewers full support! Keep up with the work you are doing, you are doing a fantastic job handling all the stress in your life, and don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise! Really wish I could meet you someday, you seem like a great friend :)

Love, Anjuli

This is so cute, you are such a great person, i am from the other side of the world so i couldn't meet you but i love you so much no matter what. I love this srsly.

I think it's so important to remind people, that there is always one side people show on the internet. So many people think that there's just this happy, perfect person without problems. I suffer from anxiety too and everytime I see these meetup videos I have so much respect for you, it must be so hard to deal with it! You're an amazing person, enjoy what you're doing then everyone will enjoy watching you <3

So, I've met you twice, actually! The first time was 2013 March in Orlando and we were at a Disney Park. I couldn't get tickets for PlayList but Alfie knocked me over and it was probably the best thing ever cos I got to meet you, Alfie, Caspar, and Louise! Unfortunately, you were all in a rush so I couldn't talk to any of you.

The second time I met you was at DigiTour in Philadelphia (2013 October). I had meet & greets and had given you Japanese sweets and a letter. Unfortunately, I was one of the people that was taken to the hospital. I don't actually remember anything from the meet and greet or that night. From what I am told, I had a massive anxiety attack at the show because it was very crowded and girls around us were very rude and I was later shoved down. (I hit my head and passed out). I was talking to my friend, who went with me, trying to jog my memory of that night, and she told me that we waited outside in the blistering heat for ages and the security team weren't very kind and when we got inside, they rushed everyone. The meet and greet was more of a "say hello and get a picture" sort of thing and the employees were very impatient and rude. As soon as we took a photo, they would tell us to leave. My friend and I travelled from three states away and we ended up queuing for most of the day. I hope this gives you an insight as to what meet and greets were like in Philly!

I feel as if there is this massive assumption that meet and greets are supposed to be chances for us to have a chat and get to know each other but in reality, it really isn't like that. Although it is disappointing, because you have such a massive number of viewers, it just isn't possible for any of you to sit down and get to know us (as much as I know you would like to). The meet and greets that JacksGap and FunForLouis have done in Hyde Park seem very casual and welcoming. Although that would make your trip to London very time-consuming and exhausting, it'd be nice to see more of those. I ope this isn't awfully wrong and this gives you a better insight as to how meet and greets have look like from the side of the screen.

I'll be in London from June 5-10 and I'm wondering if you will be in the area? I'd really like another chance of meeting you (and actually remembering it).

Lana x

Love this post! I've been reading your blog/watching your videos since pretty much day 1 purely because you are such a lovely and warm 'normal' person who I find it really easy to relate to. Looking back it's crazy now to see how huge you've become. I am super happy and proud that you've become such a big success but I don't know how you cope with some of your 'fan girls', they all seem very lovely but very overwhelming at the same time! As a 21 year old I'm not somebody who would ever attend one of these Youtuber events and if I did would certainly not be screaming lol but I guess you (and a lot of other Youtubers!) have turned into major celebrities in these teenagers eyes. I'm really not surprised though as you are such a lovely person :).
Good luck with everything, I'm sure this is probably just the beginning for you xx

Zoe,

You are literally living the dream life at this point in time. I admire your tenacity in dealing with your growing "celeb" status and popularity. Thank you for being honest. You're truly one of a kind. I hope I can meet you some day.
Stay fabulous :)

omg this is such a beautiful post and really lets us see what goes through your mind. I love how you can talk to us about this stuff, it makes us feel as if we're your best friends!!!
ily zoe x

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I love you so much Zoe even when I don't know you I know you're incredible and you've done an amazing job, honestly you reeeeeaaally deserve it

I think it is so good that you did this post! I can't imagine how hard it must be trying to put a brave face on all this stuff, even in some of your vlogs it sometimes looks a little too much to handle! I think that its great that you are comfortable being who you are, and I think to a certain extent there are some boundaries that viewers and fans shouldn't cross, but saying that it must be hard to say no to people in the street! I think reminding people that you are just an normal person is so positive, and just allows viewers and readers to maybe think how crazy this must all be for you! I think you are hugely inspirational! xx

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Bravo Zoe! Well said!
I've watched the videos of many of the meet ups that yourself and the other youtubers post over the years from casual meetups in a field/park to crazy places like digifest and playlist etc and I honestly don't know how you guys do it! Although it must be amazing to have generated such an insane fanbase over the years, I can imagine it comes with its pressure and expectations which would be hard to cope with and especially make one anxious. I sometimes think how it would be so cool to start making my own videos and think of how amazing the opportunities you all have from doing so, but then I think similar to what you have wrote, that you are just normal people like us all and that even simple things for me like going to the shops is fine, I'm sure for you guys you get photos taken or bothered by people constantly which must get tiring, especially if you're having a bad day and in a rubbish mood, having to constantly be the happy bubbly Zoe that we all see on camera must be hard to keep up in reality at times, I don't mean that in a bad/bitchy way, I just mean like what you said about that's just the youtube side of it and that people forget there's the everyday side and that if people were to approach you, you couldn't be like "please can you go away I don't want a photo I'm in a rubbish mood" because you'd feel bad and result in both you and the viewer being upset. I honestly feel for you and the others at times, it must be so difficult.
I think this post needed to be written as some people understand it without you having to explain but then there's younger audiences who might not understand it yet and this has probably explained it more to them :)
I must admit, I did laugh at one of your videos from Universal and some girls had come to meet you and one or two were crying, I think it's sweet don't get me wrong but to make such an impact on a person to the point where they cry infront of you haha, must be crazy! But ringing your doorbell?! that's just a step way too far, like almost stalker levels of crazy,no the wonder you'd be so stressed out because I would be!
I noticed from the ITATube vlog how you mentioned being poorly, I did think I bet Zoe gets a lot of comments about you not being able to meet people, I hope you didn't get any hassle! But if you did then I think that's appalling, your fans need to remember that you're not a superhero, you're not invincible, you can't always be on top form 24/7 you're going to have days when you are poorly etc and although it's unfortunate for them, they need to remember that you're only human. Another thing I've stumbled upon over the years is even on this blog, when you did a post and mentioned how people had been arsey with you because you hadn't posted in a while? People honestly need to get a grip! haha. They should be doing something more productive with their time instead of sending you hate and waiting on your every move and judging when you don't do something that pleases them, Yawn! haha.
Anyway I'll finish this dissertation of a response (haha!) and just say to keep your head up and that anxiety or no anxiety, you inspire so many people for being yourself (4mill to be precise ;) ) and that is obviously for a reason because you are fab at what you do and how proud we all are of you challenging yourself by saying Yes to more things which has created so many fantastic memories for you :D

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You've been an inspiration. I always dreamnt about fly away and living in England (I'm from Argentina), and with this post and the one where you explain about going to Brighton, you really inspired me to follow my dream. Hope you read this and know how you are an inspiration all around the world. I'm so happy ive met you.

You are such a genuine person! It is so nice to hear your own thoughts. I also struggle with anxiety and panic attacks and to hear that one of my favorite youtubers has it helps me feel a little less strange. Thank you so much for being you! :)

I wish people didn't freak out over all of you guys so much!
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Thanks Zoe for sharing your thoughts with us, though I cant primarily say that I belong in the numbers of people that can be readily able to show the squeal of delight at your shows when you do meet ups because here in the other side of the world you are highly appreciated and enjoyed by your fans too no matter the distance. I have always beared in mind that popular people are just normal beings too that may experience same things as everyone else. Sometimes I do feel sorry for you guys too because there are time that anxiety,fears and other things are overlooked at some point because others think you are invincible. I am so proud of all your achievements and for pushing yourself to the point of slowly breaking out of your comfort zone. You are so well relatable and I do hope that this can send a smile to your face. Keep that ray of shine on you and never let any one dull it.

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Great post! I'd love to see you (although I'm so far away from you, looking forward to see you one day in Taipei: ) and I'd also love to chat to you, tell you that how much happiness you have brought to me and whenever I get down or need some confidence boost I'd watch your videos, because it just makes me all better and happier. You are magic! But also you are a ordinary person who's just like a friend chatting to me online, that's why I like you so much! It shocked me as well to see that your subscribers have grown to over 4 millions, that's insane! Your attraction is unstoppable. Please do not let any of these change who you are and what you do, you are what you are, be the happiest person you can be!

Love you
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Effy

This post goes hand in hand with what Louise said in her YouTube Culture video. It's so strange because youtubers are just regular people that most of the time started because they needed somewhere to focus their energies, to escape from whatever was happening in their life. And somehow as more and more people discovered youtubers there's been this weird fangirl/celebrity aspect to it. I really hope that organisers of these events listen to you guys and try to make the events a bit more normal – having hundreds/thousands of teenagers screaming at you must be absolutely awful, especially because you suffer from anxiety.

Also is there anything you can do security-wise about the girls sitting outside your building? That's so creepy – I'd even be scared to leave my house if that was me.

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As someone who has been watching YouTuber's for almost eight years I definitely noticed the shift in popularity and it shocked me. People with a million subscribers a few years ago still were just kids in their rooms filming videos, just a lot of people liked their videos and that seemed to be all there was to it. It's definitely a celebrity-status kind of thing now, which I find scary to watch in vlogs.
I'm glad you shared these thoughts, Zoe. I really feel for you having to deal with people outside of your own home, I can't imagine what that feels like.
Keep doing what you're doing girl, cause we all love and appreciate it.

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This is written so well, and it goes hand in hand with Louise's video. Sometimes I really don't know how you (or any other "big" youtuber/blogger) can deal with the thousands of screaming people (I'd probably run away and cry because people are scary!) You all deal with it so well *claps* Xx

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I have to say I love this post. I just recently started a blog and while I have been influenced by youtubers and bloggers like you, I like to think that I started it because of me and just wanting to share my thoughts instead of seeing it as a way to become "famous". It would be fabulous if I could ever get the type of following that you have, but I have to say that I would seem pretty weird to me because it's not like I do anything out of the ordinary on my blog, I just think it would be nice to have so many people value my opinions. I have to say, I have been watching your videos for quite some time and I have always felt a little uncomfortable about the way I sometimes view you as a celebrity. I have the upmost respect for what you do and the passion that you have for it, but sometimes I have to agree, you really are just one normal girl and thats what I really love about your videos and blogs, its just like talking to a really good friend. Congratulations on your success and I am looking forward to what you create in the future. :)

this is the best post you have ever done! It made me cry just from reading it! I love reading your blogs and love your videos. I know that sometimes the fandom can get out of control. I have never met any of you but just my sitting in my bed I can tell you that I know what you mean by that because I am a complete fangirl. Obviously waiting outside for you and things like that are things I would never do because I know you have a private life and I respect that. I don't know why, we the fans, look up to you guys. It is probably because you guys make our day and we just see you as the best thing in our lives. This definitely has opened my eyes, you are such a huge inspiration and we support you.

I've never met you or going to youtube convention before but I really really really want to. I'll give you the best hug when I meet you. :)
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I spend a lot of time watching youtube so you really feel like you know the people you're watching but i would never go to a meetup or event with youtubers because its all too much to handle. I don't get why people have to scream and push and cry over you guys you are just normal people. I know they are excited to see you, i would be too but i think it just makes the other person uncomfortable. You wouldn't do that to your real life friends would you? just start screaming and crying. If i did that to my friends they would be like "whats wrong with you? get a grip" and probably never talk to me again. Great post zoe I'm glad people are addressing this occurrence in the youtube community.

Love this blog!! I love reading and watching your blogs/vlogs!! This is very honest and true! I don't obviously know how it is for you guys, but I can only imagine. The fact that you and Joe and ur friends stay true to yourselves and are still normal people despite the popularity is what I admire the most. That is what I enjoy the most, successful and famous people who are still just human being and normal and down to earth!! Of course there's always going to be people who are rude and disagree, but like you said "the people who mind, don't matter and the people who matter don't mind". I do wish that despite the increase of people getting into YouTubers would be more mellow and chilled during meets and greets, it would definitely make it a whole lot easier on everyone overall. In fact to any conventions, meet and greet or concerts period. I definitely will be one of your many supporters and will remain for a very long time. :) ������

It probably would have been a good idea to film from a "fake house" like the Kardashians do. Now people have figured out where you live. They should not be waiting on your door step, but they're obsessed. Hope you rented and can move soon. Secretly!

I love reading your posts so much. I feel like your written words come right from your heart. You are a role model for so many young girls. Whatever people say, you should never forget that you worked so hart for all the things you achieved. I would love to read some more posts again, if you can find some time.

Hundreds of safe virtuell hugs!
Caro

Great post! I love reading your stories like this. I love all your videos and blog posts and as long as you keep making them, i'll keep supporting you :)
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A lovely post as always! <3 I have anxiety myself and you have helped me through many difficult times in my life, thank you so much! You have helped me to understand that it is okay feel insecure and overwhelmed sometimes and you have inspired me to push my boundaries! You are such a loving and inspiring person and I want you to stay like that <3 I flew to florida for playlist live all the way from Denmark to meet you for the very first time. On the day of the meet up there were so many people that I had a panic attack and the security would let me out of the crowd so I could breath because it was so overwhelming. In the end i didn't get to meet you and that made me so sad because it was the only reason why i flew to florida and I am very afraid of flights so that was difficult in itself for me. I saw how overwhelming it was and I understand you fully! <3 I hope that one day i will have the courage to go to a convention to meet you! I love you so much and you are such an inspiration<3

LOts of love from Celine in Denmark <3

Thank you so much!

Hi Zoe,

Very down to earth, genuine, and well said post.
I think that fact that you are just an ordinary girl and this has happened from a hobbie, is an inspiration to all of us other ordinaries to follow the things we love the most also, because who knows where it can lead :) .

Also just to provide my point of view as a audience member, the more I watch of your videos, the more I get to know you essentially, and feel like you are my friend! The theme of the video is just a medium to see your personality – which is why so many of us are attracted to you, we can see you are an amazing, likable and genuine person who would be a worthy friend in a real interaction (but all we can do to say we are your friend, and support you as one, is subscribe). It's a shame that the 'friendship' is so one sided, but that's just how it works and that's fine. My point is maybe that's why people get so excited to see you when they do, like seeing a long lost friend :) how could I possible ignore you if I saw you walking down the street!.

You are in a great position in terms of the little youtube unit of very close friends and family that can understand your exact position and all support each other. You also sound like you are beginning to deal with the haters better which is fantastic to hear, remember bullying is never about you, they have got their own problems and you (and other youtubers) unfortunately can just be an outlet for them.
Stay strong, you rock!

p.s. Your hair is forever amazing ^.^
Rebecca xox

'Those who mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind’, an excellent quote. Although I cannot relate to you on a personal level, I’ve been to several events involving YouTubers (link to my blog below) and I admire your patience and how you manage to stay calm at these gatherings, while at the same time being in a state of anxiety. I can only imagine what it must feel like to have the power to influence an audience of millions of people around the world while having to cope with the negativity and pressure that comes with it.

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I've never been to a meet up because I live in Puerto Rico aka Narnia but I'm planning on going to Playlist Live 2015 and I really really hope I can go i love you so much zoe and I would love to meet you. loved this post btw

thoroughly read the whole thing and I am definite that people teared up at one point or another, such true words, such strong emotions! No way to explain how this post makes me feel, but it's relatable in a weird way, however, know ONE THING. You deserve it, inevitably. </3 love you! http://pechueliar.blogspot.com/

I wrote a little response to this and Louise's video (http://www.theperksofbeingahipster.com/2014/05/the-youtuberblogger-community-thoughts.html) but basically, I agree completely – it must be really weird that one day you were just writing about carboot sales and commenting on other people's blogs and next minute you're on stage with people screaming! Haha! I hope people still blog/Youtube because they want to (I do) not because they want to be famous (Which I don't – it looks terrifying!) and can just support you and your friends in a positive way!
The perks of being a hipster

If you don't want people outside of your house, why did you make it so obvious where you live?

Wow such an amazing personal post. So well written too. Your opportunities must be amazing and having to push that brave confident face all the time must be hard and you seem to be doing the most amazing job at it.
So incredible how you've faced your anxiety and try and not let it stop you, very inspirational!!

DarlingSophie

Sorry you have anxiety issues. Many others do. It is too bad others cannot respect you and your space.
Realize there are many of us hoping you continue to succeed in whatever roads you take.

Loved the sincerity in this post. And keep doing what you love Zoe c:

WOW! Such an inspiration. It truly is amazing how far you've come. Iv only just started blogging, and your blog has to be one of the most inspirational blogs ever!! I love that your just an ordinary girl, just like me, sitting here watching come dine with me! I wish you all the best!
A
http://oldromantics.blogspot.co.uk

Hi Zoe, I can completely understand what you are talking about as I too suffer with anxiety and recently in Sydney I went to a meetup where I waited 7 hours to meet the beautiful Troye in the hot sun (I ended up with some interesting tan lines…) outside. It was extremely long and there were so many people and it was so crowded. By the 7th hour when my friend Susannah and I finally got into the room after my other friend Juliette had to leave as she felt very overwhelmed and poorly we waited once again until we finally got to meet Troye… for about 30 seconds. It was truly amazing to meet him although I do sometimes feel regret and maybe that I shouldn't have bothered to wait if I only talked to him as lovely as he is for such a short amount of time. Not to mention more than 100 people had to be turned away and some were crying and were upset as we had to wait so long! I totally understand how you feel and as a viewer if I ever had the chance to meet you or any other incredible youtuber I would want it to be chatty and genuine and not just a 30 second meet. I think it would be nice to find a way in which we could all connect without everything becoming so dramatic and overwhelming! Thank you so much for this blog post and I love you very much xxx Evangeline <3

I have been such a huge fan of yours since the day I stumbled across your blog while searching for ideas for my 21st birthday in google.

Today is my 23rd birthday – and the cake (chocolate with berries!) that I found on your blog so long ago still resonate in my heart. I know it isn't the same as the girls that follow you for the product reviews etc – of course I enjoy those too but my favorite things from you is just general lifestyle… to see you as a normal girl. Not promoting anything – just living, moving into your own cool little place in Brighton, showing us the sweet decor you bought, cuddling your pets.

I think people often forget that people like you (and in absolutely no reference or comparison to you,) Kate Moss, Keira Knightley etc etc.. are all normal human beings too. I can't imagine how weird it must feel – in a way I am muddled with emotions for you. On one side I'm so proud and excited at what blogging has done for you – but at the same time I completely sympathize that you just want a normal night out with friends sometimes too.

Girls standing outside of your house and waiting for you to leave – it's just creepy harassment and a complete invasion of your person space and I'm sorry people do things like that to you. They are probably just so excited as they look at you as an idol – but hopefully this beautiful and honest post will help to tone it down.

I've been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks since the age of 12 and you're words have truthfully helped me so much along the few years that I have been a follower – so thank you for that. I am so appreciative and look up to you so much.

Well done for speaking out.

Sending you much love, light, strength and happiness x

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zoe's so down to earth and inspiring x

LauraThinksAbout

You're my inspiration, Zoe! Perfect idol! It was so nice reading this. :)

Lots of love,
Whoopeesaurus
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Zoe, I can't even imagine what struggles you face with all these new and crazy opportunities you face everyday, I know I personally find it hard to attend my Uni classes because I can get too worked up. Your videos (one in particular) actually helped me realise my own battles with anxiety – and reading this post I can relate all too well. It's hard and difficult but if we lived adhering to our problems/ bad traits we would not be living at all. As someone who suffers from anxiety I totally understand the trepidations you may have starting new things/ accepting opportunities as amazing as they may sound. That being said – I'm proud. You are living for yourself and battling your anxieties. Good for you. Its these small personal victories that can be the largest and I'm so happy that you are allowing and pushing yourself to do so. Keep doing you, and I hope the future takes you to great places :)

xxx Lauren

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I almost never leave a comment, but I really appreciate you being open about your anxiety and panic attacks, because when I saw your video about a week ago I felt so thankful. I suffer from axiety and panic attacks to, almost identical to yours almost and it made me feel less alone knowing someone else experience the same thing. So, Thanks you!

Zoe, I'm so happy of all that you've accomplished and the success you have received, it is well and truly deserved! I love how you still remain down to earth and grounded even after you've been though and accomplished. I agree and do think it is important to remember how you started and that even though you are incredible successful, bloggers and YouTubers are still 'humans', it's lovely to read about all the adventures your life has and I hope there are many more to come,
Best Wishes x
FashionableF00dBlog

Hi Zoe, I completely understand what you are saying. I have avoided ever going to a meet up or convention because I am afraid of the other people there. Being in large crowds makes me very nervous, and I worry that I would be disappointed by not getting to spend time with you. For now, watching your wonderful videos is enough for me :)

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Ticketed meet ups – safer for all involved (although maybe not ideal)? Book a conference room in a hotel but only allow 200 people. Don't disclose location (only to ticket holders). I agree it's got to the point where 'hey im here come meet outside XYZ' isn't an option anymore! If people harass you at home, call the police. That is not ok!

You have done a very amazing job with coping with all that's going around in your life. You're a really strong girl who has done so much to inspire different people around the globe. You deserve so much respect!!

Skeen x

wow great I have read many articles about this topic and every time I learn something new i don’t think it will ever stop always new info , Thanks for all of your hard work!
House For Sale

I am so excited to know what these new things are.. it kind of seems like Zoe means stuff quite outside of Youtube. I wonder what it is! Clothing? Acting? SINGING? Options are new and endless for Youtubers these days. It's amazing to have started reading Zoe's blog in 2009 and now see where she and her friends have gone.. It's amazing and entirely new, and since it's new there's yet to be ways to fix problems yet.. but perhaps the flaws in this new youtuber fame system will work its way out. This happened in all sorts of eras when something was so new no one knew how to deal! (take beatle mania perhaps?) .. anyways this has been a total rant. I loved this post Zoe :) x
Emily Lavenders

This was a lovely post and I understand the things you talked about so much better now! Thank you! I'm in tears when reading this and I can only imagine how you must be feeling with all this. I think that we sometimes put too much pressure on you guys and I'm sure it can be quite overwhelming for you. Lots of love from Finland! xx

This is just so amazingly honest!

Since there never was a meet and greet in germany and i seem to be too busy to get out of here, and i really hate big crowds (I mostly kind of freak out when I am between such an amount of people) I didn't get to meet you yet. I would love to though!
I understand that this can be really hard but I feel like you are such an inspiration since you seem so brave, doing so many things even though they might scare you off at first. And being so honest about this is not something people do easily, just like that.
You are a great person, Zoe, and that is the reason for so many people to watch your videos, read you blogposts and just catch up on what you let us know about yourself next.

We love you, and as longs as you keep that in mind, I hope that nothing will ever be able to scare you off, even though it may seem hard.
I just wanted you to know that.

such a lovely post Zoe, really enjoyed reading it xx

I praised your content and writing style that is eye-catching, I admit you web content is perfect as you want to described Pakistani dresses, I am sure there are some more enjoyable opportunities ahead for individuals who read carefully your post.

I have anxiety and panic attacks really badly, and one thing I have learnt is that you can never let it bring you down no matter how bad it is. When I watch the videos you make, I feel like I can do anything with my life and not let anxiety stop me from doing what I wanna do. If you can pull through it, why not me or somebody else? <3 x

This is great!! It not only helped me to see how big a blog could actually grow to be, but its also great to let people know that you're a person just like everyone else. Its never fun feeling uncomfortable in your own home. Hope people learn to give you some personal space!!

Best,
Christina x
TheDanceGrad.com

I really enjoyed reading this.

Watching vlogs of the meetups has always made me feel somewhat awkward. Being a 22-year-old young adult it is really hard for me to understand how these little girls look up to you guys almost like you're some god-like creatures. I don't think I've ever really idolised anyone in such a passionate way and it just feels really weird to see people almost like hyperventilating when they get to see you. Reading about people actually waiting around your homes and listening to your conversations through hotel doors makes me think that these fans really do not know the boundaries and they probably should simmer it down a little. The begging for follows on instagram and twitter is also quite nuts, when people seem to be dedicating their spare time to trying to get you to follow them . There's no real interaction, they're just wishing a person who doesn't even know them would start following them.

Don't get me wrong, it's definitely good for these young girls (and boys) to have someone like you to look up to. But in general the fangirling culture today seems so intense that I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around it. Especially with youtubers, since mostly they are just average people filming their life, thoughts and routines – just like everyone else, only making it public by putting it on youtube.

This came out maybe a bit more negative than I first intended. But I just feel like I could probably never get over the overwhelmingness because I don't think I could ever understand why it is such a huge thing to these hysterical fans.

I think you deserve every bit of fame you've achieved! You're such a great beauty blogger, my favourite to be honest! It does make me sad to hear that people would go so far as to actually ring your doorbell multiple times or wait for you to come out. I wouldn't know how to act to that and you're honestly such a strong person. Even though I don't know you personally I know you're such a lovely person and I hope your rollercoaster only goes up as that is just what you deserve!x

i think i speak not only for myself when i say that i love knowing that you have flaws, that's usually what i love most about my friends, that they are flawed, it what makes them unique. i'm kinda like you, i've never had an anxiety quite as bad as yours but i've been in such sad and lonely phases through my teen years that i can relate; We get attached to people because they are just like us, we like you because we recognize ourselves in you (hello you asked for a psychologist? haha), you are inspiring because you're doing all these things in spite of your problems and idk every time you write articles like this, you become more "like us", more "human" and that's bloody reassuring and personnally it makes me happy to know you're happy and you're afraid at the same time (that's more weird that i thought it would …) , it reminds me of when i take the plane and i think "i don't ever want to feel like this is nothing to fly above clouds" :)

Wow this post literally gave me chills. I mean for you to get this oppertunity is amazing but i get that it is hard sometimes especially when you have anxiety. I hope you will be alright and take your time to do things don't rush things because it is not good for you. You should really take your time and just know that me and all the other viewers will always hold your hand and we will always be there to pick you up when you fall <3 THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU AND NOT BEING SOMEONE YOU WANT TO BE <3

Zoe, this was one of my favorite blog posts of yours! Its really opened my eyes, its so amazing that you shared your true feelings with all of us… my friend recently started suffering from panic attacks, it breaks my heart and I never really know what to do… do you have any tips? love you xxx

Hi! So I wrote this on Louise's video when she posted something about this as well. The 'craze' that happens when you guys go to a conventions is a complete turn off to me. I'm 25, if ever the chance that wouldn't be too far out of the way (like when you came to philly) would pop up, yeah sure I would love to meet you and say hello and have a little chat but not if I knew the circumstances would be 'the mob' mentality. It's a complete turn off. I don't know if it's because I'm older… or because I feel like no one should be treated like that (even huge celebrities…). It is one thing to look up to someone/enjoy videos they make and have an opportunity to meet them, and another to scream at them/cry/crowd. Not only does the environment changed for the people on stage, but for the fellow humans next to you. I feel like a limited pre-made (i.e 150-200 – I don't know how long your queue is now but smaller if this is still too much) people per event would help to calm the storm. In my mind at least, it saves a mess of a headache, makes the experience more personal for everyone. That would be something I would feel comfortable coming to, something I sign up for ahead of time (pay or free), and something that might be more manageable for all of you youtubers. ***sorry if this isn't perfectly worded….****

Got very emotional reading this, love you Zoe!!

It's nice to see that I'm not the only one that suffers from anxiety…and its true people don't see the moments when we have to sneak away to calm down…Zoe you're such an inspiration :)

I think how you said this was beautiful and I think it is important to recognize and remember that YouTubers are normal people and that is part of the beauty and the culture of the online community of YouTube, it is a way to connect, make friends, and be creative together, connected and united by those around us who enjoy making videos. Great post and much love always.

Hi Zoe! I absolutely LOVE your blog! I also really enjoy watching your videos! I like how you can be clumsy, funny, natural in your videos and at the same time dress up to look nice. When I saw you had a new post I was like 'Aaaah! Yay!" SO I came straight over and read the entire post because you write so well!

Huge fan!

~Sophie xoxo

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it would be AMAZING to meet not only you, but all the other youtubers who i have loved watching for so long now. Living in a small part of the UK isn't the best, as you can imagine there's no meetups or youtube conventions here! Alot of us viewers/readers live hours from conventions and travelling isn't really an option when you hear stories of the security turning people down, and cutting the line off (and having anxiety). Over all the commotion, we all appreciate the effort and time you put in to making videos, writing posts or even just cute tweets! Even if i never get to meet you, you will always be a massive chunk of myteenage years and growth as a person. P.S you also inspired me to start my own blog, thank you for that!!
htttp://www.beatymay.blogspot.co.uk xx

Couldn't agree more Zoe! Loved this post. I'm so happy for you and how you continue to push your boundaries and set new goals. That's life is't it, you must dare to jump. :)

All the best. xx

Mary | whatmakesmary.com

I actually got very emotional reading this, mainly on the anxiety aspects. I know what it's like getting up in front of big crowds and having to 'perform'. For me though no-one was there to see me haha I was always a backing vocal or would open for someone, but still it's an intense thing to do when you have anxiety. Mine has held me back for way too long, you're 'YES' video way back when really inspired me to go and catch my dreams, and to see how far you've come is awesome Zoe.

I am glad you love your job, not many people find something fulfilling and satisfying to wake up to every morning. Maybe you, Tanya and Louise could collab on this whole YouTube culture thing and bring it to a broad audiences attention :)

Wow Zoe, what an amazing blogpost! Some people needed to be reminded that youtubers are just normal people too! I would only imagine how it would feel like to stand in front of a crowd that's screaming your name.. I'd get a bit nervous myself! Also the things that you have achieved are amazing Zoe! And yes, I know that you'll probably never read (or fully read) this but I just wanted to say that I'm so proud of you Zoe. Behind youtube you still have a life, and life holds both positive and negative things. But your're dealing with it like a strong independant woman, a new beyonce in the making :)

Keep up the amazing work! <3
Carlijn
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beautiful post

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hi Zoe <3 my comment won't be in perfect english since I am Italian so sorry lol . First of all thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. I went to Itatube in April ! I was really happy to see you and all the others .Unfortunately I didn't meet you on Sat because everything was crazy busy and a mess ..neither on Sunday . I was really sorry you couldn't make it to the venue but the most important thing is your health so don't worry at all !! :). On Monday morning (being really afraid to look like a freaking stalker or something but I really would have LOVED to meet you because it was a rare opportunity being Italian) I came to the hotel you were staying at. You were so lovely with me <3 I was born in 1991 so I think I am mature and old((lol) enough to see you guys, amazing people living their dream and having crazy lives, as NORMAL people after all.. I do not idolize you lot. I think you have a younger audience as well .. I think some of them can really go too far. As an extremely anxious and scared person, I'd be extremely frightened if I saw girls outside my house being all silly ringing the bell etc.. All I can say is : do what makes you feel better. Please do not ''force'' yourself to come to overwhelming meet&greets .. And if you wanna go to these types of events (because you do not wanna miss out and I understand that:) ) you shouldnt be worried to disappoint us or anything like that. Intelligent and smart people will understand that it is not your fault if they haven't got the chance to meet you and they will know not to scream in your face etc.
Events like these should be organized in a different way tough .. a more relaxing and chilled way .. ITAtube was a mess..The great part were the panes and conferences :)
I hope you get what I meant with my comment. sorry for being boring ahah But I really really wanted to say something because I suffer from anxiety too so I can PERFECTLY understand and agree with everything you said in this blog post.
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What a beautiful post Zoe! I would love to meet you one day :)

x Savannahhttp://mividabonitaa.blogspot.nl/

I think its great that you told us how you feel, so i know that eventhough i look up to you and love your videos, i still sympathise you with all ups and downs that life throws at you, i appreciate everything Zoe
Much love, Krisha xxx

Wow, this really means a lot :) – i love watching your videos they always make me smile and I feel so happy and so lucky to be watching such an inspiring person who stayed strong through all of this – I went to digifest, it was one of the best experiences i have ever had, i have never been to a concert so i wasn't to sure what to expect from this – i made a poster for you it was green and neon pink with white writing saying "zoella" with hearts in the 'o' and 'a' . when you first came on stage the atmosphere was so overwhelming and every one was screaming and i was jumping so high, holding up my poster so you could see it – when you and the other utubers came on stage for the second time and at the end when everyone started making 'speeches' (or saying things like how crazy this is) you said " i love you all especially that girl with the zoella poster" goose bumps were appearing on my arms and my heart was beating so fast – out of the 5000 people in the room you had seen my poster!!!! ——- I'm sure this happens to so many people but in that one moment i felt like such a special and lucky girl who wouldn't want to change herself for the world — i love watching your videos they have made me soooo confident to be myself and be strong no matter what —- i really enjoyed reading your story of how you started blogging and the journey it took to get to where you are now

i know this is just one comment in 5000
but id really appreciate it if you read my story and how special and inspirational you are to me and to so many people….

Love you millions!!!!
Josie xxxxxxxx

I also struggle with anxiety on a daily basis sometimes its really hard for me to go through a school day but i try because of my friends and family.

love you <3

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im so happy for everything you have right now that makes yo happy… hope it all turns out right for you :)

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This is amazing, you really deserve it all, Zoe! :)

Lipstick and Mocha

Thanks a lot! This blog post and you as a whole inspires me a lot. I've started this blog long back with no progress in it. :/ http://mufeedakaypee.blogspot.co.uk/ But, after reading this post, I feel like writing even more, no matter what.

Do girls really ring your doorbell multiple times and wait outside your door?! WOW that must be hard. I feel sorry for you Zoe, but I still love you. <3

to be honest, I feel like you're an inspiration to us all. What you've done with this space on the internet has meant that so many people have given themselves a chance to give it a go and watching you grow into this 'internet sensation' has inspired so many people. you should be really proud, but I can only imagine how overwhelmed you must feel.

Hey, Zoe just letting you know your so AMAZING! and really just perfection i wish was you :) xx
Love Liv :')

You deserve all the good things that have been hapenning in your life. For me you are a big inspiration in a lot of ways. After starting watching your videos and reading your blog I've realized that "ordinary people" have the chance to change the world sometimes and make people happy. You with all the other youtubers and bloggers taught me that what the others think does not defines, what defines is what you do with your life. Even thinking I've never met you and I probably never will I think of you as a friend that helps me get mor confident and happy about who I am. The world is scary and crowns are scary but you have to think you're not alone, we are with you in this incredeble journey. All I have to say is thank you for inspiring me to be better and keep doing what you do as long asit makes you happy. :)

I love this zoe, i think it speaks for everyone, people do forget that YouTubers are just normal people x x

Sophie X

http://sophieleighbeauty.blogspot.co.uk

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Hi Zoe, I just wanted to say that I lovee watching your videos, they make me smile so much! I would love to meet you one day, but I wouldn't scream really loudly because I understand that would be really intimidating! xx

It takes guts to really and completely put your thoughts and feelings into words and share them with basically the world, but it can be oh so good for you. This was inspirational.

People wait outside your house and ring your doorbell?!!? omg… i know which house you live in in brighton (the peachy pink kings gardens in Hove) but why would anyone do that?!

Aw Zoe this is such a sweet post! It's still weird for me to think of you having 4million subs (not in a mean way, you totally deserve all of them!). I've watched you from the very beginning, like you fifth video or something and I remember thinking 'Oh, she's nice, she should really have more subs.' And now suddenly, everyone I talk to knows you! I can see how its overwhelming but well done and good luck with all the fab secret things you have coming up!

Zoe,

I don't know if you'll ever read this or even come across it , being that you have like 600 comments already, but I have been going through some very tough things lately, and knowing that someone like yourself, a person people look up to and seem to be perfect in every single way, isn't perfect and is just a normal person that has flaws, has helped me a lot. You may be thinking "Oh, she's just another fan." or maybe even "She just wants to meet me."
And that's okay if you want to think those things but I just wanted to say, that whenever I would have one of my "bumps in the road" as you may call it, I would go and watch one of your videos and remind myself that even the most beautiful, funniest, most perfect seeming people out there have their troubles and their days. I would specifically watch your Draw My Life video. I don't even remember how many times I've watched it now. It just amazes me that someone like yourself can be going through such hard things yet be so strong and continue on. I promise I'm not a creep. I'm just a little girl looking for some courage to keep pushing me along in this big, scary world. I have never gone to a convention, a meet up, or even seen you out in public. Not because I don't like you because I really do but because I don't want to meet the famous Zoella.
I don't want an autograph or to be in one of your vlogs. I really like your videos and "Zoella" but you know what? I'd pick Zoe over Zoella any day. I'd pick the Zoe who has panic attacks and doesn't wake up perfect. I'd pick the Zoe who eats pizza for dinner and chocolate for breakfast. I have wrote you this letter not because I want you to watch my youtube videos or follow my twitter. Not because I want you to follow my instagram account or to meet you. Simply because I want you to know that my problems exist. You said in your video that you started having frequent panic attacks when you were 14 as a result on your parents getting a divorce.
I am 14 right now and my problems started when I was 9. You have given me strength in my life. Now that I'm 14 which may seem like I'm still a little girl who doesn't even know what she is talking about, that she has barely experienced anything. I have gone through things that most adults have never gone through. Felt the pain most adults have never felt. But then again so have you. I've been rambling enough for now. :)

Thanks for being the best you you can be Zoe,

From America,
Karley Jo

Another beautiful post Zoe!

Koko xx
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Beautiful post!
Good luck with everything Zoe xxx

Zoe, This is such a beautiful post, the fact that you could address this, People need to remember that Youtubers and Bloggers etc are humans too.

You are literally my inspiration.

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Sophie xxx

I never comment on these things so I guess it shows that this post really made me think. I am a teenage girl and a fan of many youtubers – I watch their videos, I follow them on other social media and I genuinely think they are great people who inspire me. However, as a teenager I feel embarrassed to see my own generation acting obsessively,screaming at conventions and stalking youtubers. I am so glad you made this post because I have always wondered what it feels like for youtubers when they are being screamed at and stopped in the street. I met you and Alfie in Brighton and felt bad for interrupting you because you were just shopping but I am glad I said hello & got a picture :) As a fan, I am sometimes guilty of idolising you and thinking that your life is totally perfect and wondering why you get to be friends with amazing youtubers and why you get to be so gorgeous and have an amazing life etc but then I stop myself – because, like you said, you are a normal person who has just been thrown into this whirlwind. On your videos, we of course only see the brilliant incredible stuff about your lives so it is easy to assume that your life is like that always. I guess as a fan I'd like to try and explain how, when one watches youtubers' videos, you get to see their lives and see their personality and you feel like you know them, but you realise they don't know you at all and you are just another number out of 4.7 million. And that's what conventions are there for – to meet your fans and get to know them a bit. But they are no longer like that – I feel it is important to re-assess meetups. They are fantastic but have grown out of control. As a viewer, I would love to have a conversation with you and interact with you in person. Although I've never been to a meetup, I realise that at them fans queue for hours and hours in crazy screaming crowds before meeting the youtuber for about 20 seconds for a selfie and a hug and that youtuber never really met that fan after all did they? I know it is impossible for youtubers to meet all their fans properly with a conversation etc. but I feel meetups need to be re-assessed. And as a viewer sitting in a small town in England, I know that I can't change the nature of meetups, but hopefully you can : ) I'm not really sure where I am going with this but just to let you know a) I support you for this post b) I totally understand what you're saying c) I think you're a great person d) I will continue loving you & your videos and quietly admiring you whilst giving you privacy. I know you probably won't see this but if you do, I give not only you, but all youtubers, the most love in the world. <3 One more thing – if you do see this, maybe ask the other youtubers to discuss with us what their feelings on this issue are? ( of course only if they want to!) Do people like troye,tyler, caspar, joe etc feel the same way? Especially troye & tyler who seem so confident? I feel like it's important for fans to understand the negatives as well as the positives. Apologies for the essay! Thanks for everything Zoe. xxxx

I LOVE YOU TO BITS. i honestly do. I am a normal girl who looks up to you and has a dream of one day meeting you,but don't worry i wont come knocking on your door! I wish you the very best in life and hope that one day we can meet in person. I cant even begin to tell you how much i love you and how your my idol(I know thousands of people have probably told you the same)… If you ever read this then WOW! I am a normal girl(who goes to school near where you used to live) and I live in a TINY village in the SMALLEST city in England(I am told) so am really unknown! I know i am a complete stranger to you and this is the 518th or something comment on this post but I LOVE YOU and you will always be my idol! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Good luck and thank you for being an AMAZING person,Zoe! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I totally agree xx

Hey Zoe,
I feel the same way about meet ups. After being to a couple, I feel it does kind of feel like a conveyor belt of meeting lots of people. For me personally, it is kind of scary for me too, with lots of people screaming and pushing, but it's just because people are so desperate to meet you. You anxiety video really helped me when my mum started suffering with panic attacks more often and I was with her by myself, away from home twice, and it was scary. I didn't no what to do but I showed her your video, we watched it together and I told her she wasn't alone and wasn't 'mental' like she thought.
I wish there was some controlled way that a tell you in person how I feel, without feeling like one in 4 million.
Thanks for the blog post!
Love
Zoe xx

As someone who also suffers quite bad from anxiety, I can only imagine how difficult it is for you to take to take the bad with the good. The bad can seem like such a monster, and the good forgotten, when you have anxiety attacks. It feels as if I'm crumbling from the inside, and this is just from everyday criticism I receive. People don't understand it, they tell me to focus on the positive and move on, but it is never that easy.
I admire that you can do what you do and still walk strong, because it's incredibly difficult to act like you're okay when your mind is sprouting scenarios to make you worry.
You've done so well Zoe and this post made my belly fizz (this is a good thing).

I feel pretty weird. I think I am even more weird than all the people who see you as a fandom because I actually see you as a friend and when I think about the fact that so many other people watch your content too I feel really small.

I honestly can't imagine what it must be like to be in your shoes, and to be honest I don't think I'd want to. People waiting outside your house? What the hell!
Stay strong though. If anything I'm sure you'll learn to cope with the attention a bit more and it'll get easier. You already are an inspiration for so many (myself included) and it's comforting to know we aren't alone with anxiety. Thank you for sharing.

Hey! I love you so much, you are a great and (as weird as this sounds) I want to be exactly like you.
My passion is making videos, even stupid ones with my friends. I really love your blog, and I would love it if you spent a little bit of your time checking out my blog. Because as you said in your FAQ that you started becoming famous by showing other people your blog, maybe if you did that to me, I would get a chance. So pretty please, can you do that for me??
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<3 <3 <3 <3 You're doing a wonderful job Zoe. I couldn't do it. I'm a pretty social person (when I'm in my comfort zone) but my own anxiety and panic would take over. Maybe because I'm a little bit older (27) but I don't understand the screaming and crying over anyone celebrity or YouTuber. I get the "celebrity" part of it. You are tangible. You are more like the rest of us than an actress or a singer we see on TV. Thats probably why some of my favorite people to watch right now are YouTubers. But keep moving up with every opportunity you can! I won't stop watching. ;)

im happy if your happy Zoe, thats all that matters

This is a lovely post :) I love watching your videos they always make me smile :)

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I completely agree with this post. Zoe Snugg is wonderful. She is such an inspiration, I hope to one day be as successful as her. If you and everyone reading this post would please check out my blog it would make me smile. Thank you all so much.

hugs and kisses♥

So I am a beauty blogger but defos old enough to be your Mum and I just wanted to say what a lovely young woman you are and how proud you should be of what you have achieved and the amazing young woman you have become. You handle yourself with such grace and elegance. You are a credit to yourself and those who had a hand in making you the incredible young woman you are. Sorry if this sounds stalkerish. I have noticed that things have been quite tough for you recently and just wanted to say x

From the sounds of the comments and the experience you talk about in this blog post, it sounds as though the best format for a meet up would be something with less people and more time for interaction between viewers and youtubers. I would rather miss out on tickets to a more exclusive, interactive event than pay money to line up for hours, be treated like crap by security, and then meet you for 30 seconds (which obviously isn't your fault, but due to the sheer amount of people). It sounds like noone is really benefiting except for the event organisers who receive are making money.

Very well said Emma!

Lyubo xx

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This post is lovely, and puts in perspective what you actually have to go through (it's not all glam!). You're so brave, suffering with anxiety and going to these mad venues etc Wembley! You're a true inspiration, as I suffer from anxiety myself. Keep doing what you doing, you rock girl! xx

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You are a wonderful person Zoe! An inspiration to everyone, I absolutely agree with everything in this lovely post, we are all humans and need time to take a breath. Even though I haven`t experienced any of the meet an greets since I`m on the other side of the world in New Zealand, from your vlogs and all I get to watch it all in a video and I`m grateful for that. If I ever got the chance to meet you, it would be wonderful to meet you in person! <3
You have done absolutely amazing coming this far and I hope you stay strong for everything that`s about to come and what will unfold for your future!
Take care of yourself Zoe! <33

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Love your writting zoe

This is why you are my role model Zoe! 😘❤️ You inspire me so much and I do look up to you! I love you so much keep doing what you do and I will love you forever!

totally agree x

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I wish I could meet her as well and I live in the same country as her but because she has become so famous then it is hard!
x
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You have spoken for me – like you said – and I totally agree with you saying that we will probably never know her personally but we can understand over the internet
x
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I cried ! Thanks zoe!!!! i luh youuuuu

Nothing can describe my love for you right now and always. I wish I got a chance to meet you and all of your AMAZING youtube friends. But that might not happen. Just wanted to tell you haw much I love you. To the Moon and Back.

I respect you a lot Zoe. You´ll be alright :*

I read this and really thought about it. I watched some of those vlogs especially at some of the meet ups and was panicking myself seeing just how many people were there and you all looked super nervous and just a little worried. The YouTube world has become MASSIVE but I still love your chatty videos and blog posts, it doesn't need to be extravagant and well thought out all the time. Chatty is good!X

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hey,
I love this blog so much. All of your ideas are so interesting and the way that you describe your life is so much deeper than what we see on YouTube. Thank you so much for being such an inspiring role model for every young girl out there.

Now, if anyone wouldn't mind, I know that this gets annoying but I'm a new YouTuber and I'm a bit late starting out so it would mean a lot to me if anyone would watch my videos. I work hard to make them and even if they seem stupid or a waste of time, they are important to me. Here's my channel and thank you so much to anyone who watches. Sorry for the 'spam'…

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Zoe, you inspire me so much. As a youtuber, but also as a person. This post shows how real you are. You share your thoughts and talents through the internet. For this I am forever great full. You have probably impacted many more lives than you could ever imagine, whether it be a subscriber, or someone who has unexpectantly stumbled upon one of your videos. You have grown so much as a person since 2009. And I know for a fact that ever since I've started reading your blog, I have grown as a person. I think people must be reminded that you are a real person. That you deserve privacy, and there is a line that must be drawn. Waiting outside your apartment and ringing on your doorbell is most definitely crossing the line. Zoe, you deserve so much. I'm sure you won't even read this, but there's a small chance right? I have never personally dealt with anxiety, but I understand what you mean when you say you care too much about how others think of you. I often times find myself telling others they shouldn't care what others think of them, but then I realize how hypocritical I'm being. Honestly, I probably care more about what other think of me than they do. I had Alopecia for most of my child hood. It was right above my forehead in the front of my head, where everyone could see it. For a long time, I would try to cover my bald spot up, with headbands or some sort of hat. Eventually I realized how stupid I was being, I shouldn't care what other think of me. So I stopped wear the headbands. But then people started to ask. They started to stare. I think for a short period of time I fell into a depression. It made me feel so ashamed of myself. They probably didn't even make a great deal out of it, but to me, it was like there was someone staring at me every second of the day. About a year and a half ago, I got over Alopecia. My hair is still growing out, but there is no more bald spot. I think my worst fear in this world is regret. And I regret so much. I regret not accepting who I was. Not taking pride in myself. And I know right now, I am basically admitting my life story to the whole internet. But when I die, my main goal is to leave an impact in this world. And maybe the one person who reads this will take something from this comment (lol more like a whole separate post). So the whole point of me sharing my life story on the internet is to tell you Zoe, that you have left an impact. A positive one. And I thank you for all the good you have done in this world. And if you're ever in a need for someone to listen to you, hit me up. I think a lot of times, people just need someone to listen. Even the best in the business. Thank you Zoe, I cannot express the respect I will forever hold for you.

Much, much love,
Cindy xx

hello zoella well done! I also saw the video louise make of this.

Thank you so much for this post. As someone who has really bad anxiety issues myself, I can't imagine doing half of the things you've been able to accomplish through all of it. I'm really inspired by your perseverance and positive attitude. I really hope I can do half of the good you've really done (whether you feel like you have or not, which you definitely have in my opinion) in my life. It gets hard to see the real people behind the YouTube fame, but I'm glad you are able to show that it's not all glamorous but still be grateful for and enjoy your experiences! xo

zoe you are amazing (: from chile/latinamerica <3

In love with this post ♥ It's so honest and touching. Love you and support you Zoe.

xx Amy

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I really love this post and I also love your blog. You inspire me. I don't have any followers in my new blog I just made. Could you please follow my blog? That would really make my day. I also love your hair tutorials. Can you also do like challenges with food like the chubby bunny challenge? http://oitsgrace.blogspot.com/

I love that you are willing to talk about your experiences especially about anxiety and panic attacks, I discovered your videos back in November or December of 2012 just before the youtube mania hit. Then in July I had what I would describe as mental/emotional/anxiety breakdown where I couldn't work, let alone get out of bed. Watching your videos and other youtubers helped me to focus on something other than my anxiety and emotions. Also you talking about it made me feel like I wasn't alone. And now almost a year later I have a job that I love and I have really good control over my anxiety. All though it was literally hell for me, I am so much happy than I was before. Thank you for being you and sharing your story with us. And introducing me to many awesome youtubers and to makeup ;-P

I have never been to a youtube convention as I live in France and there hasn't being one yet, but if you ever did come I would do everything I can to come as I want to say how much I love your videos !! xxx Izzy

I think you have a very lovely view of the world. I also think it would be extremely overwhelming to have people screaming and crying and being extremely excited to meet you. Lovely, but definitely overwhelming. You're number one priority is yourself. Do what you love and what you want to do, definitely push yourself, but do it all for yourself, not for anyone else. I think people coming to your house is extremely creepy and people definitely need to know the boundaries.

Nicky
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xx

Zoe, you inspire me. What more can i say? xx

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This was so deep and emotional, really put things into perspective and made things real. it's hard sometimes to look at things from the point of view of all of you lot, but this really helped! hope people see this and understand you are just normal people and are still coming to terms with everything

xxx

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You're such a beautiful soul! It's good to see how grounded you are when it comes to your success xxxx

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I get this, obviously it doesn't happen to me but i can see why it would be so overwhelming. I think people nowadays, especially young teenagers, want someone to look up to, and in the days of 'being yourself is never good enough', you and your friends are the perfect role models for teenagers and people want so desperately to look like you, be like you and all of that stuff, but it must get tiring and a little confusing maybe for you to have the pressure of it all. I definitely think all of you and your friends do an amazing job though, and if i have a daughter and she looks up to you, i'll feel reassured knowing that you're a really good person to look up to. I hope you don't stop any time soon as i love watching your videos and reading your blogs, it's strange how a good way to get away from my life is to watch you live yours haha! thankyou! katie xx
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I loved reading this post! It has made us all understand that you are actually human beings and how you all feel about the overwhelming environment of YouTube! I cannot agree with you enough. Yor videos always make me smile and I absolutely love watching them!
Amber x
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I do think many people elevate youtubers to become perfect figures in their minds, and so can find themselves forgetting that they are actual human beings. I'm so sorry to hear about girls ringing your doorbell – that's just not acceptable, even if they are fans. A person's right to a private and family life should always be respected, and sometimes teenage girls can forget that.

I personally went to Summer In The City in London last August, and although I had a great time for the most part – with the larger stage events and some controlled queuing, I found myself queueing for hours to meet Tyler Oakley, for the queue to be cut off 10 people before me. I also was in a line for Chris Kendall and PJ, but had to leave due to pushing, crowding and general unpleasant behaviour of the people around me. By this point I had complained to security twice, but still found myself having a panic attack in a corner at Alexandra Palace whilst people continued to queue jump and overcrowd the area. Although I love meeting the youtubers I look up to and enjoy watching, I don't think I will go again to a meet up. I find the fans are so fixated on getting to see their idols that they abandon normal convention and can be quite rude.

I met Jim who was lovely, and Dan and Phil – who I was in the first 20 of the queue for, but people further back in the line suffered equally from rude security and lack of control.. Something I expected to be enjoyable was simply a negative experience for me, which is a real shame.

I'm not really sure how this can be improved. Smaller meetups mean less people can be involved and more are disappointed, and large ones can be hectic and overwhelming, for both viewers and Youtubers! I think a lot of it has to do with the correct behaviour, by both the viewers (especially all that bloody screaming,) and the security staff – who as you said can be out of order. Especially for viewers, I feel being a member of the crowd can be equally as terrifying as having the crowd screaming at you… some people need to just calm down!!

Congratulations on all your success, lots of love xxx

Hi Zoe,

I have just moved to the UK from Australia. I have been reading your blog and following your adventures for a while now. I have to say, I think you're one of the most inspirational people in the world. You have such a big heart and you help so many people. I love watching your videos and reading your blog posts and feeling like I am a part of your life. You make all your viewers and readers feel like they're your friends and will be for life.
When I see how far you've come, (especially given that I know what it's like to suffer from anxiety and panic attacks) I feel so happy and excited for you. I can't wait to share more of your adventures with you.
I know you get a lot of people leave you messages on your blog and YouTube channel and various other places, so I will probably go unnoticed. But I just wanted to say thank you for being you. I would love to be able to talk to you via email so I'll leave my details below, but please don't feel obligated.

Keep smiling and being your wonderful self.
Love Amanda xx

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Such a nice post. I loved reading it and how you feel about everything that has happened to you! It's so amazing to think that you became this big YouTuber from a little blog you started. I'd like to think that could happen to me or to anyone starting a blog or YouTube channel. You're such an inspiration!

Emma x

This post is amazing Zoella, hopefully one day my little blog can become as good as yours- you are inspirational xx

Hi Zoe! :)

Thank you so much for doing this lovely post. It helped me more to open my eyes and mind to understand what it's like to be in your shoes. I've been watching some videos about the "Youtube Celebrity Culture" all the way from Louise up to Charlie McDonnell, and now that more and more Youtubers are now speaking up to this matter is making me happy. (including you. :) it's sad to think that some people doesn't seem to understand the fact that you guys are human beings who happens to make videos and loads of people adore you and some people are taking it the wrong way and now they are treating/seeing you like full time celebrities.

To be honest Zoe, I haven't been to any Youtube gatherings, not a single one! D: unfortunately it' because I'm from the Philippines. Very far I know. As much as I want to fly off to the UK and meet you, I can't. :(( it's very expensive.
so hearing your words to what it's like to go to gatherings and your point of view, I can tell that it's fun and scary at the same time.

Thank you so much for sharing this, Zoe. (I may or may have not shed a few tears because it was just so beautiful)

-Monik xx (hoping to meet you one day, I look up to you not as "Zoella" but as Zoe who suffers from bad anxiety, a human being who has flaws and a girl who is giving advice to people)

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Oh Zoe! I've been reading your blog since 2009 and you've always been someone that I've strongly looked up too. Being a sufferer of anxiety myself, I find it so easy to relate to you. I've always wanted to start my own blog but I've never been able to buck up the courage because I'm too afraid of what others are going to think of me and the things I like to do. I started a blog back in 2010 and I ended up taking it down within the first 3 months because things got way too scary for me. Although your video back in 2012 based around saying "yes" completely inspired me. It took me a while to get my head around trying to say "yes", but I eventually got the hang of it and now I couldn't be happier with myself and it's all thanks to you. I've even started back blogging! And even though it's only been a matter of four months, I am loving every single minute of it! You are my complete inspiration and I like to think that if you can do it, I can do it too! X

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Love this post. You're so down to Earth, and not to mention a beautiful and lovely person. I've watched every single one of your youtube videos and I've almost read your entire blog! You inspire me so much and I look up to you.

Thanks for everything Zoe
Sarah xx

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I am sorry for the self-promo but I have just started my blog up and would love if some of you guys checked it out! I have two posts up now but already have loads more planned! Thank you so much! x

Your post is so personal and honest and your video is great.
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I love you're videos Zoe, doing things despite you're anxiety is such an inspiration! You have stayed so grounded throughout your huge exposure in the Youtuber world and it's so refreshing to see that :3 #KeepVloggingZoe!!!

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Love Love Love this post *.* speechless

I haven't really read much of your blog posts, I watch your videos from time to time, but I really like this measured and observant post, does that sound weird? It must be crazy having all this attention but it's good you are getting to do so many new and exciting things.

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Hi Zoe. This post made me so happy and I'm so glad that you are happy and thank you for all that you have done for us. You are so nice to your viewers :) I hope I'll meet you and Alfie some day, you are my favorite Youtubers <3

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WOW! this is so heartfelt it made me have a lump in my throat, i loved reading this Zoe it gave me another perspective from your point of view that not always your life is as perfect as we think, you are a normal girl just with an amazing career.

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This made my cry.

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When I met you at Vidcon last year, I was a bit sad to be honest. Because I wish I could just sit down and have a coffee and a chat with you and so many other people I look up to. But it's okay that it isn't that way. Because I am sooo happy for all of your success. And I'm so happy that this group just keeps growing and growing. And it must be so surreal and crazy and I understand. Us folk with anxiety or depression tend to not believe we deserve certain things or aren't good enough to be someone to someone else. (We also don't understand why people would scream at someone to show they love you. It seems a bit hostile to me. But I guess in a positive way? haha) Does that make any sense? haha I dont know. I just want you to know that I respect you and admire you for being real and open and just all around lovely. I'm virtually pinching you, because its real. And I'm so happy and proud of you. You deserve it all. :) xoxoxo

I'm a little late, but this post was so amazing that it made me tear up. You have been so honest with your fans & we all adore you for it. Being such an ordinary girl is what inspires me most about you because you have achieved so much and overcome so many things. Stay strong Zoe, we all love you! :)

You are so very humble Zoella! Love you! Such an intellectual and meaningful, true-to-heart post

I think you are an inspiration and you've changed my life for the better, if one day it means I can't meet you for the sake of your well being then that's ok because it's not all about getting a hug and a picture it's about meeting someone who is a big part in your life. I hope that your life turns out to be as good as you are because you deserve it:) ly zoexx

Love your blog! Always so interesting to read!
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You really are an inspiration :)

Love this post!! Love that you are brave enough to show that you are overwhelmed and you are a human! :))

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-Milla

You are a lovely and beautiful girl and although everything is so scary and overwhelming you deserve all of the attention you get. You have had such amazing opportunities and I aspire to be like you. I look forward to your videos every week. You're such a down to earth person and I read your blog posts like I'm have some girl talk with my closest friends x

Amy
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I loved this post, you seem so genuine and normal and that's why so many people look up to you. I really respect you.

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Hi Zoe 😊 I don't know if you'll ever see this but if you do (omg ilysm 😍) I can't say I know how you are feeling but I understand from your vlogs as well as other youtubers vlogs from conventions and meet and greets that sometimes fans can be a little overwhelming (I always have to turn down my headphones from all the screaming 😂) As one of your fans I would love to meet you even though I probably will never get the chance but it's definitely too far to come ringing your doorbell and waiting for you to come out of your house. This is most likely very intimidating and I think some people forget that youtubers are real people who need privacy and time to unwind.you really do deserve all the success and opportunities you get! Thank you for sharing your life with us, you truly are so inspirational! 😇😘🙈👍🙋❤️🎉🍕🐹🌈🌺😘 xx

This is great article… You are fabulous Zoe.. <3 i love it :)
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One of the most honest posts. You represent your "new life" without drama and unicorns, just like it is. And I like it.
:)

N.

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you are my inspiration, becuase you are very truthful <3

you are my inspiration, becuase you are very truthful <3

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Hey Zoe, I doubt you will read this but there may be a chance you will.. I have suffered from anxiety for years so I completely understand how you feel although everyone suffers differently. I really liked the fact you mentioned event security and behavior at events.
Why? I am a 21 year old girl and I have a condition called Polymicrogyria a defect of the brain it also comes with Epilepsy as a side effect, I have struggled for majority for most of my life to have normal teenage experiences. This last year has really hit me hard though, I am waiting for Brain Surgery and I try to live normally just like you do with Anxiety. I had tickets for YouTube Events and Music Concerts but as the time got closer I questioned my safety there and whether it would be worth the risk. I usually book seated tickets for concerts but the moment the music starts BAM! Everyones up and its hell to try and escape that crowd if you need to!
I can imagine it's very much the same at a YouTube Event, I have wanted to meet you, Tanya and Louise for a long time but I guess my time will have to wait. I hope to start a YouTube channel at some point but the culture of some people scares me.
It would be great to hear from you if you wanted to chat.
Hope you are well, Chantelle XxX

Hello Zoe! I'm 13 and I just discovered you and you have really helped me through a lot of hard things I have been going through. I too have really bad anxiety and your anxiety videos have helped me so much, I honestly couldn't thank you enough. I know you get a lot of comments about people saying how much they love you but I would like to just say thank you. Thank you for everything you have done for me to help me in my life. I understand that you really are just a normal girl in an overwhelming world and I respect you for you wanting to tell people that you are really just like the rest of us. (just known by a lot more people) Thank You!
Katie

Love it Zoe, you are such a wonderful person. You and Hannah mags truly inspire me!! I would hope one day you would check out my blog I've only just started and I am so excited ! :) xx http://biancabishop.blogspot.com.au/

This right here is inspiration. How you can connect to so many people and still be able to be just another normal 20something living in this world.
Panic comes and goes, is what we do afterwards that counts ;)

Very well put. I quite admire you. Love from the USA xx

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Interesting post, and so honest too. I can totally, empathise with you zoe. It can be very daunting when you are the only one standing there in front of sooo many people sceeaming at you. Although they're screaming at you because they love you, lol, it's still hard. I can totally relate to you when you say you have to calm yourself before doing something major. Being in the public eye all the time doesn't change the person you are inside. All the new things you do and the challenges you face are real. Everyone has to face their fears someday and it's lovely to see that you are always trying your best, and it shows that you love what you do, and so do we! I appreciate your hard work more because of what you go through behind the scenes, so to speak. You've come this far, not just because of us, but because of what you have put into it as well, your time, your effort, overcoming your anxieties, facing your fears, challeging yourself, saying YESI CAN DO IT!!!! This is your life! so embrace it and make the most of it, because all these amazing things that are unfolding for you are the rewards of your commitment and hard work. Love watching your videos and seeing how you have grown soo much in every way. Best of luck for the future and well done for showing us that anything is possible if you give it a go!

Love
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It's clear that what we see is not how it always is. But, it's obvious that you care about your viewers and that you are passionate about the things that you write. It's not surprising that you inspire and help so many people with you're blog and videos. We feel like we know you personally through your blog and it's amazing to see how far you've come. We are so proud of you and hope that things only get better from here as you deserve it. We love you (and your guinea pigs!)
It would mean a lot to us if you could take a look and maybe even share our blog x
Good luck for all of the things to come!

Soph & Charl
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Great post, really inspired me to keep blogging.

Allie xx

http://doinglifemyway.com

I'd love to see you do a post or video on your insecurities and how you have dealt with them – or how you haven't.
I think people often forget that the big bloggers are actually humans and not someone to obsess over. From my point of view I'm so glad you're open about your anxiety because it helps me and gives me hope that maybe one day I can do wonderful things like you!

Amber (From umberly.com) xx

Hi Zoella,

Your blog posts are always so inspiring! I love watching your videos as well. I'm a huge fan but i would never ring your door bell or creep you out! I've just entered the blogging world.

From your no 1. Australian Fan

Feebs xx
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I love you zoella! im so glad on where you've come :)

Youve inspired me to do on what you believe is fun which is why i started a new blog of mine hannahsus.blogspot.com

I'm glad you decided to share this. I would run away in terror if had to walk into a room full of people staring at me and would probably start crying if they were screaming too. It takes a lot of guts to do what you do and even more so when you're struggling with anxiety.
The whole YouTube celebrity culture thing makes absolutely no sense to me. I don't know if it's because I essentially grew out of the whole YouTube thing before it became this way but I just don't get it. I don't understand the screams, the crying, the fainting and the desire to do anything to meet a YouTuber. To me everyone who makes videos and uploads them to YouTube are just a regular people. Maybe I've missed something…

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This is amazing, it made me cry multiple times. Thinking what it would be like for me, and therefore what it must be like for you overwhelmed me. You are so down to earth Zoe, you are normal but your also so exciting and fun. You are my idol, the way you can share your serious thoughts on your blog, and then have bucket loads of doing vlogs. Because of you i just began a blog, http://angelstars20.blogspot.com.au/ and i hope to eventually be as inspirational as you <3 <3 <3

Angelica,
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I remember watching your vlogs and reading your blogs when you first started and its amazing seeing how much your life has changed and all of the exciting things that your able to do now because of this. Your such an inspiration of a normal girl doing such amazing things :)

Becky
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Zoella, this is so sincere and honest. I'm glad you have shared this with your readers, I feel privileged. You truly are an inspiration, and I'm glad you are reminding everyone that you are only human. I think people forget that sometimes. Anyway, thank you very much for writing this blog, and sharing your thoughts. I'm sure I speak for many people when I say that I appreciate it :)

Many thanks
Isla x
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Excellent post! I must thank you for this informative read. I hope you will post again soon.

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Zoe you mean so much to me and this post meant a lot I wrote a similar post about the same sort of thing in a shorter way and would love if everyone could check it out!

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Zoe, I have never met you but I believe you are courageous. I also suffer from anxiety and it often makes me think I can't do things I would love to do or be the person I want to be. I know when I make the decision to say "yes" to things that scare me I am essentially facing my fears. You and I are some of the world's most anxious people but that also makes us some of the world's bravest. We face mind and body crippling fears every day to live the life we believe we deserve. Living out life comes very easy to many others, but we have been blessed with the curse of anxiety and we are courageous, strong and brave because of it <3 Much Love. xoxo

A very inspiring and humbling post x

Zoe you are truly so inspiring! I can't even begin to imagine how overwhelming all this must be, but you are an incredible inspiration to all! You've helped me realize I need to take chances and say yes to things because life really is short. You've inspired me to create my own blog to give advice and tips and just talk to people about things they want to talk about! So thank you for everything and continue inspiring others… you're truly great at it!
xoxox

I'm so glad you posted this Zoe because I know that although you are in a very new and adverse situation, everybody can relate to it. It's important for people to know that it's okay to get overwhelmed by things, but it's even better to make your voice heard when it starts getting a bit too crazy.
I'd like to personally thank you for being so open about your anxiety, it has helped me a lot and I was finally able to tell someone who would be able to help me

So thank you,
Claudia x

You are so inspirational and this post was so lovely!

Abi xx
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Awww love you soo much Zoe!!!! I love your posts and your videos they help me soo much and make my life better. After seeing and reading your blog for ages I decided to create my own blog to also help people, no matter how many :) I would love if you could all check out my blog! Bye, thanks for reading (sorry if you think this is spam)

Amazing Zoe. No one should make you double think about something you want to do and if someone does that then they are totally not worth it!! I'm saying this now but when it comes to me wanting to do something i want to I never dare and it's all because of what other people will think!! I really think it's time for everyone to start doing what they want to and and not what others want them to do. We all have our own lives and surely it's better to live them how we want too.

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Congratulations on everything!! YOu've done amazing to get this far and inspire so many! And don't worry that many people would scare me sometimes too haha, keep doing what your doing!

Sarah xx

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Thank you, Zoe, for writing this post. I have anxiety myself and really relate to you in that way. Your anxiety video back last year really helped me get a hold of what I was feeling at the time and I have been feeling so much better lately.

If you have a chance, feel free to check out my blog http://www.itscarsonelaine.blogspot.com. I'll be writing about my dealings with anxiety there too.

Thanks :) Love you Zoe.

First of all i realy love you <3 My Englisch is very bad because I'm from austria so…sorry for that :D You are such an insperation for a lot of people i i think its so incredible of you, that you always act like a normal person who makes Viedeos because she loves it and not like a famous person who wants to get 1000000000 subscribers and don't think about the fewers. Thats realy hard to say in Englisch what I think but okey :) I realy love your daily Vlogs because they shhows that you are only a normal girl (woman) who has fun with her friends. And i also realy love how cute you and Alfie are together <3 :) At this point i want to say that you are an incredible person who gives a lot for her viewers/fans/whatever. Thanks for all <3 Keep going of being who you are <3 <— okey thats a realy weird and fals sentence but who carse :)

Much love from Austria
Magdalena <3

Actually I congratulate, what matters in life is to do things that make you feel good and satisfied, you have made ​​it to many people and that makes you a winner.

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regards,

Wen :)

I honestly love your posts a lot. Since I watched your Dealing with Panic Attacks video, I've felt way more connected to you for you to be so brave to reveal your mental "illness". I too suffer greatly from anxiety. I've heard you were afraid of "sick"? I also am afraid of people vomiting, or me myself vomiting, or other people being sick around me. ESPECIALLY IN AIRPLANES.

I am honestly so worried about the littlest things. Like, for example, I have a vacation trip to Puerto Rico. Last time I was there was in the 7th grade, where I was staying with my mum. I've had emetophobia (phobia of sick) since I was child and living in Puerto Rico meant NEW school, everyone talking in Spanish, and LOTS of change. This brought me tremendous anxiety and honestly killed me. It got to the point where I would cry to go to school every night before it and I would skip breakfast and lunch and ate one meal a day (I was so afraid of getting sick that I wouldn't eat) and I dropped 10 pounds, resulting in me being in the 70's (I was already a skinny child so) and feeling extremely weak.

I couldn't survive it and now I have to return there. I worry about the trip as it nears closer and closer. I can't imagine how you are able to do SO many events, I get shaky just thinking about everything you've done, but I am honestly so proud of you. Like, you don't even know. I can totally understand the commotion about YouTube culture, I am part of the "YouTube fandom" as well. I am honestly not an insane fan who idolizes youtubers, I just greatly enjoy your YouTube videos. If I were to ever run into you or others I'd give a simple hello, really. You guys are PEOPLE, not CELEBRITIES, and I greatly appreciate that.

I love your blog and I love your personality greatly. Stay true, Stay you.

Nivia :)
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I am so proud of you, but you have been not so active with blog:(
I do really enjoy reading your blog post! And perhaps, you can write more often? I mean I like your videos but I do love your blog post! I think you're really inspiring and really make my day with your videos!

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This was a lovely post, a lot of people forget that you are just a normal person.
You are an inspiration to all of us, and I hope that even if your an old lady, you will still write some blogposts.

xx Anne
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Zoe, You are such an amazing person! You should never ever have to apologise for being a human being and feeling real feelings like anxiety! You and Hannah Maggs gave me the courage to start my own blog and slowly my YouTube channel too to gain more confidence and to make me overcome my anti social behaviours! You are a beautiful person inside and out and you deserve everything that you have made for yourself and more! Thank you so much Zoe for this amazing journey that you have taken all of us on! Heres to many more years!

X Nicole
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i have high anxiety as will. and i see that you added a video about it i would like to ask you some random questions you might have so many comments and not get to all of them thats ok i want to ask anyway im learning how to drive and im so anxious about it and all these thoughts come in my head and i was wondering when you where learning did you feel anxious how did you deal with it thank you my email is bre21982@yahoo.com if you want to write me i also have a blog http://www.breannnalynn.blogspot.com lots of love

That is so lovely. I suffer a lot from anxiety as well, and as I am also in this moment of my life where everything is changing and I need to start making a life of my own, I get confronted with it constantly. Yet I have also learned that you can choose how you want to live: you can focus on the negative things and be scared and crawl away, or you can look at all the lovely things, around you and inside yourself, and by doing new things proving to yourself that you are much stronger than you think and capable and beautiful, and slowly I am gaining trust and becoming the happy positive person I want to be. Keep up what you are doing Zoe because you are inspiring a lot of people, and to me you are also proof that you can conquer your fears and be someone beyond that.

X Goedele
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I love your honesty – people do forget that you're a real person and I can't even imagine how it must make you feel! I admire you more and more each time you show us what you're going through. Loving your June vlogs!

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Zoe, you are such are such an inspiration to me. I love reading your blog posts and watching you youtube videos. Your anxiety and pain attack videos helped me so much! I don't have severe panic attacks, but I do suffer, mostly in crowds and claustrophobia. I love how true to yourself you are, and share with us your life experiences that are beneficial to help other people out there who are suffering. Please continue to write blog posts and make videos. It is honestly the highlight of my day when I can sit down and watch one of your new videos or blogs, or to read a new post. Keep up the amazing work!

Elisha xx
http://elishakatee.blogspot.com.au

You are such an inspiration

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I have to thank you! I'm a sami girl from northern Sweden and everytime I'm feeling sad I watch your videos and they make me on a much better mood. My life has never been easy because sami people are not accepted by a lot of people. My dad's a reindeer-herder and I think when I get older and finish school I will start working more with the reindeer. I've thought about starting a vlog channel and wonder if you have any tips for me.
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You are so amazing! You deserve all of it! I hope that I can be like you one day!!! All of your accomplishments are so amazing!!! It takes a lot of hard work to do all of the things that you have done!

Loved this post and the videos so so much, maybe 'cause I can feel you as I suffer of anxiety too and I even can find me having a panic attack just laying on my bed without something going on, it's weird but so sad sometimes when you can't do what you want or you always find youself overthinking.. I'm learning to say yes also thanks to you, and this also gave me the "strenght" to open my own blog, which I always loved to, but never did cause I'm so scared about "sharing me".. But now I'm here, and I also can feel kinda happy and just wanna say thank you for everything! x

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You are so lovely and genuine, it's refreshing to see a post like this so we are reasurred that you're just normal like everyone else! Congratulations with the book too! x

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Zoe this is such a beautiful post. I felt like I was reading a mini novel it got me hooked. Perhaps you should consider writing a second novel – around this subject. In fact, a biography!
When I wrote my first makeup book 'How to Look pretty Not Plastered, I remember amongst tons of lovely reviews, coming across that one negative one that just stuck in my head. At first, I wanted to crawl back into my shell, rip it up and wish I could whip it off the shelves and re-do it, but then I learnt that that was just one opinion and that I could use that criticism constructively, and that is just what I did. I went on to write my second makeup book which hits the shops this thursday, and this time i am super excited because I believe that no matter what the feedback, you can use it positively, and I know that I have written these books to help people, and that is what matters to me more than anything else. The meer fact that people take time to voice their opinion, is in itself a positive thing. Whilst on the subject, a huge congratulations on such a fabulous achievement with your new novel, and good luck with all that is in store for you today, tomorrow and for the future. Keep being you, it is what got you here, and that is awesome. Lots of love, Emily-Rose xxxx

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Zoe,
I can't express how proud of you i am. This is mainly because i struggle with anxiety, mostly from social worry and ruminating. I will never know everything about you, but know that you work hard and push yourself. At an age that is hard to do. I've never considering going to a meet up because it seems so intense with most time spent waiting. (not that any of that is negative toward you, events are just like that) I really enjoy watching what your up to and responding regardless of interaction.
I feel like this celebrity mentality can be good, we have all done it to some degree, but every person on earth started the same, and will end the same. Teenagers have acted this way for many many years. I absolutely applaud you for facing that to see fans who love you. You are giving us a great example of "fame" that doesn't lead to destruction. Anyway prayers for a successful and happy future.

you are a very inspiring person zoe ,looove from Morocoo
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It's comforting to know that behind all the glam and celebrity-like lifestyle, you're just a normal girl, doing everyday stuff! That's why I love to see your vlogs, because it feels nice to see you doing random and silly things just like any other girl would!

Debbie x
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Love this post, A lot of true things in this post. I loved how we got to see how you started off to where you are now :) I love your youtube videos.
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Hiya Zoe , you are amazing . Not only do you help people in day to day things and through fashion and beauty but you inspire them too . Like me . It is so incredible that such a normal girl as become so popular through a blog and you tube . You are even writing a book for goodness sake . So well done . So yeah , I love you and your blog and videos . : ) . x x .

Zoe,
My name is Carly Metcalf and I don't know if you'll ever read this… but in the off chance you might I just want to thank you. I'm 19 years old living in America, I am going to college here and seem to be in some sort of weird point in my life. You really help me get through things because you've talked about having a rough time in you're life and now look at you! I know if you can get through tough times I can too. Thank you for everything you do every day. You are so relatable and I don't feel so alone. Thank you again.
xoxo
Carly

Good luck, and have fun :)

I have recently just started up my own blog and I was inspired by you. I started watching your youtube videos about a year ago and I loved the way you made all of us viewers feel like we are your bestfriends. Your vlogs make my day so much happier and your advice on anxiety as helped me immensely as I struggle with anxiety also. You are such an inspiration and I one day hope to influence the lives of young people just as you have. <3

Staying humble is important, and I think Zoe does a very good job doing so, even after being blessed with all these opportunities she has worked so hard for. All the while dealing with her anxiety.

Christine
http://www.meatiefoodie.blogspot.com

This is such a great blog post! Well written and it's got a great message as well!
I love the way you write and I can't wait to read your book and I have to congratulate you on the book deal!!. ( I saw in your video you are writing a book)

So interesting and lovely! I enjoy reading your posts SO MUCH!

Lala xoxo
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Hi, my name is Joy Malou and I just wanna set my heart free for a moment.

You are more than just a beautiful person, than just a wonderful girl. You are amazing in all kind of ways, as I always say: "no matter tears or fears – no matter love or laughter you are amazing"

I have read your blog and watched your videos for years and you make me so happy, every time. I think that you are so brave, who decided to share the best things in life with strangers all over the world that later became something so much more than strangers. I wish I could do that too, make videos about glimpses of my life and my adventures but I can't because I'm not brave enough to "let go" but I admire you and everyone else who does it because you all are heroes. To me and to so many more people.

You and the Saccone Joly's are my favourites on youtube from UK. You're my happy place I can go to when I'm trapped inside.

Love ♡ Joy Malou http://nicolinda.blogg.se/

Zoe ever since I have been watching your youtube videos and reading your blogs you have been such a inspiration to me that I decided that today was the day to set up my own blog. Your posts are so helpful and I feel comforted knowing that you suffered or still suffer with anxiety too. Your most recent youtube post has been so helpful to me as I have been suffering with panic attacks for a while now and listening to your video made me feel as though that there are people there to help.
Thank you so much for your videos and blogs they help and inspire me so much and I'm sure they help so many others too.

Emily xx
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This is such a lovely post Zoe. You have come so far and you have had to deal with so many difficulties and are still such an inspiration to many including myself. I love your videos and your chatty funny self but it's important for people to see you're a real person trying to live their life just like anybody else. I hope those people can read these and give you the privacy and peace that you deserve. Keep going Zoe and you should vlog everrryday! Loving your June vlogs xx

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I never really comment on blogs or vlogs but I feel I should on this one as it is really interesting. I really don't get the whole 'fangirl' of youtubers thing! I watch beauty gurus all the time but I would never attend a meetup. I think of youtube as a semi-professional (sounds weird, I know) website where I can get beauty advice, not somewhere where I can obsess over whoever is on the computer screen. I think people have become obsessed by WHO is filming, not by WHAT they are doing on film. Back in the day video comments would say 'Your eye shadow looks amazing', now they say 'I love your eyes, I wish I was you etc'.

I can understand why youtubers don't want all of this attention as they didn't expect to become a form of celebrity. However, I think that by doing events such as meetups, you are giving yourselves a kind of celebrity status. Youtubers say they see their subscribers as friends and you talk about us supporting you. However, by doing a meetup that relationship completely changes as 'friends' don't stand in line for hours in cramped conditions just to be able to say hi – that is a fan, not a friend. I watched hannah maggs meet you in a vlog a few weeks ago. It was really lovely to see you two meet and I thought that I could definitely be friends with either of you in 'real' life, however, I would never in a million years turn up to a meetup. I would say hello if I were to see a youtuber I watch on the street but I will not stand for hours to get a chance to meet you, or maybe be turned away by security.

I think Ruth from AMR has delivered herself brilliantly. She blogs and vlogs about beauty in a completely professional way and I can't see people ever harassing her by waiting outside her house etc. I imagine that people would say 'I love your videos' if they were to see her on the street, not 'I love you'. That is the difference.

If you don't really enjoy meetups, don't do them! I think it probably is promoting fangirling. I know you love your subscribers but I think your subscribers who have followed you since the beginning and who you would probably most enjoy spending time with are the least likely people to turn up to meetups. Yes, you may lose a few subscribers by not doing meetups but they are also probably the most likely subscribers to start arguments on your videos and wait outside your house at all hours. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with the people who attend meetups at all but I think it is just ironic that the people youtubers meet at youtube probably aren't the people they thought would be watching their videos when they created them. Do whatever makes YOU happy!!

Thank you Zoe, I can't say much!

Lovely post, I'm new to all of this and it's amazing what you've achieved! It shows you are just like all of us as it happens to so many other people!

Keep going, it's inspiring! x

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Great post Zoe interesting to see your prospectus on what a lot of YouTube have been talking about recently.
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One of the only people I've ever seen with the same name! Just thought I'd say hi and that what you've written is so sweet! Best wishes lovely xx

Unfortunately, I have never been to a meetup, I am from Holland so going is not that easy, haha! I wish I could though, you and Louise are the reason that I am blogging and that I am not afraid to blog. I used to be scared of people's opinion, but you and Louise and basically all the other Youtubers tought me that I shouldn't listen to their opinions. Blogging is what makes me happy, so I should do it more often and don't let anyone stop me!

Thank you so much Zoe! I love you!
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Congratulations on your book! I am so envious of you. Like you, I have been addicted to books and writing all my life. I think they are the sole reason I am such a social recluse, haha.

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I am saying sorry in behalf of every person who has made you feel the need to be perfect ALL the time. Zoe, we love you no matter what you decide. Even if you decide to take a break (or even quit Youtube) and just continue blogging or tweeting. We'll support you all the way! YOU REALLY CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE ZOE. BUT REMEMBER THAT THERE ALSO ARE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE! Remember that :) *virtual hug*

I love this post! I think a lot of the time it's easy to forget that celebrities or big internet personalities are really just normal people too, and that their lives aren't perfect just they have a lot of fans or followers. Please keep on being so lovely, relatable and down-to-earth as you are: I think a lot of people (myself included) really appreciate you for that. And congratulations on 5 million youtube subscribers!

this is just a post like an other , i saw your videos too, and i'm touched about your "story"
i'have anxiety too, it's not easy to support every day, people just can't get it, sometimes it's hard to breathe no matter what
you're lovely , and so strong, you have this famous blog and u should't have so much pressure, we love for the way you are, yes there are shit people, everywhere, there just jealous,haters can screw up (that's that, screw up??), only count peoples who loves you!
you're so fresh, you're not like the others youtubeurs, please stay like you are.

i'm so sorry for my english, i'm French, and it's not easy, even if with an ocean btw us (french fans!) we're here for u
Lenny xx with love

Fantastic post, totally agree. Your writing says it nicely, keep up the good work.

The moment i opened your vlog from today I felt really heart broken. I felt your pain, and im very sure I wasn't the only one. I started watching your channel because I was really interested in your fashion posts, later on it led me to your blog (which I absolutely adored), which led me to your second channel. Sooner than I knew I was involved in a complete strangers life, which was really mind blowing because I'm not that type of person. I really enjoyed looking at your videos and reading your blogs because you were really really but REALLY honest and you seemed very real about who you were. During a really long time it never really occurred to me how you could feel so anxious about the pressure you had until now. I totally understand, its a human thing, and its really sad that so many people can't see that. They are so blinded by ignorance that they expect you to be some kind on machine that cannot feel pain or complain whatsoever. Your Q&A video about panic attacks made you seem so real, not just a commercialised youtuber. I feel that I understand you, not in the way because I'm a huge youtuber with many subscribers, but because I too suffer from the same things you do. All my life I've felt that I had to please people before I pleased myself. My mom started to really worry about me when I was really young because I could never say "no". She told me that if I continued to be like that people would take advantage of me. I was really stupid not to listen to her, so for three consecutive years (Middle School) I felt like shit, people took advantage of me and would only use me. After finishing Middle School I got tired of all. During High School I became so insecure about people because I started to believe everyone was gonna step over me and use me for their own benefit. This led me to being the most stressed out person in the world. I would get horrible head aches and would cry myself to sleep so many nights. Little after little I found myself a group of friends who I grew to love and trust. I still can get very insecure and stress from time to time. Those years where probably the shittiest moments of my life, and it made me so mad that no one could feel what I felt. I started to get more involved with social media sites, like Tumblr, and came across so many people that felt very similar to what I did. When I found out that you suffered from panic and anxiety attacks I felt an automatic connection. Reading your post made me go in your shoes and I can only imagine your pain. So Zoe, take your time to breathe, and give yourself some slack. Think about yourself also, because no one can really help you but yourself!

Im sorry about this huge post, but I felt like expressing my feelings because I though it might make you feel better, just like your post make me feel better :)

Remember myself and millions of others love you and will support you no matter what :)

Regina

im so glad some one else feels like this! im going to summer in the city, a british youtube convention thing, and im so scared! i dont want to be surrounded by lots of screaming girls all shoving, the gap between youtubers and their viewers is made bigger by people acting so crazy around them. they're normal people, but i really dont want to go now haha! as some others have said, the security is so tight, i feel like im just 1 person in amoungst 9000 others, which is a horrible feeling.

I know you probably won't see and have time to read all these, but I just wanted to say how much I've loved your posts and videos opening up about anxiety, as I've always gone through similar things, as well as suffering from other things, and it's really reassuring to know there are other people out there who've been through the same and are still really happy and successful :)

B xxxx http://feixy.wordpress.com/

You are so inspiring!
I recently just started a new blog so if you could ever so kindly check it out here's my link:
http://www.lucybooth.blogspot.co.uk
Thanks Lucy xx

You're so lucky and you're such an inspiration for lots and lots of people. Remember that you are loved,Zoe.
We love you xxx

Zoe can I just say you've inspired me to start blogging (:

Thank you so much for always being so honest. It's so refreshing and nice to hear about your experience on this journey that you're going through. Congrats on everything – you totally deserve it all!

xo Julianne
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Love your blog and youtube Zoe, you're such an amazing person and so helpful, especially as I suffer from panic attacks and I find your advice very helpful.
Katie
kxtie.blogspot.com

Zoe you are just so brilliant to do this. Chin up, you are perfect!

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love this post you're amazing
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Hey Zoe!! I totally agree with everything you said! I to am a blogger and just 3 months ago I would never have expected people from all over the world to be reading my posts. People who blog are people on the internet sharing things they love and not things they don't like going through. Like your Anxiety or my Bullying and mental torture!!! We are ordinary people who just so happen to have people read our blog every so often. I love your perspective on things and I want you to know that your not the only one who gets overwhelmed by this experience!! I am not well known on the internet but the fact that ive had 700 page views already is mind blowing!!! Keep persuing your dream and when we are both old and wrinkly we can look back on this awesome experience together (even with no teeth!!)
http://humphrey3451.blogspot.co.uk/ I would really appreciate it if you looked at my blog!! that would mean the world to me

I love you so much Zoe, you have inspired me to start my own blog. It would mean the world if you could check it out. I just started today and I would love it for you to give me some pointers. Anyone who sees this and gives me any advice would mean a lot!

Thank you
Tanvi xx
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It´s so awesome that you are sooo grounded and how lovely your write your posts just make them soo great and perfect to read ,I´m obsessed with your blog and your youtube videos ♥
xxx
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loved this Zoe, keep up the wonderful work! could you check out my brand spanking new blog?
http://rachaelsspace09.blogspot.co.uk/

Hi Zoe,

Great post. Just like you said towards the end, "those who mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind." After watching one of your recent vlogs, I really wished I could tell you that many peoples' opinions do not matter. The people who care about you and want you to do what's best for you are the ones who show you support and are happy and excited about the things that you get excited about. Because they want to see you happy.

Even in real life, you would never listen to or become friends with people who don't have your best interest at heart. Those are the exact people whose opinions do not matter at the end of the day. If you end up making mistakes because you follow your dreams (or for any other reason), they will be your own mistakes and your true friends and those people that really care about you will be there to support you through that as well… or celebrate with you when things go wonderfully! Keep these kinds of people closest to you (it seems like you already do! :) ) and don't worry about the others, because it's impossible to make everyone happy, especially those who can't be happy for you. Wish you all the best and congrats on getting to publish your book!!

Petra xx

loved this post, so honest. thanks for sharing

Thank you for being so honest, we are here to love and support you Zoe!

I've enjoyed following you from the beginning and I'm so happy for you and proud of how far you've come! You've inspired me to follow my dreams and do whatever I want to do and I'm forever grateful to you!

Beth x | http://bethinboots.blogspot.co.uk

hey you're a huge inspiration to me, I have recently written a post about understanding anxiety and depression, if you could check it out it would mean a lot xxx http://emilylouiseok.blogspot.co.uk/2014/06/understanding-depression-and-anxiety.html

I just freaking love you Zoë, you are a beautifully talented person! And you make me laugh I love watching your videos, you are SO inspiring. ❤

Great Text!!

I LOVE your blog so much and the post is amazing. It's things like this that inspired me to start my own blog <3

Love you!

Check out my blog if you have time xoxo

Hi zoë I love your youtube channel and now i love your blog( only started reading lately) You are a true inspiration, and you have so many people who support and love you. You are amazing in so many ways i could not list all now.Personally you have heeled me so much and i am so grateful, and on the off chance you read this, I was hopping you could do a post or video on :how to blog to help new bloggers understand how to create and design there own blog. Lots of love and remember you re amazing in your own way on and off camera (and blogging page ???) xx P

Zoe, you inspired me to start writing a blog as i admire everything you do.
Could people please check it out :)
http://lifeenhancingalternativehabits.blogspot.co.uk/

Thankyou for inspiring us Zoe! xx

This post has so much great energy. I really love your blog especially for your way of writing. You try to talk to us as if we are your closest people. I personally love following you around, watching your vlogs. It makes me feel like I'm the part of this magical world you live in. I cry with you, I worry with you, I laugh and enjoy my life with you. Believe me when I say that you DO make my days better while I'm struggling.
You are beautiful. Inside and out. Thank you for you. We'll always be there for you.

Violetta (:
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Zoe, you inspired me to start my blog (http://natalieball17.blogspot.co.uk/) and i couldn't thank you enough. What you do just inspires me in general, some day i want to do what you do and be confident and proud of myself!

I just realized you use the same site that I do for my travel blog! I really appreciate that because so many people seem to use other sites, so I feel like people ignore BlogSpot, which apparently they don't :D It looks like you had a blast at VidCon!
http://thetravelsofolivia.blogspot.com/

All these things that you're doing are amazing. I'm really happy that even though you have it all you still a normal girl. I enjoy every watching new vlog, video or reading post on your blog. You're inspiration to us all! You show us that the most important thing is being yourself. I know you don't live in fairytale, 'cause nobody does, but you enjoy, live you life best you can. You inspired me to create my own blog. I'm not able to meet you 'cause I'm living in Poland but I hope that one day luck will be on my side and I'll finally meet and thank you for everything. You're wonderful person. (sorry for my english)

Helena xx
http://uniqueniceoriginal.blogspot.com/

Hi Zoe! I can't even explain to you how extremely happy i am for you and all your accomplishments. You are one of my biggest inspirations to go out and live my life how i want to. It is not only what you do that amazes me but also how you cope with all the pressure that surrounds you. You have so much passion for what you do and it amazes me, and i'm pretty sure a whole bunch of other people as well, how by the end of the day you can write a blog post or upload a video on time for everyone to see it(: You are not only an inspiration to me but to many other girls as well. If people don't like what you do then so what! Like you said they don't matter. Keep doing what you do for you, whatever choices you make I, and your 5 million+ other fans will still support you in any way. I hope in the future i will not only meet you but be your friend because YOU are one friend i would love to have! (:

Love you Zoe !
xxx

I have three wonderful kids and I love them so much. My husband is a wonderful daddy and husband, he provides very well for his family. And recently it has shown. He is a assistant manager and his boss went on medical leave so he has to take up all the slack! This leaves no time for us! But as a full-time stay at home mommy, I am getting very overwhelmed. I feel as though the only time I get to myself is at three in the morning. I am taking care of all the kids by myself. My son who is five is beginning to act out, he is just being very hyper. Oh, I don't know I guess I'm just venting. But has anyone else felt this overwhelmed?
BTW- I don't leave my kids with anyone other than my mom and I don't know anyone in the town I live in. Does anyone have any fun suggestions for me and my kids to relieve our stresses towards one another? Anything would be appreciated…my sons are 5 and 21 months and I also have a four month old little girl.
Thanks for letting me vent! You guys are super!

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Love your posts!
Take a look at my new blog and feel free to leave a comment :) there's not much there yet, but it's just a little something, thanks! ♥

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You are awesome Zoe, thank you for being so lovely!
Sara xx

I cannot believe how many people were there! I cannot wait to meet you one day. You are so lovely Zoe! You definitely deserve everything you have! You have worked so hard. I love you!!

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I really love this it makes me feel as though anyone can become as well known as Zoe if they try for it. I know this isn't the message Zoe is trying to show but it gives me a little bit of hope that one day people might start watching my videos on youtube because I'm just a ordinary girl who does blogs and videos and enjoys doing it x
My blog is bethdeyes.blogspot.co.uk (sorry but just in case you want to check it out)

You're so right Zoe (: sometimes people expect too much, but I guess everyone has their flaws. Love you (:

You may just be an ordinary girl, but you have inspired so many of us. You've given us confidence, made us strong and I can't thank you enough for that. xxx

My name is Andrea and I'm from spain. I discovered you many years ago and I couldn't stop watching all your videos and vlogs and reading your blog. I've seen your progress and I'm very impressed about who you've become (in a positive way), you are an example for all your subscribers and readers (including me). You've showed us how to say yes to more things that we would usually say no to. And how to try to be less insecure about ourselves. You are an inspiration for me and that's why I decided to create my own blog. I've always loved writting but I've been really scared about what would people think that I've never showed anything that I wrote before. You've been the support that I needed. I just wanted to say thank you! You don't know how helpful you really are for all of us. (Sorry for my spelling mistakes, I'm still improving my english)
Thanks again!!!!
Andrea

Please check out this drawing I did of you! If you looked and left a comment it would make the sun come out in scotland! http://savetheunicornferrets.blogspot.co.uk/2014/07/zoella-please-comment-link-for-this-on.html
Dear Zoe, so I have been following your blog posts and video's for about three years now, and I just want you to know I would be so happy to meet you and want to one time just, be able to tell you this in person, your such a wonderful person, Katy.

I never really use to read your blog that often, Zoella but that post really made me feel inspired though, I'm not exactly sure why. I have anxiety too and its interesting to think about how many similar things we have been through even though we live completely different lives! You really make a connection with your viewers/readers it really does help us be reminded that you are just a normal person. Its absolutely amazing!

Briannaly xo.
briannaly.blogspot.com~

Wonderful post Zoe! I completely understand where you're coming from and I'm sure all your other viewers and readers do too. We all want the best for you and value your personal well being highly. We love when you share your life with us but only as much as you're comfortable with. You're so beautiful and your house is decorated so beautifully too! I'd love to one day be even 1/100th as successful as you!

Love Anna x

http://collections-of-imperfections.blogspot.co.uk/

Zoe I look up to you so much and I think your such an amazing and beautiful person! I love the way you write your blogs and do your videos!
Catrin xx
http://www.catrinellis.blogspot.com

Hi Zoella,
My name is Zoe and I am 11 years old. I love watching your blog. I also love watching your vlogs to see what you have been doing. I also love watching your videos to keep me entertained on days when I am doing nothing. You are my inspiration and someday I would like to be doing what you are doing. Thank you for doing a sims series and helping me when I am playing the game myself. I watch you and all of your friends all the time. I loved it when you vlogged everyday in July❤️. And can you please come to Australia and do a meet up in Geelong!!! I know you can get nervous about travelling, I do to and you helped me around that.
Thank you so much for doing what you are doing and I also had an idea of what you could do a video about: showing everyone what you have got from your fans! (Just an idea!)
Love from Zoe
Ps. I drew a picture of you and if you follow me on pinetrest you will see it!
Pps. Can you give me a shout out in a video or read this in a video or reply to this!
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Hi I have a blog and I would really love it if someone could come and check out my blog any one I would love it. I post about fashion and beauty also I give tips on stress and friends and give you advice I am very new and would jump for joy if anyone woulod come.thx

This is so right really….
Me, your viewers, many other people take things for granted, we just know that you put up a video, make a blog post once in a while, we take it like its something that's supposed to be.. But you actually put quite a hard work into it, and that's what we take for granted.
I must say I watch your videos once in a while, and I enjoy your blog very much, your words are so well thought through.

Just like people I do this too, it is work for you and you put thoughts into it too, of course you get to do so many incredible things, but sometimes it's just for what?

For mean comments? For everybodys judgement? well no, you started because you liked it as you say, and because it's a hobby, and still is-
But just like so many else I just think well you're never sad, you never care about what people think and you are flawless.
But no, the truth is no one is flawless, if you're not flawless you're not human..
But of course there is some tears behind those smiles, and behind those scenes, we only see what 7 minutes or so of what a week of your life, of course you live more than 7 minutes a week, we don't see what's behind the camera.
People talk about you and so many other people like robots, like hey they are a part of something, people know who they are, they are suddenly not human anymore…

And I have had to habbit of doing the exact same thing, well I am not flawless either, I am a human wuth just as many mistakes as it takes.

So many people fall from the pressure people get, just because you get a lot of attention does not necessarily mean that you are not just a human being who sometimes needs a day off, who needs to do something thaat makes you happy and comfortable.

what does the word famous and celebrity mean really? that you are known of people, do something other people enjoy, get some opportunities to do something not everyone can do? but does it mean you're not you or need prrivacy or relaxing days.
so why make this certain label, no one is just a brand, we are all the same, never the less.

Idk I am a blogger myself, haven't really gotten so much attention, but really I dont care, I am doing this because I love it, because it's a hobby, and maybe someday it will grow, but who knows, I do it for the sake of myself.

so never feel any pressure of doing it because people tell you to, and yes it is so much easier said than done, but always keep it in mind.
and Yes I know it's a pressure doing so much and having so many people supporting, it's overwhelming, and nice too I guess, but just one nasty comment can ruin it all.
But just like me you are a blogger, but you are certainly also a human, never forget yourself for who people want you to be !

– A kind word from a Blogger like you :-)

Love you too zoe

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It's always nice to know that I'm not the only one with anxiety and panic attacks. I guess it gives me hope that I might be able to tackle and sort of control my panic attacks. Always lovely to find out the people I admire are so modest and humble and completely normal :)

I totally understand how you must feel, cant imagine how overwhelming it must be! I watch your videos religiously, and can't believe how far you've come over the lats few years. Iv'e always hoped that one day I would be able to attend a meetup, and although it would be amazing to meet you in person, watching your videos is enough. Just the fact that you make your videos for all your fans to watch [and invest so much time into your videos] is enough. Because it shows that you care enough to take your time for people you don't even know. You share so much of your life with your fans its as if we all know you personally! Keep doing what your doing , because your taking the world by storm. xx

I love your blog zoe! All of you are amazing :D i just wish that you guys would come to India and meet us all. you guys have loads of people wanting to meet you, trust me. i love you all so much <3 especially you, caspar (lol my dog's name is also caspar :P) and joe and alphie :D

You're an inspiration! Its incredible to see the feedback and responses you get from followers, I remember first finding your blog a few years ago and just thinking how refreshing and honest and lovely and bubbly you were! It really is so uplifting to read and watch, for me personally. Whenever I am having a down day, I always turn to you and Tanya Burr to lift my mood!! How can I be down when there's the happiest twosome alive just a click away. Keep being Zoe!!

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Zoe, I've been following you before you were on YouTube. Your blog has inspired me so much & I am grateful you've shared your story on anxiety. I've found a way for myself to overcome my anxiety by doing a "negative vibes cleanse". It's my first blog post idea and your way of helping out others' anxiety helped me with this post!

Melissaxx

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Love this, so happy that you've made it this far. You inspired me to start my own blog so that's what I did.
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Zoe you are my hero I love you so much I wish I could be you because you handle your anxiety way better than me x

This blog post is one of the best things I have ever read. I can’t even imagine doing everything that you get to do, while still managing to keep as calm as possible – this is why you are one of my greatest inspirations! I have so much respect for you and all YouTubers/Bloggers out there! I feel so honoured that you let us all into your world and open up as much as you do. I know I’m not the only person to say this, but you have honestly changed my life and opened my eyes to so many things. Xx

I often think about the connection that I can have with a ”famous” person and I understand why I consider it as a ”different” one. Yes Zoe I can meet you, I can hug you, but I know that I would NEVER be your friend.. I would never (as you said) sit around a table with you, never going shopping, never watch a film together. We will never have the opportunity to stay together more than 5 seconds, the opportunity to know each other.. That’s what makes me more sad, I’m happy to meet you, but as those 5 seconds during a meet and greet are finished, to you I return to be 1 in a million people, but you remain the person that I really appreciate and that I could never really reach. Still see your videos and find you funny, never have the opportunity to show you that we have several things in common and that we can share lots of beautiful moments together.. I know some things about you and your life, but you can’t do the same. Do you see what’s the point? Of course you remain a normal person, but there’s some things about the notoriety that aren’t those of a normal life.. And that’s the part that sucks, because I really think that you are for many aspects like me, but WE’ll never be able to discover that..

(Kate, 19)

I am starting a blog on my life with anxiety! Hope you guys check it out maybe? http://amandamarieblog.my-free.website

I would just like to say that you (Zoe) have had a huge effect on my life. Over the past 2 weeks i have been suffering with really bad anxiety and panic attacks and i have had one nearly every day. I can’t explain how much reading your blog posts had helped me through it and how much i can relate to you. I would just like to add I have awoken feeling anxious and have a lot on my mind, its 3am and I couldn’t sleep so decide to read this to help clear my mind (which it has) and i fell so overwhelmed that someone knows how i feel. My family nor do my teachers understand and they want to sent me to the doctor like i have some sort of disease. Its weird because I think talking to people has made everything worse as they think I am mad and I feel like now everyone is talking about me behind my back. I know you may not even see this but it is worth a 0.001 percent that you might read this and I want you to know that you have made a huge impact on my life and that there is someone who has the same thing and that I don’t feel alone. Love you Zoe xoxo

Hello Zoe! My name is Sally, I’m form Malaysia, 19 years old. All I can say is that I love you Zoe! You been one of my favorite youtuber and blogger since last year! And what you have spoke and wrote about your thoughts and shared the videos on youtube were truly inspiring..I just LOVE to read and watch them! It makes me so happy just to sit around the corner or on the sofa to watch your videos :) They always makes my day! I been through bad anxiety experiences during the past years, and I could said it was really tough and depressing. But I tried to overcome all the fears and anxiety these recent years by telling myself “Everyday is a new day to begin with lot’s of happiness that you may find in just a few simple things or little moments in your life” and IT WORKS :D Now I always do stuff that is out of my comfort zone and stop being caring too much about what other people thought about me, because ‘you are the only person who knows what you’re gonna do!’ Thanks for sharing this blog post! xoxo

Hey zoe, the likely hood is that you probably wont read this post but if you do i just want to say thank you. Both your video and this blog has helped me so much with my anxiety and panic attacks. I know i have suffered with them from a very young age and now i have managed to come to terms with it i was brave enough to tell my mum. This is all because of you and i just want to to tell you how great full i am (-:

Hi zoe. My name is Lucie flore. I am a lifestyle blogger and I would just like to say that to everyone, you are an inspiration. I know you wrote this post a long time ago but to me this post reflcts on how people feel today. Anxiety is hard for everyone and on writing this post, you make it alot easier for people to cope with it now. Thanks to you we now know that even famous people haven’t got perfect lives. They deal with the same kind of things we deal with. It really helps us and it makes us happy when we read your posts. If you have time to red my blog that would be amazing. I’ve been blogging for quite a long time but have never found the ideal platform. Reading your blog however inspires me to write things down about how I feel and what I can do to make my corner of the internet a much better place. Thankyou so much for all the kindness that you have sahred with us through your blog. It really does make us smile…

Lucie x

https://luciefore.blogspot.co.uk/

Hi Zoe, i recently had to do a biography in English (i’m year 9, in Australia) on someone who influences me most. i decided to do it on you as i suffer with panic attacks and anxiety. i wanted to say thank you, your videos and posts help me a lot, they help me in ways my boyfriend can’t it comforts me knowing that others suffer such as myself. after we completed our biography’s we had to present them in front of the class, which was hard for myself because i can’t do class presentations or have a massive crowds attention as it is what gives me panic attacks most. i was in a new class with people i wasn’t comfortable with and a new teacher. i wanted to give up and fail because my teacher though it was unfair if i did it in front of him and not the whole class but because of you and Alfie always saying to never give up i found away to do my presentation. it wasn’t in front of the class it was about half of my class and the teacher, only the people i felt comfortable in front of. i guess i didn’t want everyone knowing about my anxiety. i also wanted to thank you for some advice you gave a while back and it was “get rid of the negative people in your life.” i have recently moved to a whole new place 2 years ago and that was the hardest part of my life, that’s when my anxiety started because i had read books about the “new girl” getting bullied. i found some amazing friends and last year i got myself an amazing boyfriend who cares and helps me but the person that i thought was my best friend would always say things about me to my face, compare me in bad ways to my other friends, dissed the things i loved and that made me happy and ignore me when i had stuff to say, she was a great friend other than that. i was scared to leave her and that she would start rumors but it so bad that she was a cause of my anxiety so eventually i had to leave her as a friend, since than i have been a lot happier. thank you Zoe, it would mean a lot if you could email me back one day if your not busy hanbahbh@gmail.com xx love lots Hannah